Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, Magi said:

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I have no idea what to do

I feel so alone and so awful and I don't even know how to explain it. It's like the whole world has started caving in on me from every direction and I always feel wrong and I always feel guilty and I'm always so, so tired. 

I think I feel to much, way to much. I wish I could just not care but every emotion I pass by radiates though me and I have to deal with myself on top of that and the fact that I cant control how I feel at all. Like, someone is sad, so I'm sad, so, so sad. But then I remember someone else I saw a while ago who was mad at the person who is sad for being sad and so now I have to be angry for the angry person and sad for the sad person and I can't stop it. I try so hard but I can't. And it hurts so much.

I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because I know what they'll say and last time they said it, it hurt so badly. I don't even know how to tell people I feel sad without twisting it into a joke. Because everything has to be a joke, that way it won't hurt as much.

And I'm so tired. I'm so tired. 

I don't fit into any of the lines people draw around me, least of all the ones I draw around myself. I'm not that girl and I think back on the day and I don't even recognize the person speaking with my mouth and doing things with my hands. I don't even feel human. I'm like a dysfunctional cloud of emotions and guilt stuffed into a body as if that's what makes up a soul.

And everyday I try to live a little better and push myself harder but i'm just left feeling exhausted. 

The world is so full of love and so full of hate and all the loving people hate each other and that scares me so much. Every blade of grass and every living thing is screaming at me to be on their side and I have to be. I have to be or I'll be all alone again. 

It's like a cage that's getting tighter and tighter around me and there's no way out and there's nothing I can do.

Mom I don't think the vitamin supplements are curing my anxiety

aw man . . .

*squeeze*

I feel that

so so much

[Keke They/he]

12 hours ago, Magi said:

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I have no idea what to do

I feel so alone and so awful and I don't even know how to explain it. It's like the whole world has started caving in on me from every direction and I always feel wrong and I always feel guilty and I'm always so, so tired. 

I think I feel to much, way to much. I wish I could just not care but every emotion I pass by radiates though me and I have to deal with myself on top of that and the fact that I cant control how I feel at all. Like, someone is sad, so I'm sad, so, so sad. But then I remember someone else I saw a while ago who was mad at the person who is sad for being sad and so now I have to be angry for the angry person and sad for the sad person and I can't stop it. I try so hard but I can't. And it hurts so much.

I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because I know what they'll say and last time they said it, it hurt so badly. I don't even know how to tell people I feel sad without twisting it into a joke. Because everything has to be a joke, that way it won't hurt as much.

And I'm so tired. I'm so tired. 

I don't fit into any of the lines people draw around me, least of all the ones I draw around myself. I'm not that girl and I think back on the day and I don't even recognize the person speaking with my mouth and doing things with my hands. I don't even feel human. I'm like a dysfunctional cloud of emotions and guilt stuffed into a body as if that's what makes up a soul.

And everyday I try to live a little better and push myself harder but i'm just left feeling exhausted. 

The world is so full of love and so full of hate and all the loving people hate each other and that scares me so much. Every blade of grass and every living thing is screaming at me to be on their side and I have to be. I have to be or I'll be all alone again. 

It's like a cage that's getting tighter and tighter around me and there's no way out and there's nothing I can do.

Mom I don't think the vitamin supplements are curing my anxiety

*huge hugs* 

Magi

If it helps you, I used to feel the same way. I kept trying to fit in. Until that cage got to tight I got shoved out. At that moment. I learned a valuable lesson.

Spoiler

That you need to be yourself. Sure it's cliche. But it's true. If those other people don't like YOU then that's their fault. The friends j had before and after that cage were different. Once you be yourself and find the people who like you for you, those are your lifetime friends.

Honestly. Let them look at you weird. Use it to fuel you. Anytime people look at me funny because me and my friends were laughing I laugh at them. Because they aren't as happy because they wanna fit into society's stupid mold. And they have the audacity to judge someone having fun and living life. 

Society norms can storm off. Be yourself and get outa that cage.

I might spoiler that caue it's long I sorta ranted.

Also your not worthless or guilty. Your important and innocent. Every single word you type, step you take, breath you breathe. Is more valuable then the most expensive car. Your worth everything plus more. I'd trade ten thousand shardblades just for you. 

If i saw you in real life I'd run and drag you into a friendship in two seconds. Help you bust down that cage and be yourself. Because you matter more then anything!!!!!! Don't stop living.

In the words of rino 

"The impossible can be possible if you are awesome"

And you're the awesomest

[Through the Living Hope]

13 hours ago, Magi said:

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I have no idea what to do

I feel so alone and so awful and I don't even know how to explain it. It's like the whole world has started caving in on me from every direction and I always feel wrong and I always feel guilty and I'm always so, so tired. 

I think I feel to much, way to much. I wish I could just not care but every emotion I pass by radiates though me and I have to deal with myself on top of that and the fact that I cant control how I feel at all. Like, someone is sad, so I'm sad, so, so sad. But then I remember someone else I saw a while ago who was mad at the person who is sad for being sad and so now I have to be angry for the angry person and sad for the sad person and I can't stop it. I try so hard but I can't. And it hurts so much.

I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because I know what they'll say and last time they said it, it hurt so badly. I don't even know how to tell people I feel sad without twisting it into a joke. Because everything has to be a joke, that way it won't hurt as much.

And I'm so tired. I'm so tired. 

I don't fit into any of the lines people draw around me, least of all the ones I draw around myself. I'm not that girl and I think back on the day and I don't even recognize the person speaking with my mouth and doing things with my hands. I don't even feel human. I'm like a dysfunctional cloud of emotions and guilt stuffed into a body as if that's what makes up a soul.

And everyday I try to live a little better and push myself harder but i'm just left feeling exhausted. 

The world is so full of love and so full of hate and all the loving people hate each other and that scares me so much. Every blade of grass and every living thing is screaming at me to be on their side and I have to be. I have to be or I'll be all alone again. 

It's like a cage that's getting tighter and tighter around me and there's no way out and there's nothing I can do.

Mom I don't think the vitamin supplements are curing my anxiety

 

[MirkerLurker she/her]

18 hours ago, Magi said:

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I have no idea what to do

I feel so alone and so awful and I don't even know how to explain it. It's like the whole world has started caving in on me from every direction and I always feel wrong and I always feel guilty and I'm always so, so tired. 

I think I feel to much, way to much. I wish I could just not care but every emotion I pass by radiates though me and I have to deal with myself on top of that and the fact that I cant control how I feel at all. Like, someone is sad, so I'm sad, so, so sad. But then I remember someone else I saw a while ago who was mad at the person who is sad for being sad and so now I have to be angry for the angry person and sad for the sad person and I can't stop it. I try so hard but I can't. And it hurts so much.

I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because I know what they'll say and last time they said it, it hurt so badly. I don't even know how to tell people I feel sad without twisting it into a joke. Because everything has to be a joke, that way it won't hurt as much.

And I'm so tired. I'm so tired. 

I don't fit into any of the lines people draw around me, least of all the ones I draw around myself. I'm not that girl and I think back on the day and I don't even recognize the person speaking with my mouth and doing things with my hands. I don't even feel human. I'm like a dysfunctional cloud of emotions and guilt stuffed into a body as if that's what makes up a soul.

And everyday I try to live a little better and push myself harder but i'm just left feeling exhausted. 

The world is so full of love and so full of hate and all the loving people hate each other and that scares me so much. Every blade of grass and every living thing is screaming at me to be on their side and I have to be. I have to be or I'll be all alone again. 

It's like a cage that's getting tighter and tighter around me and there's no way out and there's nothing I can do.

Mom I don't think the vitamin supplements are curing my anxiety

*hug*

Emotions are exhausting. Others' emotions, our own emotions, all of them. And they never stop, and there's too many and too much, and I could do one at a time but there's never just one, there's lots and they're contradictory and someone somewhere always needs something and. Just. 

I remember at one point some years ago, my at-the-time therapist diagnosed me with "Overwhelming Emotions". And I was like...No Scud, Sherlock. You don't say. 

For me, the SSRI (antidepressant) I'm taking now is helping a lot (once we found the right one and the right dose). For others, therapy helps. For others, changes in routines and circumstances help.
And for pretty much everyone, feeling like they're not alone helps. So, we're here. 
It's ok to take a break. Remember to put things down and just breathe for a bit. You won't be alone. We're here.

 

Unrelated, I came on here to share this with everyone!
Remember the little things you do make a difference. A bigger one than it feels like at the time. A tiny choice, a tiny victory, a tiny resistance, goes further than it seems.

Edited March 15, 2025 by MirkerLurker

[MirkerLurker she/her]

 

On 3/13/2025 at 11:18 AM, Hoid_Slayer said:

That... makes a lot of sense, actually.

...

CAAAAKEEE!

*GASP* NO
No cake. Cake is dry, crumbly, oversweet, bland. No cake! Only pie! *pulls out pies to throw*

 

Books? Did someone say books?!

On 3/13/2025 at 3:10 PM, Through The Living Glass said:

Mmmmmmm

Caraval

The Night Circus

I Am Number Four

Renegades

Scythe

Gone (the series by Michael Grant)

To Kill a Mockingbird

Renegades! I found the whole series at Goodwill for six bucks in almost-new condition, super pleased. I enjoyed them a lot, fun concept. And I'm curious if we'll ever get a spin-off sequel following that little bombshell dropped at the end haha. (No spoilers tho, I'm trying to get KnightSkye to read them eventually)

Night Circus was interesting. Well written and neat.

And TKM is a classic - but like, a good classic. I enjoyed that one.

On 3/13/2025 at 3:15 PM, #1 Taln Fan said:

I loved the Cradle series by Will Wight (first book is called Unsouled)
A lot of Sanderson fans also tend to like his books, and they ain't too long. (Tho they get a bit longer as the series progresses) 

Wait hey, I recognize that author name - Unsouled went on my wishlist waaaay back, and then ended up down the list because I put too many books on my TBR lists and always end up losing some titles in the mess. I'll pull that one back up to the top - with my ankle injured, I'm spending more time sitting and reading, so that's perfect timing!

On 3/13/2025 at 9:22 PM, alittleinsane said:

KING ARTHUR BOOKS!!!! I’VE BEEN SUMMONED!!!
First: hugs for all

Second:

The Eighth Day Series by Dianne K Salerni is kinda Percy-Jackson-ish in writing style. It’s not the most King Arthur-y at first, but most characters are distant descendants of Knights of the Round Table and such. I love it so so much lol

The Dark is Rising Sequence by Susan Cooper is one of the fantasy series my mama read when she was my age, and gave to me at the age of nine lol. I ate them up amagad. So good. SO GOOD. They don’t seem THAT King Arthur-y at first, aside from it being British, but by the 4th book it sets in and it’s so delicious like yes give me that loreeeeeeee. If you finish the five book series, you will have grown to love northern Wales. I’ve never seen it, or been there, but whenever someone says Wales it makes me happy and i entirely blame Susan Cooper lol

Dark is Rising! Yes!! I love them. I love the world, the lore, the feel. I love how it all ties together. But the end though  (I don't wanna say why sad, in case others haven't read them and want to, but it's always bittersweet to me)

And I'll add a few recommendations of my own, across a variety of genres since there seems to be a mix of interests. So You Want To Be A Wizard series was fun in my opinion, and got more fun as the series went on. Fire (Kristin Cashore) deals with hatred and grief and love well, so that one's dear to me. Tooth and Claw by Jo Walton was an amusing take on British nobles, but if they were dragons. Dragons with British social class. Ender's Game has to come up, Lord of the Rings of course, A Curse of Chalion. More recent finds, hmm, let's see...A Confusion of Princes by Garth Nix was enjoyable. 
And I really want to list Uprooted for an amazing classic fantasy with an Eastern European flavor, but I have to warn you it's got one explicit scene in it. Really irks me, because other than that one scene, that's completely not what the book is about at all, and the fact that this page and a half is there means I can't recommend it to every single person who wants to be a writer ever for an amazing reference on conservation of narrative, on descriptive writing, on creation of a villain, and so many other things. 

Ohhhh...and for you anime/manga fans out there. Fullmetal Alchemist, Trigun, Fruits Basket (manga). Those also, of course. 

 

 

On 3/13/2025 at 10:31 PM, Clinically insane said:

Ok i got a big dog video.

Ignore my voice. I was happy cause big dog

 

 

DOGGO!! Big floof doggo 

 

Random celebration: I've been on a different dose of my antidepressant for the past month, and it's WORKING. I feel like me. But like...like if "me" was normal. But not the bad parts of normal, just the functional, can-enjoy-things normal.
(The first dose we tried made things worse, so I'm glad we tried a different one. And I'm glad I stuck with it.)

 

Edit: Shoot, why is it a double post? I thought I was editing the first post...it opened the edit window! asdf. Sorry. Too much work to try to rewrite all this in the first post 

Edited March 15, 2025 by MirkerLurker

[Keke They/he]

1 hour ago, MirkerLurker said:

Unrelated, I came on here to share this with everyone!
Remember the little things you do make a difference. A bigger one than it feels like at the time. A tiny choice, a tiny victory, a tiny resistance, goes further than it seems.

SPEAK TRUTH MOTHER!

12 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

DOGGO!! Big floof doggo 

 

Random celebration: I've been on a different dose of my antidepressant for the past month, and it's WORKING. I feel like me. But like...like if "me" was normal. But not the bad parts of normal, just the functional, can-enjoy-things normal.
(The first dose we tried made things worse, so I'm glad we tried a different one. And I'm glad I stuck with it.)

Yay!!! Here's to meds working

12 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Edit: Shoot, why is it a double post? I thought I was editing the first post...it opened the edit window! asdf. Sorry. Too much work to try to rewrite all this in the first post 

Mood.

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

51 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Wait hey, I recognize that author name - Unsouled went on my wishlist waaaay back, and then ended up down the list because I put too many books on my TBR lists and always end up losing some titles in the mess. I'll pull that one back up to the top - with my ankle injured, I'm spending more time sitting and reading, so that's perfect timing!

Enjoy! It's a great series. Hope your ankle gets better soon!

[Mags she/they]

23 hours ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

…

I’m not really sure how to help you, but I can try to offer some wisdom. First off: don’t let anyone draw lines for you to fit into, least of all yourself. Life is complicated, and lines will inevitably be stretched and broken. So instead, just try to be who you are. Instead of spending your effort trying to meet standards, spend it on improvement. And improvement isn’t always active; sometimes it’s just taking a break. Basically, what I’m trying to say is; don’t force yourself to be something specific. Just try to be better, and that’s enough.

As for siding with everyone, you don’t have to do that either. It’s good to be able to empathize with the feelings of others, so long as you remember to zoom out sometimes. Take care of yourself. Not siding with someone doesn’t make you alone.

Of course, take everything I say with a cup of salt. I’m sleepy, tired, and probably more than a little crazy, not to mention pretty inexperienced with how the world works. But I hope this makes you feel better anyway.

Life is rigged to make us hate ourselves. Don’t let it.

23 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

aw man . . .

*squeeze*

I feel that

so so much

11 hours ago, Clinically insane said:

*huge hugs* 

Magi

If it helps you, I used to feel the same way. I kept trying to fit in. Until that cage got to tight I got shoved out. At that moment. I learned a valuable lesson.

  Reveal hidden contents

That you need to be yourself. Sure it's cliche. But it's true. If those other people don't like YOU then that's their fault. The friends j had before and after that cage were different. Once you be yourself and find the people who like you for you, those are your lifetime friends.

Honestly. Let them look at you weird. Use it to fuel you. Anytime people look at me funny because me and my friends were laughing I laugh at them. Because they aren't as happy because they wanna fit into society's stupid mold. And they have the audacity to judge someone having fun and living life. 

Society norms can storm off. Be yourself and get outa that cage.

I might spoiler that caue it's long I sorta ranted.

Also your not worthless or guilty. Your important and innocent. Every single word you type, step you take, breath you breathe. Is more valuable then the most expensive car. Your worth everything plus more. I'd trade ten thousand shardblades just for you. 

If i saw you in real life I'd run and drag you into a friendship in two seconds. Help you bust down that cage and be yourself. Because you matter more then anything!!!!!! Don't stop living.

In the words of rino 

"The impossible can be possible if you are awesome"

And you're the awesomest

10 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

 

5 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

*hug*

Emotions are exhausting. Others' emotions, our own emotions, all of them. And they never stop, and there's too many and too much, and I could do one at a time but there's never just one, there's lots and they're contradictory and someone somewhere always needs something and. Just. 

I remember at one point some years ago, my at-the-time therapist diagnosed me with "Overwhelming Emotions". And I was like...No Scud, Sherlock. You don't say. 

For me, the SSRI (antidepressant) I'm taking now is helping a lot (once we found the right one and the right dose). For others, therapy helps. For others, changes in routines and circumstances help.
And for pretty much everyone, feeling like they're not alone helps. So, we're here. 
It's ok to take a break. Remember to put things down and just breathe for a bit. You won't be alone. We're here.

 

Unrelated, I came on here to share this with everyone!
Remember the little things you do make a difference. A bigger one than it feels like at the time. A tiny choice, a tiny victory, a tiny resistance, goes further than it seems.

Thank you for the kind words everyone, I think it helped a little 

I was able to talk to my mom about how I was feeling, which is always a hard step to take but I'm glad I did it. Last night was really rough, and I don't know if today has necessarily felt better, but I do feel a bit more grounded and calm. I went to the thrift store which is always good, and found a book and a cute knick knack which lifted my mood. 

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Magi said:

Thank you for the kind words everyone, I think it helped a little 

I was able to talk to my mom about how I was feeling, which is always a hard step to take but I'm glad I did it. Last night was really rough, and I don't know if today has necessarily felt better, but I do feel a bit more grounded and calm. I went to the thrift store which is always good, and found a book and a cute knick knack which lifted my mood. 

*hugs*

Im glsd your feeling a lil bit better

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Magi said:

Thank you for the kind words everyone, I think it helped a little 

I was able to talk to my mom about how I was feeling, which is always a hard step to take but I'm glad I did it. Last night was really rough, and I don't know if today has necessarily felt better, but I do feel a bit more grounded and calm. I went to the thrift store which is always good, and found a book and a cute knick knack which lifted my mood. 

*squeeeeeeeeeeze*

I'm glad

Sorry last night was so rough

[Mags she/they]

2 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

*hugs*

Im glsd your feeling a lil bit better

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeeeeeeeeeze*

I'm glad

Sorry last night was so rough

Thanks guys 

I have enough mental energy to want to draw, which is a good sign!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

8 minutes ago, Magi said:

Thanks guys 

I have enough mental energy to want to draw, which is a good sign!

That's good

[Shatter He/Him]

It's pouring rain here. I'm sad.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

It's pouring rain here. I'm sad.

*hug*

Have some sunshine

[Existential]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

It's pouring rain here. I'm sad.

I like rain, but I'm sorry it's making you sad

*hugs*

[Shatter He/Him]

2 minutes ago, Dabi said:

I like rain, but I'm sorry it's making you sad

*hugs*

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hug*

Have some sunshine

It was interesting when I read that Kaladin gets sad because of rain too.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, The Shattered Cosmere said:

It was interesting when I read that Kaladin gets sad because of rain too.

Oh yeah

The Weeping

tien

[Existential]

I come asking if anyone has free hugs

Just kinda need one rn

Edited March 16, 2025 by Dabi

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

9 minutes ago, Dabi said:

I come asking if anyone has free hugs

Just kinda need one rn

*hug*

[Keke They/he]

21 minutes ago, Dabi said:

I come asking if anyone has free hugs

Just kinda need one rn

*hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug*all the hugs for you null. 

47 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

It's pouring rain here. I'm sad.

*uses wings to shield you from rain*

[Shatter He/Him]

28 minutes ago, Dabi said:

I come asking if anyone has free hugs

Just kinda need one rn

Here's a hug. *hugs*

6 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

*hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug*all the hugs for you null. 

*uses wings to shield you from rain*

Thanks. It's the Weeping over here. For the next 14 days it will be either cloudy, rainy, or snowing.

[Keke They/he]

4 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Here's a hug. *hugs*

Thanks. It's the Weeping over here. For the next 14 days it will be either cloudy, rainy, or snowing.

Oof.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

46 minutes ago, Dabi said:

I come asking if anyone has free hugs

Just kinda need one rn

*many hugs* 

ofc  

14 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Here's a hug. *hugs*

Thanks. It's the Weeping over here. For the next 14 days it will be either cloudy, rainy, or snowing.

…hmm

[Keke They/he]

Ok wait... welcome to nighttime thoughts. Theoretically i cam make a mini tornado.

If i turned on my fan and heater and aimed them at each other on max for both they would make a mini tornado. Like tornadoes are formed when a warm front and cold front meet and swirl. So.........

Is that possible?

[Existential]

1 minute ago, Clinically insane said:

Ok wait... welcome to nighttime thoughts. Theoretically i cam make a mini tornado.

If i turned on my fan and heater and aimed them at each other on max for both they would make a mini tornado. Like tornadoes are formed when a warm front and cold front meet and swirl. So.........

Is that possible?

I don't think so...?