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Ooo! I want in! Character: Star, Shard of Odium (If that's allowed. I mean I thought it was because it was in your entry post, but just in case)

Thanks guys. I think I'm gonna refrain from saying anything else about my mental state for now 'cause I was reminded that this is very much available to anyone online... also I'm just kinda tired right now... Also I haven't even started the crazy parts yet... But thank you. It does help. So yeah there's a reason my member title is what it is...

"Welcome!" Star says brightly. "I'm Star, and these are my three spren! Coil is over there by West, Ryil is right here-" Star points to her shoulder where Ryil is sitting- "and Flicker is... somewhere."

"Yeah, of course!"

Amaram?

I.... That's the problem, I guess. When I do want to talk I can't find the words. I guess... I just want to know what to do. And to know that I'm not crazy. And that people care. Because that's hard to believe, at least right now. It's not your fault. I feel scared saying anything. Darkness screams that everything I do will tear everything down and ruin everything and I'm scared. I just don't want to lose my friends. Goodness knows I don't have enough of those. To be honest I'm scared even posting this. It's me. Something is wrong and I want to know what to do but I don't so I tell myself to stay quiet. This isn't anyone else's problem. It's mine, and I should be the only one burdened by it. I don't know what it is. I just... am scared, I guess. I'm not sure what to do.

Yeah, I know, that's just the anxiety/depression talking. Like, you guys know the SU I posted about not being able to express myself? After I posted that I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't fall back asleep for an hour+ as my mind went through all the horrible scenarios of what everyone would say and how I would ruin everything. I know you guys wouldn't ever do that, but I have trust issues. I've been burned to often to not. I want to talk to people, but every time I try I get stabbed in the back. So I'm just a little afraid.

Yeah I know. My desire to post there varies day by day. Like I need advice but I'm afraid I'm gonna sound crazy and everyone is gonna hate me.

GOODBYE!!!

Oh I've been debating posting on MHC for a while, but I always talk myself out of it.

You mean in this thread? I don't know if that ever happened...

This thread is glorious. Don't question the cults we've created here. Or the demons.

"Why thank you," Ryil says, pleased at the sort of halfway compliment. "How does that work?" He asks Crystal. "You can't really stop yourself from feeling emotion, and pretending that you don't feel it does not help you in any way." "Welcome to the vision!" Star greets Deception. "And that's just typical Ryil. He loves logic!"

Neither of them are serious. They are bonkers, hilarious threads where I regret every strange thing I ever said.

I tried to write music once... I only wrote one verse, which turned into the poem The Weight of the World. Need I recall my 'Let it Go' torture? *realizes I never actually finished the revenge* Probably a problem that half of it is in PMs then... WE'LL MISS YOU!!!! Also... Storm it Conure and GG0z... I'm never gonna catch up now...

"We are not lesser spren," Coil says softly, looking to Crystal. "So do not call us such." Ryil pushes his glasses farther up his nose and notes, "There is no such thing as 'lesser spren' as all spren are slivers of the Almighty, and thus equal"

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Either way, I do know about it. The Twin bond causes some interesting things...

Ohhh yeah. I think that happens in RoW though, no?

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What is it about? I want to know either way, I think I just missed that conversation.