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i dont think actually…

…hmmgfydrteytuyiuhi no thoughts in head

i hate that i know every bit of knowledge i forget. i don’t remember the details of my presentation on mount asama in 6th grade, but i know i knew SO SO much about it…no longer. it is gone. goodbye, mount asama. i think it had two other craters. i think there was a resort town at the foot of it. i think it was a composite volcano composed of a shield one, and then a kablooey one. i think i think i think

the depths of my sapphic yearning…oh, they may try to erase bisexual people, but they can never erase our feelings

hate when i call characters relatable and they assume that i mean it on a deeper level but no. no, no. i relate to okkotsu yuuta because my best friend was my first love and gave me a silver and green ring and we promised to be together forever and wished on every star every day every 11:11 for it to work and she still moved away and she haunts my life and i will always wonder if we were allowed to grow into teenagers together, would we be dating by now? would someone have given us the words? told us that when she kissed me, when i said i liked her, it was genuine and valid? that two best friend girls could also like each other the way boys and girls could? if we had been older together and never been separated by all this distance, what would have become of us?

i love the sky i love the clouds i love the snow and i even love the silly life speedrunners seeding clouds with silver iodide to make it snow to wring out the extra moisture

though i’m pretty sure this snow storm isn’t cloud seeding lol

the tism touched me and i am now obligated to lore drop everything i learn in science class at every possible time oh my god isn’t it so cool how things work? chemical reactions are so magical. the fact that we can make physical changes in things like clouds is insane. the world is beautiful and amazing. even the little bugs inside of us are pretty cool once you get past the fact that there are many little buggers inside of us

SNOW DAY SNOW DAY UGH YESSSSSSSSSS OH MY GOD OH MY GODDDDDDD YESSSSSSSS MY DEBATE ASSESSMENT FOR SOCIAL STUDIES IS DELAYED SO WE GET LIKE TWO EXTRA PREP DAYSSSS

snow day snow day snow day snow day snowdaysnowdaysnowdaySNOWDAYSNOWDAYSNOWDAYSNOWDAY AHHHHFHSJSGSJA PLEASE

ok rewatching hello world because ugh i love women and i love deep and profound sorrow and um. um. um. yk how people go "its the kdj fragment resonating??" WELL CYRENE HAS LIKE 50 KDJ FRAGMENTS AND WHEN I TELL YOU THEY ARE RESONATING

one day i will find a hsr or hi3 fan here...but as weirdly compatible as the cosmere and hsr are, i don't think my wish will be fulfilled. wheres baby phainon. send it onto tomorrow delivery boy.

ngl i do not fw hsr welt's "welp, no way to get home, i guess i'll just live freely and explore here" like on one hand god yes free this child this ten year old boy fatherless twice surrounded by voices and dragged down by the will of the world

but like on the other hand sir you are a father you do lowkey have an obligation to your kid i fear

like grandpa if you don't get your arse back down to earth I will be joeys dad and I will be in a qpr with nikolai tesla

and like the idea of the path of nihility being because he HAS kind of given up on coming home...like it's one thing for this to be a break, and i get he deserves it, but nihility is a self-destructive path to tread and i don't think he should completely give up...

tbh tho it could have worked if hyv gave him more screentime...it's not optimistic nihilism if you don't do anything. there's no point to being here if you don't do anything. let my grandpa get off the train 

need the astral express tracks to connect w/ roshar PLS for so many so many so many reasons but mostly bc i was Consuming Media Yayayayyaya and it mentioned that welt would sometimes sketch the things he would create using the core of reason and i need him to teach shallan to make those tanks that he creates in 2nd eruption oh yes pleaseeeeee ahhhgfrderytufyiguhijo 

han sooyoung, yoo joonghyuk, kim dokja...cyrene, khaslana, mydeimos...

ahhgfdsedrtfyguijo

the way that cyrene, khassie (new nickname unlocked ugh my baby), and mydei all fit into hsy yjh and kdj in different very specific ways

ahhhgfdsewrdytfuygiu im having thoughts idk what theyre abt or what theyre planning but there are Thoughts In My Head

JUST SAW MY REPORT CARD WE ARE SO BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK AHHHHHHHH HHSBSJSIWBEKAKSBSKSKSJ

report card tmrw AND ao3 down same day ahhhhhhhh

well i could research the qin dynasty for school ORRRR i could catch up on the jjk s3 episodes bc i keep seeing clips of shoko and oh my god i am so bisexual SHOKOOOOOOOOOO AHHHGFDSDFTGYHUNJBHUVGYCFTUDXRYSZERXDYCTFVGYBH

Can’t let me have classmates or upperclassmen who are into cosmere cause i will follow them around and demand they read or finish stormlight archive

drama program man thought he was free of me but no. I’ve joined the winter thing. I’ll be on tech crew for the musical. You’ll never be free you silly white twink. Graduate this year, sure, but i will find your college email next year and you’d better have finished

Every stormlight archives girlie needs a chronically online fanfiction friend bc they will not flinch at the word count. In fact, the word count will probably INCREASE the likeliness of them reading it 

Wish I was a “first I lol’ed then I serioused” instead of a “first I serioused then I lol’d” bc what is this. what is this. take me back to eighth grade so I can feel smart again. I’m like a burnt out gifted child if I was only ever half gifted so now I’m only half burnt out. Just enough energy to function but not enough energy to do the things that made me academically talented. I can still think well I just can’t convey it by writing anymore. I let my guard down over the summer and now I’m cut off from a language I thought I’d always know. I hate this. Where do I purchase a Time Machine.

God’s little murder weapon is PEAK character design literally perfection simply the silliest so cutesy so thoughtful so demure

i wish my indecisive stupid stupidness could have a little angry man with a big angrier grenade launcher >:3

Had an overall terrible morning slept through my alarms almost had a panic attack was very overstimulated

But on rhe bright side: wax and telsin are just cosmere robin and sunday oh I know I’m right

was rereading the lost metal (have you ever read ch 74 in study hall because when I tell you I was dying…) and it’s all just so unserious now that I play hsr

public service announcement today when my math homework is complete i will be writing a fic where the chyrsos heirs somehow end up in the cosmere after the um. the um. the uh. *starts sobbing and falls to the ground* the events of 3.7

these gremlins are gOING tO bE HAPPY

shaoji i am the monster you have made me with your wholesome and heartwarming liesssssss

honkai star rail worldbuilding is so aggressively cosmere-coded oh my god i love it so much anyways yall know that frame of phainon when we first meet him then that frame that mirrors it later on bc when i tell you i COLLAPSED TO THE FLOOR

i haven't even gotten that far (just finished jarilo) and somehow just the cinematics, edits, and my spotty knowledge of the context is destroying me

When the boys in your class are talking respectfully and innocently about anime and when you ask them if it’s good or if they’ve watched smth out of the blue they aren’t annoying or weirded out by it >>>

anyways today I had a wonderful conversation is was about two sentences but it was wonderful nonetheless do boys know how much girls revel in being treated like fellow teens and classmates instead of like “girls”

Oh PSA ive leveled up my gender and it evolved I am genderfluid yes I did not know if it counted since I was switching between agender and female but yeah