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They watch us, each move.

Hidden, they see us.

Quietly, they take us.

 

We are but ants to Them,

Living in a glass world,

On display,

Our daily lives,

Unbeknownst and unparseable to us.

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2026/03/24 - Compliance to Her

[CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING] Contains some elements that may be interpreted as self-harm and/or schizophrenia I think. Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong for the latter, as I don't know too much about it.   See Her;She Guides I see her here. Don’t you? She’s at my side, Holding a knife. Why don’t you see her?   She whispers to me, Guides me. She hands me the knife, I take it. She directs my hand, I comply.   I se
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2026/03/25 - Trapped and Sealed

"They can survive on very little, in their cells. They barely need to be fed, and simply need daily watering. Why give extra? After all, we are doing them a favor keeping them alive..." — Mono Guidebook (Abridged 30th Edition), Chapter 17, Page 9.     CAUGHT;NO-HOPE YOU MUST COMPLY, UNLESS YOU WISH TO DIE.   AND EVEN IF YOU DO, WE WON'T BE KIND TO YOU.   YOUR FATE IS SEALED, IT WILL NOT BE REPEALED.   WE HAVE CAUGHT YOUR EY
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2026/03/16 - Hopelessness

[CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING] Some of the following poems/stories are kinda depressing and may be triggering. Consider not reading these if you are depressed or get triggered by certain things.   PA "Attention all! Attention all! Please be aware that we are undergoing technical ... hindrances, and thus our systems will be offline until further notice while we investigate and remedy these issues. I repeat, all non-critical systems will be offline until further notice! We apologize
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2026/04/02 - Dreaming

The Silence of Night I want…to be free. The wind, the night. The cold, no warmth. Away from these husks. Away from the sun. Alone…with silence. The silence of night.   I want to walk, run, Dance, skip, Sit, lay down, Taking in the stars, Feeling fresh breeze, The clean invigorating breeze, Purging the filth, Imbuing the true-and-only joy.   I want to just forget. Walk the night for hours, Not go b
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2026/03/23 - Dark Halls and Living Hell

Insanity Book It resides on a dusty shelf, In a forgotten Dark Hall. No still-sane mind, Has glimpsed its pages. It seeks unstable minds, Whose insanity must be Revealed. It seeks you, my friend. As it sought me.   Sought It was a late-summer night, Not too long ago. I was helpless, confused, And it sought me. I will soon seek it too, As it gave me a vision.   Restless Visions A vision of it, In t
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2026/03/27 - Woe from Joy

I was basically asleep while writing these, especially that last one. So... idk if they'll make sense or be written poorly or anything.   Endless Aisles Browsing the lines, The endless rows. Selecting from mass-produced items, Picking cute clothes.   Arms grow tired, A small piece of infinity explored. That's how our brains are wired; We always want more.   Browsing the lines, The endless rows. Too many highs, Sparin
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2026/04/21 - Suffering

Desire, Why? Knowledge. She craved knowledge, she needed it. Her cursory expertise in certain areas constantly nagged at her mind. She needed to... understand. She had to, lest she continue suffering. And she didn't want to be miserable. Or did she? No use going there again. - - - Taylor glanced up as a woman approached with an armful of books. She had long black hair that looked like it hadn't been brushed recently. "You like readin'?" Taylor said, trying to make conversatio
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2026/03/24 - Too Late

"Two meanings, too late both ways, as we are all late and may as well be." — The Sixth of the Ten Icks, Late   Eyes Eyes watching me all around, I see Them. Eyes in jars on the floor in the mirror. The mirror! They use my eyes, My eyes are Theirs now, My eyes become Their Eyes. You are Seen now.   “I must…” “Do what I can,” “To delay Their spreading Influence.” “I…” I’m scared.   “I must leave,” “It’s
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2026/03/22 - Insanity Book

Secrets Unknowable (The Page (2025/12/31), pt. 2) A single page, the most unknowable secrets. A single sheet, the Unraveler of Minds. A single paper, held in a hand. A single mind, now gone.   - Lily
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2025/12/31

Note: this entry is entitled "2025/12/31" because that is the date I wrote the following stories.   The Diary I had a lot of books. Most of them were collecting dust, scarcely touched. One day, I turned from my desk as a loud crash sounded, and books came tumbling down. On top of the pile? My cat, Ivy, sat, licking her paw innocently. I sighed—she was always doing things like this. I carefully shooed Ivy off the books, and the pile shifted precariously. Then I saw it. I had lost it y
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2026/04/08 - Slop

Not sure if this one is a bit too intense.. please let me know if it is. (It's not (C/T)W-worthy, in my opinion though).   Slop Sickening, all of it. It makes me want to... unplug my brain. All the data, all the attention-grabbers, the mindlessness, the soul-suckers, the harm, the addictiveness... All of Ten Icks, "humanity" is plagued by. All the slop and blackboxes, All the blackboxes we see through but ignore, because it's convenient, or because th
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2026/01/08 (Poems!)

Note: I made a lot of poems or poem-esque in the second half of this day's (which was actually yesterday!) chunk of writing. So...hope you enjoy! You might not understand all the poems, but isn't that sometimes the point?   Dreams She dreamt of him again that night. The mystery boy. She didn’t know him, but almost felt like she did. And when she woke up, she missed him—or the dream. She just wanted to ignore that irritating alarm and drift back to sleep—back to him. She knew she c
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2026/01/09 (More poems...!!)

Lots of poems today! Yeah... *gulp* (Poems begin after the following story.)   Complicated For Nora, immortality was…complicated. Some of it was the loneliness and loss that everyone talked about. Some of it was thinking of all you could have done in a time far-gone. Over time, Nora had learned how to let years pass like weeks. But sometimes she missed something. Or felt like she did. Truth was, you only realized what you missed after the fact. Nora could do nearly anyth
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2026/03/12? - Loathing and Administration

Wrote most of these too late, now I'm running on five hours of sleep. sigh   Nobody Cares Nobody cares about us. Nobody actually cares. They say "we respect your privacy," As they sell your identity. They say "we care about you," As they pat their wallets. They say "we value your opinion," As they boot up the paper shredder. Nobody cares. Nobody listens.   Unappealable Dear user,   We hope this message finds you
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2026/03/21 - Drifting

This is a continuation of Space from 2026/01/08   Time… (Space (2026/01/08), pt. 2) She had been here for months, headed toward Salvation. She would get there any day now. Just a few more years. Just a… Just… She tried not to dwell on… time. She had turned off the clocks on all the holographic displays; she had taken down the old-school wall calendar and hid it somewhere—she didn’t know where, and hoped she didn’t remember. She just let the days slip by, sleeping when she felt lik
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2026/01/15

Ok, so...I wasn't actually gonna write anything today. I was feeling kinda awful (I'm better for the moment) and didn't have any motivation to write. Even though I planned to write something, anything, even just a simple five-line poem or hundred-word story, for this blog each day, I was of the mind that, well, I had fun in the past two weeks - a surge of creativity - and it was now over. Then, the rational part of my mind convinced me that if I skip one day - or even forego writing altogether -
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2026/03/31 - sli.. ping

? I stumble in a dance, there are people around me walking, lips moving. Are they talking, I can’t hear them, but oh it’s alright. Where am I, I don’t know, it’s strange. What was I doing, who am I, oh this dance is nice, pleasant, who are these people though? … I wake up sweating, heart racing, breathing quickly, why? I’ll just… I’ll just rest some more… … I’m a child again, such wonderful times… oh oh nevermind, must have slipped my mind. It’s all… all… … I…
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2026/05/01 - Unoriginal, Unthoughtful

I might schedule multiple to be posted this day, since they're short.   Broken Record… Or Something… I’m a fool, and maybe that’s okay. I don’t need to stay the same, I can change. I can simply accept I am wrong and update my mind.   I, the broken record, just repeating myself. Stuck in a loop, a different kind of static. Getting nowhere, not even thinking. I write the same things I did last evening.   And so I should change, somehow.
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2026/01/03

Hungry     His stomach growled, but he couldn’t sate it. Not yet. He still had patients to deal with. As the next one—a young man—entered, he forced himself to focus on anything other than his hunger. Each time he finished the meager rations, he looked forward to the next meal—if you could call it one.     His patient turned out to have signs of that new sickness that was rampant in these parts. He hoped he hadn’t caught it. The sickness hadn’t claimed any lives…yet. Though it was also fairl
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2026/03/13 - May_1

I made another.   b3b5…8938.exe May sat at her desk, navigating through the mess of tabs and windows she had open. She had so many things stored in her clipboard that she lost track of what each was for. What May was doing wasn’t exactly…encouraged by the law, but she had to know. Concentrating, May worked through each step, luckily coming across very few errors. She had to get this right, and there were no second chances. At last, May clicked “download” and sat back, anticip
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2026/03/19 - Psyche

Blots of Ink Shadows on paper, Shadows of mind. Images emerge, Images I see. Fear manifest, Fear revealed.   What I see? I won’t say. What I see? I’m not sure. What I see? Better unseen.   Images entrancing, Mind dancing, Eyes failing, Insanity prevailing, No longer sane, Brain a haze.   Dazed I’m in a daze—eyes heavy brain tired body slow. I’m so tired—so very tired. Star
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2026/03/21? - Rightful Terror

The tangled webs converge and Meet. The Unaware go through their motions precisely. They follow the Script.   Laughter We drive through the cool night, Through the buildings and lights, We take a right.   We drive down the boulevard, We enter the courtyard, Into a line, behind cars.   We state our wishes, Pay with our riches, Receive our dishes.   We head on out, Back to the mount, And I have no doubt.
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2026/01/12

Music Music: expression. For me and the artist. Or the artist in me.   Restless I lay in my bed, covers askew, Tossing and turning, Shivers then sweat.   Each time I drift, I awaken again.   I try to relax, But comfort is fleeting.   At some unknown time, I fall to sleep. Yet my brain takes notice, And drags me away.   I sit up in bed, Tired…or not? Wishing, o’ wishing, I would
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2026/02/19

I wrote this kinda late yesterday, so I'm publishing it now the next day.   Unlived She sat with them, happy. She sat with them, a rare joy. She sat with them, being herself—or trying. She sat there in one of the few amazing moments of her life. … She walked with them, through the night. She listened as they talked, sometimes joining. She rarely spoke, however. That was her way—as long as she could remember. It could be hell, but it was
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