Conure1243

1 minute ago, Factor said:

It not helping because it runs out too quickly and you don’t want to free up space

Motivation?

(Existential) Stop making me use things I don't understand...

Just now, Factor said:

Verifying spelling against Ink’s Margarine Incident, but forgetting by the time I got back to this thread

Having memory

I don't have it, but I think it would help

2 minutes ago, Factor said:

marangine

Spelling margarine correctly

3 minutes ago, Factor said:

Butter is light magic!

I just wanna put it on toast tho

AKA being too lazy to use it for its magic power

15 minutes ago, Deception said:

@Conure1243

(would say something so bad they pass out from shock)

Im sorry my speech patterns have been weaponized now?

Uhh...

Cream cheese is dark magic!!

Just now, Factor said:

Ah yes

*pulls out weapon*

behold, Wind and Truth.

Noooooooo

Wait that's the only one I own

1 minute ago, Factor said:

Yah i guessed

*goes through all activity and information and shows up at your doorstep*

HELLO

you should live by the ocean

only small chance of tsunamis

unless you wave at someone

You are the second sharder to randomly show up at my door today

First was Lily. She brought a weapon

1 minute ago, Factor said:

Huh, are only me and Coder on west coast?

I have not been posting much recently and it feels like my words are taking a break.

Like, all of them. Most of the time I'm operating on a few, but I've been pretty much silent lately.

AND I am always the worst therapist you can find, so yeah.

*does something*

Conlats on doing something!

I haven't done something for... *cough*

I'm west-ish, just not on the coast

1 minute ago, GG0z said:

Huh. I probably should have figured that out.

Ok, I have to go to bed, as it 11:06, and I need to not get as sleep deprived as usual. Good night!!

Again, I can’t thank any of you enough for helping. All of you. No matter what you said, it helped. I cried, laughed, and was confused. That was the best. Thanks again!

Good night!

Only 9:00 here, if you wanna use that technicality

(Make the healthy decision, and don't though)

Just now, GG0z said:

I mean the “nyiure”

You're

GG,

She said you're welcome

Just now, ChipsAHoid said:

What have you done…

Hold up I missed this

That is beautiful.

Also, NerdSandwich is YouCantHaveMySandwich in your signature still?

GASP there's still evidence of that username!!

Just now, GG0z said:

Also, thanks for letting me get my emotions out. First time ever. And I couldn’t have done it in a better place!

Anytime!

Throw a bunch of random people together, and it will escalate to murder and therapy!

1 minute ago, GG0z said:

There’s a mental health club?  I might join that when I feel like I could trust more people than just the TLPL Sharders

Btw, you are the most welcoming community I have met ever. Literally the best

You're part of that, you know!

Just now, Usseewa said:

you are always sleep deprived

Perhaps, but I'm especially so right now

Just now, GG0z said:

page 200!

GASP

I was too busy thinking about depression to realize that good page number has numbered!!

Sleep deprived rn.

2 minutes ago, GG0z said:

I think I will fail at everything I will ever do. Even the things I should know I’m good at

Aforementioned accusations of weaponized incompetence has lead to me feeling the same...

It's a dangerous cycle, if you don't make sure to try and succeed, then it'll likely... just get worse, really

Just now, GG0z said:

I also feel like I deserve to feel this way, too. Empty and a faraway sadness.

 

I don't know what to say

But GG0z,

You do NOT deserve to feel like that.

No person deserves that!

Storms, from what I know about you, I wish I could be as cool as you!

Just now, Usseewa said:

im just tired rn exhissyed so i csnt tell what i feel but there's a lingering sadness or anger like i want to cry for some reason like my face is in a tense frown i think, i can feel it and idk..

Yeah, somewhat similar...

My first time I was experiencing something like that, I felt a tiny bit of joy for months...

I hated it, because I was supposed to be stressing over the homework I had the next day...

Now I just feel slightly sad, but otherwise empty... if anything at all...

While depression is happening, I guess

Just now, Usseewa said:

how do you know when something relates to you and

if it's not immediately obvious does that 

mesn thst it doesn't?

I don't think I fully understand what you mean...

Either way...

We have similar... base emotions? I've never believed anybody fully relates perfectly?

Just now, GG0z said:

Yep. Exactly what it feels like for me. Just a blankness or a void.

Oh

Ohhh.

Yeah,

I've felt like that for... years now. Sometimes months at a time

If I really knew how to help...

I probably wouldn't be struggling with it too

3 minutes ago, GG0z said:

Random spurt of sadness. Don’t know how else to say it. It’s been happening more and more often these last few weeks. 

Sometimes I just kinda stop caring about anything for a few hours, and it’s a bit creepy

Oh crap sounds like my depression

Like you know you should feel incredibly horrible/stressed or smth, but you just...

feel nothing?

Is it... anywhere along the lines of being harassed for using weaponized incompetence...

When you're genuinely trying hardest?

But then you still feel bad, and don't object, because you feel like you should be better?

Huwahhhhh?!

*listens to instrumental*