Mags

I left my fast food job and have an interview to work at my uni's art gallery im so excitedddddddddddddd

Sometimes I feel bad for spending money on my various hobbies but then I remember that a bunch of people where I live ski and snowboard and stuff and that’s socially acceptable to spend a lot of money on so I’m totally good.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE !!!!!!

Actually insane its been a full year since the last part of epic came out what

I remember listening to it today a year ago after my family went to bed ...

Wow

okay life update time!!!

I was gonna try to other productive things today but ... I'm in a weird mood so it is what it is. I tried making some paper Christmas decorations for my room and they turned out really bad T-T so I'm kinda not in the mood to work on other hobbies lol

It feels really weird mostly not having any school work to do. I feel like I should be doing something productive, but there's not much to really do. I'm supposed to relax over my break but so far I can't get myself to.

I'm really excited about Christmas but it kind of snuck up on me this year. It's crazy how Dec felt so long when I was child but now it barely feels like any time at all. I'm trying really hard to be happy and relaxed for the holidays but my mental health is still not great. Not leaving the house regularly and butting heads with my family because I'm home more is not helping. Anyway it's weird to think that Christmas is just a few days away, I really don't feel prepared and I wish I had put together more gifts.

My health has been ... not good lately, in various ways. Doing school and work at the same time is really taking it out of me, and making issues I've always had more apparent. I've gone to the doctor several times but it's always kind of disappointing. It kind of irks me that they don't really care to find out what's wrong with me, they just want to put a band aid over things and hope they go away. I really don't like taking pills, especially when it feels like they're not doing much at all. 

On a more positive note, I'm so happy it's finally winter. I tried really hard not to hate fall this year, but I just can't help but feel miserable during it. There's something about it that's just so oppressive and stuffy and it makes me feel bad. We haven't got much snow at all in Utah yet but I can feel the change in the air and see the new sunlight color. It's so refreshing and so nice!! I'm actually so happy it's winter now it's kind of silly. I've been really enjoying cuddling up in blankets and hoodies. Winter isn't going to fix my problems but at least I won't fill gross whenever I look outside lol.

I don't have very many goals for 2016, but I'm excited for the new year. 2025 was definitely not a good year for me, and I don't know if much is going to change but at least a fresh start will feel good. I bought myself a fancy planner to try and give myself motivation lol. This new year I do want to try to read more, I read very little this year and it makes me sad. I also want to try and start shifting my wardrobe towards clothes I like more.

I don't want to write too long, even tho there's more stuff I could say lol. I miss you guys and would be more active I just don't spend much time on the computer anymore. (Not to say I've been less chronically online, I just scroll on my phone way too much lol).

I hope you guys are having a good day!!

Merry crimnas everybody :3

Okay weird random question but,

I know several of you guys have read the name of the wind

Do guys remember the lore that was sort of like Christianity but to the left that gets told through the different storytelling chapters around the 1/3rd mark? With the pseudo mary who gives birth to "jesus" and he grows up in a few days? And then the villagers try to attack him? And later he hunts down the devil?

Was there a part of that storyline where "jesus" has to carry a heavy artifact (it was not a cross) for several miles in a perfectly straight line to a specific town? And its part of his purifying the world of evil quest? I feel like im going crazy i cant remember if that happened in the book or if I had some weird unrelated dream

Lol this is why I need to fix my sleep schedule why am I up thinking about this at 1am

Logging onto the shard and trying to figure out if all the folks I don’t recognize are new or people who’ve changed their names

I was skimming the announcement for songs of the dead on Sandos Instagram and accidentally read "star wars" instead of strata wars lolll

I was like. Now hang on a minute.

Im not really interested in star wars novels anymore but one by sando could be pretty cool honestly.

GUYS

I FINALLY GOT ALL MY OVERDUE ASSIGNMENTS DONE!!!

now I just need to get caught up on lectures and readings .... but still!!! My grades aren't even that bad!!!!

don't ask how many mnt. dews I've had the past month it's not important

I hate my job so much you guys

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what is a reasonable amount of time to hold a job before quitting without seeming childish or like an asshole. I’m genuinely looking at other options because I can’t take fast food anymore.

I had a dream about this forum last night guys

also about the new superman movie I haven't seen

should I watch that?

MOUNTAIN DEW FUELED STUDY SESSION 2 ELECTRIC BOOGALOO. STARTING AT 6 PM TODAY. HOW LATE ARE WE GONNA MAKE IT LETS SEE

I only lasted till one am guys 

got the stuff that was due tonight done tho so that's good

gooodniiight!!

Omg new spark pfp!!!! It’s so cute

I don’t feel depressed today! Life is good! I have so many missing assignments!

HI EVERYONE HOW ARE YOU !!! ???
Turns out full time student + part time job is a killer combo, but there's nothing like procrastinating homework to bring one back to the forums amiright.

It's life update time!

How am I? I have no idea lol I'm all over the place.

My job isn't too bad. It's fast food so it can only be so good, but all of my coworkers are nice to me and it's not like it's that hard, just tiring. I get covered in ice cream everytime tho lollll

College is hard, and reading the textbooks takes me hours because for some reason I can't read quickly anymore. But it's also really fun. I like studying at the library and walking around the pretty campus and sometimes buying snacks. Also lowkey having the freedom to go up and back from campus everyday as an adult is giving me life. Sometimes a girl just needs a good wander now and then. I'm enjoying my classes, and I've already made some ugly art which is good.

Don't worry about all my currently due assignments, they're not there if I don't think about them!!!

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. A lot of stuff happened but it's late and I do remember anything tbh ...

I rearranged all the furniture in my room which is really fun. I have room for more bookcases now which means I can buy more books eheheheheeheheh. I plan on decorating it and making it a really special place for myself cause it's basically my comfert zone. Plus I don't have a dorm room to decorate because I'm living at home so I gotta have my fun somehow.

I starting reading WoT. My brother and I are gonna try and buddy read the whole series which will be fun I think. I have no idea how to pronounce moiooiranine or whatever her name is.

Updates on more serious stuff I guess?

I want to say I'm doing better now then I was a few months ago but I don't know if that's true ... I just have a lot more distracting me and keeping me busy lol. That's not necessarily a bad thing!

I've missed you all and I love you so much. I hate how I've disappeared and believe me when I say forum activity is not the only thing that has suffered for the insanity that is my life ... I have so many neglected hobbies ... and unfinished projects ... and my succulents are dying ...

I can tell it's getting late because my laptop and my phone simultaneously ran out of battery so I gotta wrap this up!! I'll probably think of more things to say in the morning, but that's all the big stuff.

Love you <333

AN NPC CALLED SHARP???

LIKE MY HUNGER GAMES RP SHARPS?

SIR ARE YOU PART OF THE BLOODLINE? 
 

College is kinda based

Working fast food is kinda not

Hate it when you do something fun for yourself as a treat and it ends up making you feel worse...

I decided to splurge on an expensive notebook because I got my first paycheck

--it is a notebook, not a sketchbook though it has blank pages, but the expensive brand made me think the paper quality would be fine for drawing anyway

-GSM is pretty low but I'm not picky

--I open the packaging. Nice!!

--the paper is pretty thin. That's okay, I prefer drawing on thin paper anyway, let me do some test doodles-

--ah

--the paper is see through 

--see through

Its darker irl and the lighting in my room is bad but

That is the back side of the drawing T-T how am I supposed to fill the pages. Even if I were to write in it as intended???

I don't think I can return it now that I've marked it either T_T

Sorry to post about another sad thing before the promised life update but aksjdndndjdjdjdndndnxnxjdkskdkd

Its almost 1 am I need to sleep and try not to think about how much I spent

I will figure out what to do with this in the morning T____T

Love you guys T__T

Summer break is over

I spent most of it rotting in my room, but to be fair a lot of other stuff has happened, good and bad. I want to do a big life update because I have a lot of stuff to share with you guys, and I'm hoping going back to a school setting will mean I'm more active on here. 

But for now, all I can think about is how my lazy days are over. It'll be worth it, and I'll have the courage to go to class tomorrow, but for now I feel a little sad. I know a lot of people love fall, and the fall aesthetic, but I've never been able to romanticize it. I'm too young, and afraid of natural decay. It still hurts too much, but I'll try and fix that this year.

I love you guys, and I'll try to talk more soon. For tonight, I need to write an essay before bed (that's right, an essay due on the first day of class, we're jumping right back into the grind). Luckily it's only like 500 words, and boy do I have things to say.

I am normal about the kpop demon hunter movie

I went to my college orientation today :3

It was really fun, and I'm excited about going there!

It was really pretty on campus today!

.......

........ . . .. I am also now officially an art major lol, we all knew it was coming

what if I dropped out of college

It sounds like a pyramid scheme advertisement