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2 hours ago, Hawks said:

You are not useless. You make me laugh 💙

And you are great at comforting 💙💙 

And your strong and brave. The fact that your alive right now is proof of it

*HUGS HUGS HUGS*

💙💙💙thank you 

 

29 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

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💜

 

💜💜💜heheheheh you didn’t pull a coder😊I was so scared

 

thank you both so much hugs for all

Posted
56 minutes ago, Honors ghost said:

💙💙💙thank you 

 

💜💜💜heheheheh you didn’t pull a coder😊I was so scared

 

thank you both so much hugs for all

1 hour ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

The hesitation to openthat box...

i told you guys i dont do that anymore 😭

Posted
5 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

oh yeah what are your opinions on Ebooks/Webnovels?

Yes. Webtoon

Posted
7 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hugs for absolutely everyone who needs them*

I need to check this more often 😅

The magic of the follow button *sparkles*

Posted
9 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hugs for absolutely everyone who needs them*

I need to check this more often 😅

*hugs back* thank yiu

13 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

oh yeah what are your opinions on Ebooks/Webnovels?

Not my fav

Posted
9 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hugs for absolutely everyone who needs them*

I need to check this more often 😅

*hugs for you too*

no same lol

Posted (edited)

hey guys.

 

Sorry I've been gone so long.

 

Spoilered for size. Sh thoughts and stuff. 

Spoiler

Things are bad over here. I don't know of I can still be a part of this group.

 

A really close friend recently told me that she was cutting off contact with me for the next several months to a year or more. She told me some reasons, but they were vague, and I don't really understand why she is doing this. 

It feels like betrayal. Even though it probably isn't meant that way.

Promises were made. At least by me. That I would not abandon her. I took her as my sister. My squad-mate. My comrade in this. As close as you can get. 

She was the one who introduced me to Sanderson. She is the reason I'm here at all. She is the reason I had the confidence to join here, or join this thread. I have shared so much with her.

She said she would always be there for me. Even when things got hard. And now she isn't. 

It hurts.

It hurts so much. 

I feel sick, my gut is all twisted in knots. Every time I get to the point of laughing I almost cry, cause it hurts to not share that happiness with her. 

And when I don't feel like my insides are going to rip apart, I just feel empty. Hollow. Numb. 

I've gone a week or so on one meal a day, cause it's all I can make myself eat. 

 

I've gotten really really close to cutting myself again. I've had to put all my knives away and sat up most nights just trying not to bleed. 

Everything hurts. My soul feels hollow. My mind can't explain this. My body hurts. All the old scars are aching. 

I've lost a sister before. 

It hurts too much to lose one again.

 

And she seems to think that things will be fine after this. That she will resume contact and things will be fine. 

But they won't.

Things don't work like that.

Our friendship is breaking now. 

I'll never get this back. I'll never have the same relationship again. It's breaking, and it will never be fixed. At best I'll have a facsimile of what once was. A weak shell of the connection.

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart. 

 

I'm tired of getting abandoned and rejected and losing people. It hurts so much. 

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

 

Honor is dead. And he does not live in the hearts of men.

Odium reigns.

 

Edited by KnightSkye
Posted
4 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

hey guys.

 

Sorry I've been gone so long.

 

Spoilered for size. Sh thoughts and stuff. 

  Reveal hidden contents

Things are bad over here. I don't know of I can still be a part of this group.

 

A really close friend recently told me that she was cutting off contact with me for the next several months to a year or more. She told me some reasons, but they were vague, and I don't really understand why she is doing this. 

It feels like betrayal. Even though it probably isn't meant that way.

Promises were made. At least by me. That I would not abandon her. I took her as my sister. My squad-mate. My comrade in this. As close as you can get. 

She was the one who introduced me to Sanderson. She is the reason I'm here at all. She is the reason I had the confidence to join here, or join this thread. I have shared so much with her.

She said she would always be there for me. Even when things got hard. And now she isn't. 

It hurts.

It hurts so much. 

I feel sick, my gut is all twisted in knots. Every time I get to the point of laughing I almost cry, cause it hurts to not share that happiness with her. 

And when I don't feel like my insides are going to rip apart, I just feel empty. Hollow. Numb. 

I've gone a week or so on one meal a day, cause it's all I can make myself eat. 

 

I've gotten really really close to cutting myself again. I've had to put all my knives away and sat up most nights just trying not to bleed. 

Everything hurts. My soul feels hollow. My mind can't explain this. My body hurts. All the old scars are aching. 

I've lost a sister before. 

It hurts too much to lose one again.

 

And she seems to think that things will be fine after this. That she will resume contact and things will be fine. 

But they won't.

Things don't work like that.

Our friendship is breaking now. 

I'll never get this back. I'll never have the same relationship again. It's breaking, and it will never be fixed. At best I'll have a facsimile of what once was. A weak shell of the connection.

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart. 

 

I'm tired of getting abandoned and rejected and losing people. It hurts so much. 

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

 

Honor is dead. And he does not live in the hearts of men.

Odium reigns.

 

*squeeze*

Posted
14 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

hey guys.

 

Sorry I've been gone so long.

 

Spoilered for size. Sh thoughts and stuff. 

  Hide contents

Things are bad over here. I don't know of I can still be a part of this group.

 

A really close friend recently told me that she was cutting off contact with me for the next several months to a year or more. She told me some reasons, but they were vague, and I don't really understand why she is doing this. 

It feels like betrayal. Even though it probably isn't meant that way.

Promises were made. At least by me. That I would not abandon her. I took her as my sister. My squad-mate. My comrade in this. As close as you can get. 

She was the one who introduced me to Sanderson. She is the reason I'm here at all. She is the reason I had the confidence to join here, or join this thread. I have shared so much with her.

She said she would always be there for me. Even when things got hard. And now she isn't. 

It hurts.

It hurts so much. 

I feel sick, my gut is all twisted in knots. Every time I get to the point of laughing I almost cry, cause it hurts to not share that happiness with her. 

And when I don't feel like my insides are going to rip apart, I just feel empty. Hollow. Numb. 

I've gone a week or so on one meal a day, cause it's all I can make myself eat. 

 

I've gotten really really close to cutting myself again. I've had to put all my knives away and sat up most nights just trying not to bleed. 

Everything hurts. My soul feels hollow. My mind can't explain this. My body hurts. All the old scars are aching. 

I've lost a sister before. 

It hurts too much to lose one again.

 

And she seems to think that things will be fine after this. That she will resume contact and things will be fine. 

But they won't.

Things don't work like that.

Our friendship is breaking now. 

I'll never get this back. I'll never have the same relationship again. It's breaking, and it will never be fixed. At best I'll have a facsimile of what once was. A weak shell of the connection.

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart. 

 

I'm tired of getting abandoned and rejected and losing people. It hurts so much. 

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

 

Honor is dead. And he does not live in the hearts of men.

Odium reigns.

 

*squeeze*

Hey

Can I pm you?

Posted
4 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

hey guys.

 

Sorry I've been gone so long.

 

Spoilered for size. Sh thoughts and stuff. 

  Hide contents

Things are bad over here. I don't know of I can still be a part of this group.

 

A really close friend recently told me that she was cutting off contact with me for the next several months to a year or more. She told me some reasons, but they were vague, and I don't really understand why she is doing this. 

It feels like betrayal. Even though it probably isn't meant that way.

Promises were made. At least by me. That I would not abandon her. I took her as my sister. My squad-mate. My comrade in this. As close as you can get. 

She was the one who introduced me to Sanderson. She is the reason I'm here at all. She is the reason I had the confidence to join here, or join this thread. I have shared so much with her.

She said she would always be there for me. Even when things got hard. And now she isn't. 

It hurts.

It hurts so much. 

I feel sick, my gut is all twisted in knots. Every time I get to the point of laughing I almost cry, cause it hurts to not share that happiness with her. 

And when I don't feel like my insides are going to rip apart, I just feel empty. Hollow. Numb. 

I've gone a week or so on one meal a day, cause it's all I can make myself eat. 

 

I've gotten really really close to cutting myself again. I've had to put all my knives away and sat up most nights just trying not to bleed. 

Everything hurts. My soul feels hollow. My mind can't explain this. My body hurts. All the old scars are aching. 

I've lost a sister before. 

It hurts too much to lose one again.

 

And she seems to think that things will be fine after this. That she will resume contact and things will be fine. 

But they won't.

Things don't work like that.

Our friendship is breaking now. 

I'll never get this back. I'll never have the same relationship again. It's breaking, and it will never be fixed. At best I'll have a facsimile of what once was. A weak shell of the connection.

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart. 

 

I'm tired of getting abandoned and rejected and losing people. It hurts so much. 

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

 

Honor is dead. And he does not love in the hearts of men.

Odium reigns.

 

*HUGS*

Dang man, that's awful. I'm so sorry

Losing friends hurts, especially close ones. I've lost connection with my chosen sister over the last year, mostly through my own fault—and I say that not to pretend I know what you're feeling, but to say I understand what you're saying. 

8 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart

This is how the world works, yes. And it's how some people work. Just remember that there are still people who won't give you up, who hold onto the good. The ones who try to destroy the good are the ones who are truly messed up, who can't handle seeing the good that they are incapable of matching in that moment. Remember that we're not here for ideal rules or the norm: we're here as Stonewards, and Windrunners, Edgedancers, and all the other orders that are there for people always.

12 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

Yes. It breaks you, shatters you a little bit more. But remember, strength is not the measure of a person. The mark of a person is how they choose to continue while broken. Being broken is part of life; it doesn't mean you are weaker. You still have strength, it just lies elsewhere. Remember to rely on your own strength, and find others whose strength you can rely on (us as part of that, hopefully) where needed.

 

This has been my attempt at a Mirker response. I now request the eventual presence of @MirkerLurker to do an exponentially better job

Posted
8 hours ago, KnightSkye said:

hey guys.

 

Sorry I've been gone so long.

 

Spoilered for size. Sh thoughts and stuff. 

  Hide contents

Things are bad over here. I don't know of I can still be a part of this group.

 

A really close friend recently told me that she was cutting off contact with me for the next several months to a year or more. She told me some reasons, but they were vague, and I don't really understand why she is doing this. 

It feels like betrayal. Even though it probably isn't meant that way.

Promises were made. At least by me. That I would not abandon her. I took her as my sister. My squad-mate. My comrade in this. As close as you can get. 

She was the one who introduced me to Sanderson. She is the reason I'm here at all. She is the reason I had the confidence to join here, or join this thread. I have shared so much with her.

She said she would always be there for me. Even when things got hard. And now she isn't. 

It hurts.

It hurts so much. 

I feel sick, my gut is all twisted in knots. Every time I get to the point of laughing I almost cry, cause it hurts to not share that happiness with her. 

And when I don't feel like my insides are going to rip apart, I just feel empty. Hollow. Numb. 

I've gone a week or so on one meal a day, cause it's all I can make myself eat. 

 

I've gotten really really close to cutting myself again. I've had to put all my knives away and sat up most nights just trying not to bleed. 

Everything hurts. My soul feels hollow. My mind can't explain this. My body hurts. All the old scars are aching. 

I've lost a sister before. 

It hurts too much to lose one again.

 

And she seems to think that things will be fine after this. That she will resume contact and things will be fine. 

But they won't.

Things don't work like that.

Our friendship is breaking now. 

I'll never get this back. I'll never have the same relationship again. It's breaking, and it will never be fixed. At best I'll have a facsimile of what once was. A weak shell of the connection.

Cause that's how people work. How the world works. Good things don't last. And if they try to, then people will seek to destroy it, cause they can't bare to see something good. Oh sure, if it falls into their ideal rules, it's OK, but any deviation, any difference from the norm, which is flawed, and they tear it apart. 

 

I'm tired of getting abandoned and rejected and losing people. It hurts so much. 

What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger. It just leaves you broken, and twisted, a weaker for the next time someone breaks you. 

 

Honor is dead. And he does not live in the hearts of men.

Odium reigns.

 

*hugs* I’m so sorry but honor does live in the hearts of men you just need to know where to look if she didn’t recognize that with you then she wasn’t a great friend it will get better. Stay safe and so many hugs

Posted
1 minute ago, Honors ghost said:

*hugs* I’m so sorry but honor does live in the hearts of men you just need to know where to look if she didn’t recognize that with you then she wasn’t a great friend it will get better. Stay safe and so many hugs

It's not her fault. People aren't perfect. I think she thinks she is doing the right thing. I don't have full understanding. It still hurts like hell, but it's not her fault.

I may no longer be her brother, at least not for a time, but she is still my sister. I did not abandon her. And I will still defend her. She was a wonderful friend. If she were not, it would not hurt so much to lose her.

 

Thank you for being here and supporting me. I do not mean this to undermine what you say.

But I will still protect her, even if she has left.

Posted
13 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

It's not her fault. People aren't perfect. I think she thinks she is doing the right thing. I don't have full understanding. It still hurts like hell, but it's not her fault.

I may no longer be her brother, at least not for a time, but she is still my sister. I did not abandon her. And I will still defend her. She was a wonderful friend. If she were not, it would not hurt so much to lose her.

 

Thank you for being here and supporting me. I do not mean this to undermine what you say.

But I will still protect her, even if she has left.

Oh that makes sense have you asked her why?

Posted
31 minutes ago, Honors ghost said:

Oh that makes sense have you asked her why?

I did. I received very vague answers. I should have pushed harder for answers. Now, I am not allowed any communication with her, until she says otherwise. 
I will reach out to someone else close to her to see if I can receive any more information. If I can't, I can't. And so I will wait, and try to hope and try to live, not just exist. 

We'll see how it goes.

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