@Keke thank you for making me think about this topic.
I haven’t thought about it much, but i used to have like one of three pocketknives basically at my fingertips wherever i went up until I SH’d. Whenever i would be emotionally upset i would feel the knife in my pocket and sometimes would think about it, but quickly shoot it down. Until… I didn’t. After i SH’d I gave my knives to my parents. Idk if I would have stayed clean if my parents didn’t have them, i do have a penknife and scissors nearby but noticeably i have been thinking a lot less about cutting since the pocketknives have been out of reach.
@Usseewa
I highly recommend you gather up anything you might cut yourself with and give them to your parents, or a friend, or a trusted loved one. This is about the last piece of advice i can give you on this, to be honest. If you can’t bring yourself to do this, or if it doesn’t help, then there’s nothing i can really do or say than just we will always be your friends, we will always care for you, and that you matter so much more than you think.