Keke

Hmmm YOUR VALID AND REAL AND AWESOME AND COOL i used to have major imposter syndrome with my art cause it looked a lot like references and people would be like, “oh you traced it.” Or “you didnt do that yourself. No way.” And then i would think im not good enough. But your just as valid as us ok? I dunno really how dissociation feels like tho sometimes i think i may…. If your comfortable could you educate me?

Uh is music a stem field? Or maybe man actor, cause im good at pretending. Yeah cause you send those gifs whenever I misspell in discord oooh ur a psych major thats why your so smart with brain things. tpbm is an actor

Eek sun lol tbh i was in track so im biased My arms weak but i can kick really hard. My legs are strong. My knees are broken and weak

Payback ahem nope tpbm is a doctor

Yeah. That’s why i bug you so much to play Minecraft so il have friends and games. Where do i learn to write that? I didn’t know it was something you could write. The only reason i dont frequently work out is actually two reasons. One blood sugar issues. And two, i aint gonna gain muscle regardless I’ve tried. I got dem mucsle issues. Yeah…. I am so storming weak I try. Luckily i got sleep meds. They can knock me out like bam and im like if i fight the meds then it backfires a lot. fought the meds last night and now i hate life. my everything is aching and im tired and cant focus even less then normal

Poke me in the coconut

No!?! tpbm has eaten a cricket

That’s real. one time i was like, oh yeah everyone gets panic attacks…. No some people haven’t had one before. And like those feelings of worthlessnesss. SOME PEOPLE DONT HAVE THEM. What do you mean your confident in yourself and dont constantly see flaws on why your useless and should die. WHAT DO YOU MEAN you look at your art and think it looks good. HOW TELL ME HOW

See the post i quoted null in Yes, ok so I should clarify. the video games? That’s cause i need to do something that got that strategy and keeping my brain going and that helps me sort through stuff. Its a strange thing, the moving and needing to focus allowed my head to sort through stuff… does that make sense? journalling,……. I dont really like. 1 my memory is horrible. 2 i cant write well cause tendinitis. 3… i lose them. Also if my mom finds them…. Im cooked I do go for walks and or jumps on the trampoline when i can. Alas it’s freezing cold. Whenever im home alone. I eaither. A call someone beacuse im paranoid. Or b put music in both ears and walk the house singing and dancing. If i dont feel like that. Lie yesterday. I got on the treadmill and put it as high as it can go, (5mph) and ran until i couldn’t. Then flopped down and tried to sleep but I didn’t. I love running, a lot. Whenever the yelling got loud or i got stressed i would go outside and sprint around the block as fast as i can. I can process stuff by just sitting. Otherwise my brain goes all over and i forget what i was trying to do. my friends help me to. When the divorce was first announced i straight up went to my friends house and just cried while watching tv and then wow i sorted through it. that and music. If I find music i deem relatable or real i listen to it cause hearing songs that i relate to help me. Hence citizen soldier. I relate to wayyy to many of their songs. My brain is weird. Did any of that make any sense as to why i do what i do? …. sleep is illusive

Ooh my school doesn’t “have” them per say. It’s what we call staying home cause you’re stressed out. The school doesn’t like people missing school for any reason. I dont care tho i just stay home regardless. you just get behind and then more stress.

Chiki nuggies!!! Wo Tpbm does nuggs not drugs

Like,, stayin home from school to take care of your brain? Whenever i have one i dont do anything but lay there and sleep YouTube or video games. Those are my stims and calming down things

MMMM i don’t like McDonald’s very much tpbm has beef with McDonalds OMH IMH I DIDNT SEE3 THSI. ALASTOR MY POOKIE!! YEAAAAH

REAL Luckktiuwegufydgidlfkmndckmnsdcsdczmszxcds sorry im going more insane. Hence the name change xD Hmmmmm *processes* ok now i have two emotions. Excitement and fear. hows spring break gonna go… normally we do a lil family trip but… seeing as… the family’s not very familieiey rn…. I HATE TODAY SO MUCH I WANNA GO HOME AND SLEEEEPPPP luckily my teachers dont give homework. If they do i forget about tit anyways.

H,mmm if the hum in a steady rythm or pattern then i think it could be calming

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OPE i wish my grades were hidden Cause i miss one assignment ad she’s like. Where’s that hmm like i dunno i cant focus in. Class tf am I supposed to do uhgg anyways LUCKY OMG I WISH I DIDNT HAVE SCHOOL

COOKIE MONSTER OM NOM NOM NOM AHAHAHHAA HSEF MY NONEXISTANT SANITY HAS LEFT ME ahem im ok WHAT MY TITLE

… not particularly. I dont like peanut butter tpbm likes freddys

If i skipped i would be cooked cause my mom would be like. *SMACKI* yes omg grade attendance is dumb. LIKE WHEN DO I GET A MENTAL HEALTH DAY if i dont get a mental health day like once a month, especially now with all thats going on rn. then i have a breakdown. schools stressful but i make it worse. my grades hate me tho

I forgot my water bottle at home i Almost had to get ivs when i was sick cause i got the flu and i dont drink normal water beacuse it tastes like chemicals no one else can taste and its annoying so the solituon is popsicles i have…. Uhhhh like 4 or 5 or maybe more times i dunno i get hurt a lot…. Mostly i go cause i get sick and when i get sick. I. Am. Sick. Like dead sick tpbm is tired

First, nap at 8 o’clock i wish second, do you not have school!? Yeaaahhhhh the urge to just…. Skip it is crazy. Oorrr the window is right behind meeeee and im on the secconddd flooorrr

I have no life Im bored in spanish /…. mybody hurts Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggghghhghghghghghghghghghghghghgghgghgghgghgghgghgghghghgghgfghgghgffgghghghghghnhbgbbnbbhghghghggghghgh

I coppied it then pasted into this and red it then deleted it.

I forgot to today nope i havent tpbm needs to get their crap together because they are gonna end up in the hospital again for dehydrating themselves