Mags

I'm still alive guys don't worry

I was just browsing dragonsteel for Christmas list purposes, and most of the stuff for sale is normal and expected, a lot of it I've seen through the kick starters or other stuff

but there are a few things I haven't seen and

I'M SPEECHLESS

that's hilarious

whoever came up with that idea needs a raise oh my goodness

GUYS IM GONNA GO STUDY

BECUASE I NEED TO

AND I HAVENT BEEN PROCRASTINATING FOR TWO HOURS NOOOO NOT ME

I'm too hormonal to handle politics in my statistics class today (as in, student incited, it's not part of our assignment).

look guys it's a tortoise

WHY ARE SO MANY FANTASY BOOKS A SERIES CAN WE NOT HAVE A STANDALONE ONCE AND A WHILE MY TBR'S LONG ENOUGH

I JUST WANT TO READ WOT WITH NO REGRETS BUT NOOOO I HAVE SO MANY OTHER THINGS TO READ FIRST

SPEAKING OF, I have like a hundred pages left of TNotW and I really really love it, it's amazing and the best thing I've read in a while, but I'm also kinda rushing to finish it because there's so many other things to reeeead.

That completes my random and ill-thought out morning SU 

CYA

dumb thing to be anxious about: I really want to read the WaT preview chapters but I'm worried I won't like them/ be disappointed. I really got to get out of my own head good grief.

WHEN THE COOKIES YOU BOUGHT FROM THE DENTED CAN STORE AREN'T STALE AND CRUMBLY 

when you forget to do the supplementary reading for your college class before the lecture and now nothing makes sense 

Why is there a Korean BBQ vendor in the middle of the lunch room? They're blasting pop music and throwing out merch????

I'm not complaining just perplexed? What event constitutes this??

to the people who have their lives together more then I do:

What do you do after school/work? I'm trying to format my day so I do more of the things I enjoy and less laying around trying to decide what to do and it's hard to fit everything in . . .

should I do it so it alternates between days? Idk

I don't want to give myself a super rigid schedule because I need some flexibility and it also has to be bendable in case my parent's make plans.

So I'm just curious if someone does have a schedule that helps them, what's it like and how do you balance all the stuff you want to do?

why does it have to be so cold 

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watch me procrastinate so hard

So it was you who went through and liked all my inktober stuff from two years ago!

Thanks! Your art is lovely too!

Heart-wrenching tragedy:

I forgot my wireless earbuds 

Now I have to be alone with my thoughts 

happy shardiversary and also

you're PFP is from one of my favorite fmab scenes lol

my hair is mildly purple, and by mildly purple I mean, well, the can of colored hairspray ran out before we could cover everything lololol

This is the fit:

today is one of those days

Happy Birthday!!!

return of the secret rep ninja I see you buddy

*sigh* went to book club

it was like 20 minutes long which was fine I guess.

It's just so . . . so weird because everyone else there knows each other and I definitely feel like an outsider. It's also almost entirely made up of preppy-taylor-swift girlys, which obviously stereotypes aren't good, but it's a group of people I've never really been a part of and so it makes me feel even more singled out. The people are super nice though, from what very little I interacted with them. It's just really hard to get out of my own head when it comes to this sort of thing. It's honestly really silly that I find these girls so intimidating when I'm older then most of them.

And on another note, you'd think that people going to a club for a specific subject would be passionate about a subject but . . . This clubs seems more like popular kids all being forced by their 1 or 2 friends who actually like reading to go. I know it's just a high-school club and I shouldn't've expected it to be super into reading, but on the other hand, why are you complaining about having to read the book when you're going to a book club? I don't know . . .

I was thinking of trying to go to the Shakespeare club instead one of these times, because I heard it's a much smaller group of people. Plus I feel like people who actively want to read Shakespeare are more likely to be . . . I don't know . . . nerds? Weirdos? And then I would feel less out of place??? But then that might just be me trying to deflect the reason I'm having a hard time from my own lack of social skills onto the club itself. It'd probably be the same with another club, even if the vibe is different. Maybe I'm just not made for highschool clubs, or at the very least highschool clubs that I don't already know people in.

Do colleges usually have clubs? I feel like I have heard that but not about mine specifically.

On another note, we're going to be reading Star Girl for the club, which is a book I have never read so that's lucky. It's like 200 pages, and we're supposed to read it over the next 6 weeks (We'll be meeting a few times to talk about it). One good thing about reading Brando Sando so early is that I've completely altered how my brain sees the length of a book lolol. I could definitely knock this bad boy out in a week, but I'll try to restrain myself so I can hopefully stay in the discussion.

Speaking of which, these first two meetings have mostly just been setting up the club, and next time we'll finally get in to talking up the book itself, so maybe that will make it better. (Like, instead of people just listening to instructions and staying with their friends we'll all sit and talk together? Or maybe that's wishful thinking).

In the end I just need to learn how to be less ashamed of myself for existing in new places, but I'm not sure how to do that at all.

They did have sliced apples with cream cheese marshmello dip stuff and it was really good though. I love free food

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should I go to book club . . . . it's only the second meeting and they're announcing the book we're gonna read

but I also didn't really have a great time last time and I kind of want to just go home

but I signed up for it to get myself to do more social stuff

hmmlasd;lfk;a

Anyway.

I feel pretty good this mornin!!! That may change!!!!!

I know I have like 15 rp's to reply to, but I have to go to seminary first 

lol not that seminary is bad, I love seminary, I just can't be on the Shard during seminary lolol (Which is probably a good thing because then I pay better attention).

It's Halloween week which is fun I guess, I'm excited because Halloween falls on the off day that I have classes with my friends hehehehe. I'm not dressing up as a Brando Sando character this year so I might not upload my costume the way I have the past few years, we'll see. I'm dressing up as Fern from Frieren because I have the same haircut as her, though my hair is a bit shorter (just Google it, you'll see).

I'm going to hopefully spray my hair purple for that, which is gonna be fun.