Lotus Blossom

I'm going to bed because I'm tired.

I'm going to bed because I'm tired.

I'm going to bed because I'm tired.

I'm going to bed because I'm tired.

I'm going bed because I'm tired.

So many ways to say the same sentence. But I rarely hear myself say these words anymore. It's always "I'll go to bed once I've finished homework" or "I'll be in bed studying" or "I'm exhausted- I need to finish this though," or "Shoot. I need to practice piano for the National Federation tomorrow. Ugh, I'm so tired," or even "I just wish I was in bed right now. I just wish I was in bed, asleep, and I wish I didn't have to get up."

But it's never "I'm going to bed because I'm tired."

That's cause and effect.

One first makes the observation that one is tired.

One then thinks on such an observation and comes to the conclusion that one will go to bed.

And that's it.

That's that.

It's so simple.

There's nothing restricting the acting of going to bed.

It's all based on impulse. When am I tired? When do I want to fall asleep?

And now, I've heard myself say those words for the first time in a while.

It's Friday night.

Now, when I'm tired, I can go to bed.

Goodnight