Mental health club!

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

1 minute ago, Clinically insane said:

She thinks i crazy cause i slide into the hallway coolly and aggressively waves “HELLO!” XD

i think my energy is a lot.

but my mom and the caseworker and her are doing the whole schpeil

the schpeil

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this the house. Transport basic talks all of that stuff it can take a lil bit. Around 10 to 30 minutes depending.

So i dunno rlly anything yet causeee tallkksss

the caseworker is leaving ima see if she read Sanderson.

If she don’t, hand Mistborn at her.

[Keke They/he]

4 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

If she don’t, hand Mistborn at her.

We packed up our books

she doesn’t.

shes quiet.

mmmmmmmmmmm

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

Just now, Clinically insane said:

We packed up our books

she doesn’t.

shes quiet.

mmmmmmmmmmm

Oh.

 

Then be aggressively quiet back!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, WhiteHairedDrifter said:

NO, MOTHER!

*uses antiseptic bought with money stolen from corpses in a chasm*

I'm maybe not the best person to ask, but naps always relieve stress for me. Also music. Not crazy music like Glass though. Cheerful music. Or sad music. Either/or depending on the day and what kind of depression.

Anyway.

*hug*

. . . I don't listen to crazy music

I listen to depressed musci

*music

[Shatter He/Him]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

. . . I don't listen to crazy music

I listen to depressed musci

*music

Have you heard "Behind Blue Eyes" by The Who

[echo74 she/her]

why am i so stupid

why am i so freaking stupid

[Keke They/he]

2 minutes ago, echo74 said:

why am i so stupid

why am i so freaking stupid

UR NOT STUPID

YOUR AWESOME 

AND SMART

AND COOL

AND I CANT EVEN TYPE OUT EVERYHTIUNBG CAUSE IT WOULD EXECE LIMITS OF TEXT

*HUGS*

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[Through The Living Glass She/They]

16 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Have you heard "Behind Blue Eyes" by The Who

No?

9 minutes ago, echo74 said:

why am i so stupid

why am i so freaking stupid

You're not stupid

*hug*

What happened?

[echo74 she/her]

14 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

UR NOT STUPID

YOUR AWESOME 

AND SMART

AND COOL

AND I CANT EVEN TYPE OUT EVERYHTIUNBG CAUSE IT WOULD EXECE LIMITS OF TEXT

*HUGS*

thanks

*hug*

7 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

No?

You're not stupid

*hug*

What happened?

thanks

it's just life in general

Spoiler

idk

it just feels like

no matter what i do

no matter where i go

i'm always alone

in my opinions

in my friendships

in life

and then today

i messed stuff up

with people i really care about

again

 

[Keke They/he]

Just now, echo74 said:

thanks

*hug*

thanks

it's just life in general

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idk

it just feels like

no matter what i do

no matter where i go

i'm always alone

in my opinions

in my friendships

in life

and then today

i messed stuff up

with people i really care about

again

 

Hey echo ur not alone. *hugs* 

Uh if your comfortable sharing what happened?

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

24 minutes ago, echo74 said:

why am i so stupid

why am i so freaking stupid

You’re not stupid. Sometimes you can look a little stupid, but the people who judge you for that will always be the more stupid ones.

8 minutes ago, echo74 said:

thanks

*hug*

thanks

it's just life in general

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idk

it just feels like

no matter what i do

no matter where i go

i'm always alone

in my opinions

in my friendships

in life

and then today

i messed stuff up

with people i really care about

again

 

Yeah. I feel that too sometimes. Especially today. But… that will pass. We will feel better, and have opportunities to fix our mistakes. So it’s going to be okay.

You got this. 

[echo74 she/her]

11 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

Hey echo ur not alone. *hugs* 

Uh if your comfortable sharing what happened?

i know

it just sometimes feels like i am

*hug*

i don't know if i need to talk abt it more than i already have but thanks

i can tell you have a big heart

2 minutes ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

You’re not stupid. Sometimes you can look a little stupid, but the people who judge you for that will always be the more stupid ones.

Yeah. I feel that too sometimes. Especially today. But… that will pass. We will feel better, and have opportunities to fix our mistakes. So it’s going to be okay.

You got this. 

thanks

that means a lot

more than you know

[Keke They/he]

Just now, echo74 said:

i know

it just sometimes feels like i am

*hug*

i don't know if i need to talk abt it more than i already have but thanks

i can tell you have a big heart

thanks

that means a lot

more than you know

Ok

Just know that ur not dumb. 

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 3/6/2025 at 11:37 PM, reisleK said:

Glad to see a fellow C&C cage owner!!

Here are photos of my boys (what's on my computer at least. Some of these are a year or two old, others are more recent)

I have 3, Mars, Jupiter, and Tommy. Tommy is my special boy (in many different ways, I don't love him any more than I love Mars and Jupe, he's just my heart pig)

Tommy lives alone due to hoarding situation trauma (he's a rescue as are my other two, except I fostered them with their mom and sister from when they were two days old)

Mars has the orange face, Jupiter has the stripe down the middle of his face, and Tommy has the headbowl (technically a crest or rosette)

OHMYGOSH THEY'RE SO CUTE. I mean handsome. Handsome little fellows.

Tommy has such a sweet face. 

 

On 3/6/2025 at 11:57 PM, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

*laughs awkwardly*

Hey gang

Storytime (sorry this is really awkward I'm trying but I'm not good at the whole sharing feelings thing)

Tw, SH and other such themes 

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So, the basis is I struggled with SH for like 2 years, and I got a handle on it at one point and thought I was doing fine. It was mostly dull blades because I didn't wanna leave any permanent marks but still do whatever I guess. It was a rough time, I really thought about taking a step into the street. I almost did. It was... not fun. I really worked on myself after that, gave my knife to someone I trusted to stop me from doing it, and proceeded not to tell them why. I worked on myself in therapy and things to help me understand the why. It was a lot, but eventually I got through it. Eventually,I got the knife back, but I didn't want to have that temptation again, so I threw it into the forest. I haven't seen it since. I wanted so badly to go back. But it doesn't just go away. I had a resurgence last night. I looked at my multitool I got for work and opened it. I didn't do anything. I just stared at it. Thinking a lot about how I felt useless and like a dead weight for those I care about. I felt like nothing. I wanted to help but I just couldn't. For some reason, I didn't know how. I was terrified, but I went to bed just thinking about it. I woke up this morning and knew I wasn't in a place to hold on to it. So I gave it to someone else. She's holding it for me for right now. But I'm scared. I don't wanna go back. It was a dark place. I don't wanna be that person again. I'm really writing right now because I need to put it out on paper. But I'm terrified. Does anyone have any ideas to just... walk away?

 

 

If you have free arms, I'd love hugs. You don't have to though. Thank you guys for reading

*hug*

 

On 3/7/2025 at 12:00 AM, Boftrhand said:

Good evening! It's nice to meet you. It's incredibly brave of you to write these things. You do matter. I've had similar questions most my life and it's been these last two years that have been hardest. I choose to believe it's because I'm doing something right and I'm winning and the enemy is fighting back. 

 

For myself, I had to find conviction. Something to believe in. I'm still searching and I don't have answers yet. But... Journey before destination right. The next step you take is the most important one. You can do this. I know because I did it. I know the sound the rope makes as it loosens. It is possible to put those thoughts down and choose a different, much harder path. It's harder because life is hard and you will be alive to experience it. 

 

I don't know you but I believe in you because a stranger once believed in me and it helped. You've got this. 

Welcome, and thank you for sharing all that. I'm glad you're still here. Absolutely journey before destination. The most important step is the next one. Always the next step.

Yeah, these books are loaded with so much emotional processing. Grief, trauma, etc. They're such good resources. 

 

On 3/7/2025 at 12:08 AM, reisleK said:

First *hugs*

Second (this also might be triggering for the same reasons as above, it's not super graphic but still)
This is not only for Null but for anyone who may need it. 

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I've been clean for over 21 months. It's storming insane. My tactic is a little... odd. I tell myself "I'll do it later" every time I have the urge to cut. I believe myself every time (for some reason but also the urges aren't very strong anymore) plus I'm a master procrastinator so I just procrastinate it. For some reason, I don't want to be clean. I don't want to be at almost two years. So I tell myself "I'll do it later" to satisfy that part of my brain who still craves it. 

Progress isn't always linear. Some days are worse then others. Your healing process isn't going to look like mine or anyone else's. You are on your own path. You got this!

 

Yes!! Telling myself that I can do it later works for me too. Or it did when I needed to use it - it's been a while since I really struggled with it, and I'm really glad for that. For me it was taking a mindset of "It's not that I won't do it or it's not allowed, it's that I'll do it later. I can do it when I need to, the option is still there, I'll just do it later" worked for me.

Trying to stop completely, cold turkey, added more stress and actually made the urges stronger; but letting it be ok to do it if I needed to, but pushing off until "later" - each time it was later, I'd go and pick up the knife and hold it for a minute and go "no, I don't really need it yet. I can do it later" and then later later I'd do the same thing, and repeat. It worked. And the urges got softer, and it got easier each time to put it down, and then to not reach for it in the first place.

And they still kick back in every now and then; yeah, progress isn't straightfoward. But it's so much easier now to work through.

 

On 3/9/2025 at 12:13 PM, Clinically insane said:

And i geuss it's my turn to make one of these posts.

Tw: uhh sh

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I swear that the urges are getting worse the more i don't do it. Im scared to tell anyone because there's already enough crap going on. And I dunno how they will react. But it's like my body is gonna start moving on it's own. Last night, if it wasn't for @#1 Taln Fan i would have seriously hurt myself. Heh we joke that he's scary but he's not. He is really helpful. I can't stress that enough. 

Thanks for tuning into my ted talk

Just to reinforce what reisleK and others said already: Yeah, sometimes during the healing journey the urges will get stronger. That's normal. It sucks, and I wish it were a more clear linear healing path, but it never is. So don't get discouraged by that - it doesn't mean you're going backwards or losing the fight. It means you're winning. Often, as you go through certain points in healing, you get attacked by worse urges, trying to undermine you. But you can make it through those. You've done it before and you can do it again. You've got this.

 

On 3/8/2025 at 10:25 PM, Magi said:

*makes single blunder in a social setting*

Ah

looks like it's time to cut ties with all of these people and go live in a cave out of shame

Ahhhhh yes. Those moments.

*climbs into cave with you*

*brings books and blankets and pillows*

*quietly starts reading book and offering no judgement, just sitting in cave with you*

 

On 3/8/2025 at 11:12 PM, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

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Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

Don't worry about checking all the notifications. What's important is that you're here, that you stay. Thank you. That sounds really rough, and I'm glad you're still here. *hugs*

 

On 3/9/2025 at 12:44 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Incomig:

depression/suicidal themes

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I'm dpressed

I'm just unhappy

I dont know why

i havent smiled or laughed for a long time

I hurt so much

It rips.

Im crying rn

I just cant

just cant do this

 

*hug*

 

23 hours ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

....

 

Hi

 

You ever get just really sad for no reason

 

And you can't move

 

Don't feel

 

Barely wanna do anything

 

Even what you enjoy

 

And just sit there

 

Alone with your thoughts 

 

And hurting your own feelings?

Yeah. Numb. Somehow hurting still. But distantly.

This isn't a helpful comment, really. Just sharing my own remembrance of numbness. When my kids were younger and I wasn't doing as well mental health-wise, I taught my kids to drive toy cars on me, up and down my arms and legs and such, so that they could still "play" with me when I was numb, lying on the floor unmoving. So that they knew they could still come to mom, even when I wasn't "there".
Lying there, wishing I cared about something, wishing I had any hope that I could still enjoy the things I used to enjoy. I wasn't even "alone" - and yet I was. Trapped in my own head. Muffled, empty; nothing there, and yet somehow nothing still hurts; but distantly, like it's someone else that's hurting; like I'm not me anymore. I'm not anything.

I'm sorry you feel that sometimes.
It gets warmer.
You will feel again.
It passes.
*hug*

 

21 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*grapple hugs*

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Scissor sweep to mount, dive roll out, then hugs

 

This whole back-and-forth was just a joy to read. But I particularly enjoyed the specifics 

 

12 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

So I kinda accidentally hurt myself last night 

I was talking to my mom and feeling really stressed and for some reason I decided it was a good idea to scratch away the skin of my knuckle so now the skin is partially gone and it hurts more than I was expecting 

so now it looks like I have a rly bad burn 

and I’m still stressed 

and I’m about to take a nap rather than do anything abt it 

Hey
Taking a nap IS doing something about it. It's giving your brain a break. That's useful. 
Remember the raccoon!

 

 

5 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*hugs*

March 14 is Pi Day because it's 3rd month and the 14th day and π = 3.14.

I FORGOT

ABOUT PI DAY

I NEED TO PLAN

*frantically starts planning pies*

Also to all you people saying you don't like pie. What KIND of pie??? There's fruit pie, pudding pie, chiffon pie, squash pie, boston cream pie, ice cream pie, ganache pie, spiked pie, chicken pot pie, shepherd's pie, ham and mushroom pie, sausage and gravy pie, potato pie, vegetable pie, cookie pie, pizza pie...SO MANY PIES
Most of you were probably thinking specifically of dessert pies. Even among those though, there's a large variety of textures and flavors for the sensory-sensitive among us. If pie looks too heavy, try a chiffon pie. If pie looks too sweet, try a bittersweet flavor or a low-sugar pie. If pie looks too smushy or goopy, try a ganache pie. But also, you cannot forget the gift to the world that is meat pie.

I WILL CONVERT YOU ALL TO PIE, DO YOU HEAR ME?!

 

3 hours ago, Clinically insane said:

I COME BEARING NEWS

 

GOOD NEWS THIS TIME

we

are getting a foster kid!

yayyyyyyyy

Spoilerd cause i might rant.

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it has been to long man. Too long! Ok only like three months but i need interesting people! So the kid we are getting is blank blank and she is blank years old. XD anyways. So we took her cause the we have a bus that goes to the school she goes to.

it is supposed to be temporary.

now with our dfs temporary can be between 4 days- 9 months. Sometimes over a year. Yeaaaahhhhh.

so 

we retired from foster care on only do respet, temporary foster care.

annd we are their last ditch effort

oooooh she’s here! She’s here! 

Ok im happy cause i really love foster care cause new people = new experiences= new things to talk about!!!

maybe she’s a sanderfan

my mom is giving her the tour ok bye bye

heyy i didnt rant!

Woo! Congratulations! I hope that goes well for your family.

 

46 minutes ago, echo74 said:

why am i so stupid

why am i so freaking stupid

*hug*

Edited March 11, 2025 by MirkerLurker

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, MirkerLurker said:

Just to reinforce what reisleK and others said already: Yeah, sometimes during the healing journey the urges will get stronger. That's normal. It sucks, and I wish it were a more clear linear healing path, but it never is. So don't get discouraged by that - it doesn't mean you're going backwards or losing the fight. It means you're winning. Often, as you go through certain points in healing, you get attacked by worse urges, trying to undermine you. But you can make it through those. You've done it before and you can do it again. You've got this.

Thank you *hugs* good to know I'm not crazy xD

1 minute ago, MirkerLurker said:

Remember the raccoon!

DA RACOON!

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

1 minute ago, Clinically insane said:

Thank you *hugs* good to know I'm not crazy xD

DA RACOON!

Oh, Hawks. We’re ALL crazy. Just… in different ways.

BUT it’s also normal for you to feel worse every now and then. And we’re here for you when that happens.

Edited March 11, 2025 by Hoid_Slayer

[MirkerLurker she/her]

Just now, Clinically insane said:

Thank you *hugs* good to know I'm not crazy xD

DA RACOON!

I mean, we're all crazy here. But we're all crazy TOGETHER! ...Which makes it normal! So none of us are crazy, because together we're normal, because normal is just a social construct anyway!

And yes I love the raccoon lol. He's so helpful.

[Keke They/he]

Just now, MirkerLurker said:

I mean, we're all crazy here. But we're all crazy TOGETHER! ...Which makes it normal! So none of us are crazy, because together we're normal, because normal is just a social construct anyway!

And yes I love the raccoon lol. He's so helpful.

 

1 minute ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

Oh, Hawks. We’re ALL crazy. Just… in different ways.

Touche

Oh BTW the foster kid i talked about earlier.

SHE IS A VIBE 

SHE IS AWESOME

2 minutes ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

BUT it’s also normal for you to feel worse every now and then. And we’re here for you when that happens

Thanks  

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

14 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

I WILL CONVERT YOU ALL TO PIE, DO YOU HEAR ME?!

…

That’s a little extreme, don’t you think?

[reisleK she/her]

7 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

OHMYGOSH THEY'RE SO CUTE. I mean handsome. Handsome little fellows.

Tommy has such a sweet face. 

They're all so storming cute sometimes I'm like wow I have these things. If that makes sense.

 

 

8 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Just to reinforce what reisleK and others said already: Yeah, sometimes during the healing journey the urges will get stronger. That's normal. It sucks, and I wish it were a more clear linear healing path, but it never is. So don't get discouraged by that - it doesn't mean you're going backwards or losing the fight. It means you're winning. Often, as you go through certain points in healing, you get attacked by worse urges, trying to undermine you. But you can make it through those. You've done it before and you can do it again. You've got this.

This.

Also: Some fresh piggy content!! (These are a month old max, most of them are from two days ago)

I should make a my own thread for them.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

39 minutes ago, echo74 said:

thanks

*hug*

thanks

it's just life in general

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idk

it just feels like

no matter what i do

no matter where i go

i'm always alone

in my opinions

in my friendships

in life

and then today

i messed stuff up

with people i really care about

again

 

*hug*

You're not alone, Echo

Love you, girlie

[Keke They/he]

20 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

WILL CONVERT YOU ALL TO PIE, DO YOU HEAR ME?!

But texture

6 minutes ago, reisleK said:

They're all so storming cute sometimes I'm like wow I have these things. If that makes sense.

 

 

This.

Also: Some fresh piggy content!! (These are a month old max, most of them are from two days ago)

I should make a my own thread for them.

AHAHGAHSGAGAGGDJDJ SO CUTTEEEEEE OMGGGGG

[reisleK she/her]

1 minute ago, Clinically insane said:

AHAHGAHSGAGAGGDJDJ SO CUTTEEEEEE OMGGGGG

hehe thanks!

[Keke They/he]

Just now, reisleK said:

hehe thanks!

YALL

Ok okkokokk

I know we are getting tired. But

News.

I got caught up in computer art!

So i finished my comic book strip (not my best work because it was rushed)

And oc drawing. Ima

Oooh I should post those in my art thread.

OOOOOOH

[echo74 she/her]

1 minute ago, Clinically insane said:

YALL

Ok okkokokk

I know we are getting tired. But

News.

I got caught up in computer art!

So i finished my comic book strip (not my best work because it was rushed)

And oc drawing. Ima

Oooh I should post those in my art thread.

OOOOOOH

YAY GOOD JOB

ooh yes post them!!