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Some of the time I'd say Kaladin, sometimes Renarin.

I really want to help people, sometimes to the detriment of myself like Kaladin tends to.

But I also relate to the loneliness and isolationism that Renarin experiences due to his illness. I grew up a pretty nerdy kid in a rural area, so I was often left out of a lot of activities and such. It led to pretty bad social anxiety, so I've spent a lot of my life alone, and have never managed to have many friends.

21 hours ago, Deception said:

This may seem confusing at first, but will make sense when you finish reading.

 

First, you have to know Binary, and how to convert it to normal base 10 numbers.

In binary, everything is a 1 or a 0, and instead of, for example, a 1s 10s and 100s place like in base 10 (normal numbers), it has a 1s, 2s, and 4s place with the value multiplying by 2 each time instead of 10.

For example, let's decode 0010101.

The 1 on the right is in the ones place. Current total: 1

The next number to the left is a 0, in the twos place. Add nothing. Current total: 1

The next number to the left, a one, is in the fours place. Add 4 to the total. Current total: 5

The next number to the left is a 0, in the eights place. Add nothing.

The number to the far left is a 1, in the 16s place. Add 16 to the total. Current total: 21

 

There are now no more non-zero numbers to the left, so we are done. 0010101 (binary) is equal to 21 (base 10).

 

Now that you know how to convert from binary to base 10, you can begin creating a  single Brickish letter, represented by one word "brick", except the case of each letter matters. An uppercase letter maps to a 1, and a lowercase to a 0.

For example, bRiCk would be 01010.

 

Now, to actually create a letter. Each letter gets a number, which corresponds to its place in the alphabet. If you can't figure out what place in the alphabet a letter has, or what letter in the alphabet a number becomes, sing the ABCs in your head and count on your fingers.

For example, the A=1, B=2, C=3, D=4, etc.

To make a letter in Brickish, first find the letter's number. Then encode that number into binary.

If the resulting binary number is less than 5 digits long, pad the left side with 0s. For example, 101 would become 00101 to make it 5 digits. If you do this correctly, it should never be more than 5 digits.

 

Now, map that number to the word "brick", where capitals are 1 and lowercase letters are 0. For example, 00101 becomes "brIcK".

YAY! You just made a letter in brickish! Now, formatting.

Letters (bricks) are separated by spaces

- brick brick brick

Words are separated by newlines.

brick brick

brick

brick brick brick brick

would be 3 words.

Now of course, you will never see a normal all-lowercase "brick" in Brickish, because that maps to a 0, and there is no 0th letter of the alphabet.

 

 

 

Here is a full example of decoding the Brickish letter "BrICk".

1. Convert to binary. 10110
2. Convert to base 10. 16 + 0 + 4 + 2 + 0 = 22
3. Sing the abcs and finger count to find the right letter. 22 maps to the letter V.
4. DONE!!!

 

 

 

Finally, the last thing you need to know to be fluent in Brickish: how to convert base 10 to binary, to create a word.
 

Let's use 19 as an example.

First, we create the left most digit in the 5 digit binary sequence, the one in the 16s place. If your number is more than 16, that digit will be a 1, and subtract 16 from your number. Current binary: 1, current number: 19-16 = 3

Now we do the same thing for the 8s place. 3 is less than 8, so we put a 0 there. Current binary: 10

Now the 4s place. 3 is less than 4, so we put a 0 there. Current binary: 100

Now the 2s place. 3 is more than 2, so we subtract 2 from it and put a 1 there. Current binary: 1001

Finally, the 1s place. 1 is equal to 1, so we subtract one and put a 1 there.

Final binary: 10011

 

 

 

THE FULL PROCESS OF CREATING THE WORD "hey":

H is number 8 in the alphabet.

8 maps to 01000 in binary.

01000 maps to bRick in brickish

 

E is number 5 in the alphabet.

5 maps to 00101 in binary.

00101 maps to brIcK in brickish.

 

Y is number 25 in the alphabet.

 

Let's go through the process of turning this into binary.

16s place: is 25 more than or equal to 16? Yes. Subtract 16 (new number 9) and put a 1 there. Current binary: 1.

8s place: is 9 more than or equal to 8? Yes. Subtract 8 (new number 1) and put a 1 there. Current binary: 11.

4s place: 1 < 4, so use a 0. Current binary: 110.

2s place: 1 < 2, so use a 0. Current binary: 1100.

1s place. 1 = 1, so subtract 1 (new number 0) and put a 1 there.

Final binary: 11001

 

Now that it is in binary, we just need to map it to capitals and lowercases of the word brick. 11001 maps to BRicK.

 

FINAL RESULT: 

bRick brIcK BRicK

 

It seems like a long process, but you will get faster at it.

 

The robots I work with get their program calls from binary coded decimal. I use something similar almost every day. Great idea!

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

That's really rough. Sometimes I think it can be validating if your depression feels justified? Or maybe not idk. But I know sometimes I can't identify a cause and then question myself and can't see how it's real. Idk if I'm understanding right tho...

How did the appointment go?

It is somewhat validating. I just can't seem to get out of this rut. Bad things just keep happening, making me question if they'll or I'll ever get any better. 

The appointment went ok, I appreciate you asking. We've juggled some things around, and today my anxiety wasn't as bad.

Had to work some overtime today, and it actually wasn't terrible, so I'm going to try and take that as the win that it is. I've started back at an old job that I had 10 years ago, and have a bit of a different perspective now, so maybe this time it will work out better. So far it has, and I'm trying to remain as positive as I can about it.

I vow to crush all the cinder blocks!

4 minutes ago, Deception said:

Ugh, that sounds bad.

It's the worst, to be depressed because of a brain condition but to also be depressed because of external problems at the same time.

The last few years have been really hard. Got laid off from my dream job, couldn't find work for a while, so I moved back to my home state hoping it would be better. Soon after, we lost both of our dogs, one to cancer, the other was attacked three weeks later at a dog park. Plus the jobs haven't been any easier to get. I've had 4 in the last 3 years just trying to make ends meet, all while taking care of a disabled girlfriend. Hence the bankruptcy. I also had to let my truck and camper be repossessed.

Most of my depression just feels so damn justified. It's hard to see past it, even though I know others have it worse. 

Dang! I'm away for the afternoon, and Y'all had a big ol' time. Lol.

I can be a spy. I mean, how hard can it be to sneak up on a cinder block? 

I'm fairly tall, and I think with my graying dark hair and blue eyes, Dalinar would probably be my best fit as far as looks go. But I'd rather play Hoid. That may work, too, depending on what he looks like at the time. Lol.

3 minutes ago, Deception said:

 

But look...

EVEN BETTER! FLOATY STACK!!!

THE BRICKS ARE FLOATING BECAUSE OF THEIR DIVINE POWERS!!!

So what source of investiture are they using? We have to know! 

I completely read the subject of this thread as Mrs. Doubtfire.

I'll ask my favorite question, if you could pair up any two Cosmere characters, maybe for their own book, who would they be? I usually use the example of Wayne and The Lopin. I figure that would be absolutely hilarious!

1 hour ago, Deception said:

 

BRICKS HAVE AN EMOJI! HA! CINDER BLOCKS CAN'T BEAT THAT!!!

If only the emoji would stack like real bricks.

10 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

I relate to you

I've tried a handful of different meds over the years, not just for depression and anxiety but also for my ADHD. I honestly didn't know which ones worked or not, and I'm not sure any did. I'm on new meds now (again), and they're possibly working, even if they didn't solve anything (I meant to type "everything"?)

For the doctor/psychiatrist appointment, that's a thing to look forward to! You can bring up feeling like meds haven't been working. Make sure you are honest, because being honest can get you help sooner. Not just not lying, but telling a fuller or the full extent, or not withholding something. It doesn't even have to be bad stuff. But I know that in many meetings/appointments/check-ins, I've said "I'm fine" or "everything's good" to avoid thinking about it, get it over with, not confront the truth, not tell them that I'm doing bad because I wanted to solve ot myself (spoiler: didn't work for me). Idk.

I don't really wanna give any medical advice type stuff, so I won't hehe. But... find people, even if that's us, to talk to about all of it. Maybe your girlfriend, or any other friends or family that you're close to if you have them.

For me, I just... keep going, I guess. At least in the past it was... easier. To just be depressed most/all the time and go through the days months and years. It's gotten harder lately and I needed to get help, which I did, and it was hard.

 

edit: might be able to say more later idk, hope that helps

Yeah, ADHD, is one of the things I'm borderline on. They gave me some meds for that once, and it made my anxiety worse, as it seems like most of them seem to do for some reason. I've been at this for 20 years at this point off-and-on, I just really wish there was a better answer. 

You make a good point about telling my doctor everything. I was actually planning today to do just that. I have been better about not holding back, but today is probably the worst I've felt in months, so I really just want to lay it all out. 

I'm also in a fight with my bankruptcy lawyer (a rather one-sided one since I can never actually reach him), so that's not helping any. 

As for family and friends, those are pretty limited in my life right now. Things have just either pushed them away, or I've drawn myself away from them in some cases. I have one friend that's really helpful in some ways, but talking to him about things like this seems to make him uncomfortable. Same thing for my dad. I don't talk to the rest of my family. My mom thinks I need a lecture, not therapy. Her words, not mine. I don't like to burden my girlfriend with too much, but we do talk about most things. She's about all I have outside of this forum. 

And I know I'm too hard on myself, but I feel like I should have this figured out by this point in my life. 

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Hey everyone. I kinda feel like I'm interrupting a little. Been away for a little bit, but I just need to say this I think. I started on this forum when I was feeling kinda better and hoped to be of more help here. But my meds have been messing with me pretty bad. I had been feeling better, or thought I was, then my anxiety starting coming back and now has surpassed what it ever was to begin with with. Luckily I see my doc today. Hopefully we can find out a solution.

I feel like I've been on so many now, I can't believe any more are left. I'm not even sure what's me and what's the medicine at this point. I don't feel like I even know what's actually the problem. According to several different doctors, I'm like borderline for all kinds of stuff, but nothing definitive other than depression and anxiety. Makes it feel like a generic diagnosis, even though I think that's still enough on it's own.

This week has been the first time in a little while that I wanted nothing more than just to give up. Just pack my things, get my girlfriend, then drive into the woods and disappear. I'm no outdoorsman, I'd definitely cry the first time I had to kill anything at all to survive, so that probably isn't a great idea. Still seems better than the alternative of sitting at work trembling and fidgeting because I can't sit still.

How does everyone deal with these changes? The constant up and down? 

This brick day, I present.... THE MOST DANGEROUS BRICK

I know with the internet being the crazy place that it is that a lot of people probably don't want to provide an exact location, I definetly get that.

BUT.... I was wondering if anyone would be interested in starting local reading and/or rpg groups? I find I don't run across as many worldhoppers in my neck of the woods (at least that I know of!) and was thinking it might be fun if we had some groups separated by country/state/locality, whatever is appropriate for the area so that we might meet in person and share our love of the Cosmere. 

For me personally, I'd love to try the Cosmere RPG, but I've never played a table top RPG and would like to learn. I just don't know anyone around my admittedly rural area.

14 hours ago, JohnTMS said:

Life before death, strength before weakness, journey before destination.

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In a sense you could argue I've said those words for about as long as I could speak.

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 RoW Ch. 12 Epigraph: "One of my pleas is for artifabrians to stop shrouding fabrial techniques with so much mystery. Many decoy metals are used in cages, and wires are often plated to look like a different metal, with the express intent of confusing those who might try to learn the process through personal study. This might enrich the artifabrian, but it impoverishes us all."

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I will wield truth as a cleansing light, even if it must cleanse myself.

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No man is born perfect, nor should they ever expect to attain perfection as such. But growth through acknowledgement of wrongdoing can only help the pursuit of truth for all. How can one show the truth, if they cannot first be truthful with themselves?

 

 

Congrats!

Brickety-brick, oh, brickety-brick!

Friend of mine suggested an old song we used to listen to alot back in the day. Figured I'd share!

Every Time I Die - The New Black

I'm usually a little more hard core, been a metalhead since the transition from hair bands to grunge, think Metallica Black album timing. Been a big fan of Slipknow and Lamb of God over the years. I've probably seen Slipknot live about 5 or 6 times. BUT, I've lately also been listening to metal covers of pop songs and have really been having fun with it. Halocene, Frog Leap Studios being the top of the list. Just something different for a change.

10 hours ago, Hearthspren said:

Ooh! That's an interesting question! I don't think the entire Cosmere could handle Wayne and The Lopen in the same room, lol.

Pre-Harmony Sazed and Jasnah locked in a room talking about religion could be interesting.

Ishar and Vasher would also be interesting considering their respective understanding of investiture mechanics.

I'd also like to see Vin and Lift.

Ooooh, I like those! Definitely didn't think of Vin and Lift! I just got done with listen-through #2 of Warbreaker, it really would be cool to see Vasher and Ishar talk, I think it would be enlightening for us all! Sazed and Yasnah, too, that would be an epic, but respectful battle!

12 hours ago, JohnTMS said:

Hello all,

Super excited to finally join up here on the forums! Suppose I'm done being that much of a hermit to pop out of the woodwork every once in a while to throw out my 2 steel coins, so to speak.

Still have a handful more Cosmere books to read before I'm fully caught up,

• Yumi and the Nightmare Painter
• The Sunlit Man
• Isles of the Emberdark

but sans anything from Fires of December, I don't mind spoilers in the slightest!

 

Hope everyone reading has a phenomenal day 

We're in about the same position reading-wise in the Cosmere, I also need Tress of the Emerald Sea to be complete, just waiting on my library to get a copy. (I'll buy one eventually, but money's tight)

That being said, I've been asking everyone, if you could bring any two characters together from any of the books, who would they be? No limitations in time/space/Investiture, Super Smash Bros style. My example is Wayne and The Lopen. Those two together would be hilarious! 

9 minutes ago, Knoebel said:

For 6 characters? Adolin, Spook, Vivenna, Siri, Wayne, and the Lopen.

I'd love to see Wayne and The Lopen together! I was just posting about that on someone else's introduction. If you could have a story with any two Cosmere characters, ignoring time/space/all that nonsense, Super Smash Bros style, who would they be? 

What character duos would you like to see in some unlimited universe where anything was possible?

I was listening to Dawnshard over the weekend, and I thought about how much fun it would be to see Wayne and The Lopen together for example. There's several others I've thought about, too, but I'll let someone else answer!

28 minutes ago, NerdSandwich said:

Yes it is!
Bricks are so beautiful!!!

Bricks are beautiful!

Here's some pretty bricks with garnish! 

I think I'm ready. I've talked with Zo'rah, and she agrees. 

In order to be able to help others, I first need to help myself. It's the reason I found this forum to begin with, my first post was in the mental health forum. I want to be able to give back as well. So my first words as a Truthrunner are these:

I will seek my personal Truth so that I may help others.

10 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

Where did you find this image?

Also, hi! I don't think I've seen you around before!

Lol, I just searched for brick damage and images, and that popped up.

And Hi! yeah, I just signed up a couple of days ago. Nice to meet you!