Existential
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I remember
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*hug* feel that I wish I could help but rn I can't seem to find the words
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IT’S MUFFIN TIME
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Please don’t *squiz*
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*checks* where?
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It’s weird This empty hollow feeling I’ve had it a lot of my life I don’t know why it hurts so much now Maybe it’s cause I feel useless? Like I can’t help those I’m supposed to, like I’m just stuck hanging on the edge of a cliff, unable to pull myself up. I did so well for so long. Then I just sank. I stand and stare out my window wondering how things would be different if I had done what I intended years ago. I’m happy but not, I’m sad but not. I just feel like nothing. A hollow empty shell that plans scenario on scenario about every situation and every conversation, and still manages to do it wrong every single time. I’m so tired. I miss sleeping. I miss living normally. I miss being that invincible little kid that couldn’t help but make everyone smile because he had so much light to give. Then I gave it all. And my light feels like it’s went out. So I wear my masks, real and fake, and I put on a face to the world that tells them I’m okay. I’m not. I’m exhausted. I’m happy, I’m sad, I’m constantly fluctuating, but I don’t know how to understand it so instead, I don’t, and I push them all away
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*hug* It’s what I’ve done all day, so idk Works well enough I’m not going to therapy again though Personal reasons and some other junk
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*hugs* I chose not to do therapy, it sucks I choose to self isolate instead
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AND WE’RE OLD AS SH*T?
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*gasps* WHAT YEAR IS IT
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*hug*
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Hey guys This is more of a happy post Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this
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*appears* Agreed *vanishes*
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Yaaaaaayyyy rant time again I’m sorry Spoilered for possible length K it’s not that long, but I’m leaving it there cause I don’t wanna waste space
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Hey gang
I'm kinda taking a page from Haly's book, but I assume some people have noticed I haven't been on nearly at all, or at least posting
I'm kinda trying to take a media break of sorts, and just whatever, cause I've been kinda mentally down the drain about some self image stuff and just some other things
I've also just been busy with work, and having other stuff going on in the background and I just forget to do stuff not even just on here
But yeah, that's kinda my life update. If you wanna talk to me outside of the shard just PM me, idk when I'll see it but it's whatever. My discord is linked, and if you really need my immediate attention you can ask Glass
Thaks yall
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I did I pwomis
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still too anxious Actively watching arrow instead You should eep tho
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I said I was, but when I texted that I was at the gas station Then the whole pulled over thing happened
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Hi I'm not dead I live now Kinda
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You ever just wanna not I got pulled over My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind I can't even express how stupid I feel *sigh* That's my short bit Thanks for reading *hugs everyone*
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CAN I COME??
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That’s what I told the officer but NOOOOOO apparently its MURDER
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*gasps for air*
WHAT HAPPENED
WHERE AM I
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Today is too confusing, too many changes, someone get me when its over
(i probably won’t be on all day, so if you need me ask glass or hawks they are the only 2 that can contact me outside of here)
