Mental health club!

[Mags she/they]

2 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

Valid

*hugs*

 

My friend was so patient with me  I don't deserve her

[Existential]

Just now, Magi said:

My friend was so patient with me  I don't deserve her

*memories of glass flash*

yeah…

feel that

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

11 minutes ago, Magi said:

*makes single blunder in a social setting*

Ah

looks like it's time to cut ties with all of these people and go live in a cave out of shame

. . . yayyyyy

*HUG*

6 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

*memories of glass flash*

yeah…

feel that

*cough*

. . .

*squeezes*  

Edited March 9, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

24 minutes ago, Magi said:

*makes single blunder in a social setting*

Ah

looks like it's time to cut ties with all of these people and go live in a cave out of shame

Yeah… sometimes I feel like my whole life is a social blunder.

You’ll be fine.

 

[Keke They/he]

45 minutes ago, Magi said:

*makes single blunder in a social setting*

Ah

looks like it's time to cut ties with all of these people and go live in a cave out of shame

*hugs*

COME OUT OF THAT CAVE

It can't be that bad

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Venting

TW: suizidal

Spoiler

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

5 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

  Hide contents

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

*hug*

Love ya', dude

Don't go anywhere, 'kay?

[Existential]

9 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

  Hide contents

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

*hugs*

Stay, don’t go down that path  

[Mags she/they]

12 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

*hugs*

COME OUT OF THAT CAVE

It can't be that bad

*sigh* it wasn't . . . . . . . . but my cave is pretty comfy . . .

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

7 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hug*

Love ya', dude

Don't go anywhere, 'kay?

3 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

*hugs*

Stay, don’t go down that path  

Luckily I have two things keeping me here. Thanks y’all

[Shatter He/Him]

Soon we'll be on Page 100!

[Shatter He/Him]

On 3/4/2025 at 9:29 PM, #1 Taln Fan said:

So you like everyone  Valid xD

I'm much less scary in person I promise 
I'll just need to meet some of ya'll at Dragonsteel sometime and you'll realize I'm just a chill introverted teenager xD

Yah. Suuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrre. Mhm. Totally.

On 3/4/2025 at 9:39 PM, Clinically insane said:

Ill belive it when I see it

 

Dont wanna double post.

But

WHY IS NOT HURTING YOUSELF SO STORMING HARD.

*sigghhhhh*

I was doing so well

Hopefully they don't leave scars

Can I have some hugs?

*big huge hugs*. We love you. This too shall pass. Remember that.

On 3/4/2025 at 8:23 PM, TwinStorm said:

I need some hugs.

I don't wanna talk abt it rn to the entire world, but I could use some hugs.

*crushing hugs* PM me if you feel the need to rant.

On 3/5/2025 at 12:47 PM, Timiny said:

Hello everyone. I just wanted to get this off my chest, and I believe this is the place to do so.

so, my parents, they really care about grades, right? But right now, my grades are slipping and just, i feel really anxious and as if my parents resent me. And like half of me resents them back for maybe resenting me and making me anxious and the other half resents myself for resenting and disappointing them. And now i feel as if i have to either sacrifice my mental health or my grades, and i don’t know what to do.

and also, i recently found out that I’m bisexual, and guess what? My family is catholic (no hate on you if you’re actually catholic btw), and i don’t know how they’d take me coming out, and I’m wondering if i even should bother coming out or wait until i have a boyfriend(if i get one) to come out, and again, i don’t know what to do.

Your parents do not resent you. They want you to work harder but do NOT sacrifice your mental health for some damn grades. I'd say talk to your guidance counselor and teachers and they should be able to help you

On 3/6/2025 at 12:16 AM, Halcyon The Only said:

Tw suicidal themes 

  Reveal hidden contents

It’s been really bad today. And tonight especially. I’m losing interest in things and people I care deeply about, and everything feels flat. I’m lonely. I’m worthless. I’m sad. Thought about drafting a letter, just for fun, as an idle thought. Got irritated when I remembered I don’t have the stomach to actually go through with it, so there wouldn’t be a point. Why post it if it won’t happen, why write it if no one will see it. Why write this if no one should care? I dunno. They shouldn’t. But I am. I’m hurting everyone around me and I’m hurting myself by thinking this way but I really can’t help it. I don’t even know what way I’m thinking. I just feel heavy and worthless and nothing really matters, does it? Does it? What’s the real count of whether something matters? Is it the consequences of that thing, and what makes those consequences matter if so, and so forth? Is it how much happiness it will bring us, in which case why does happiness matter; just cuz it feels good? Is it how we help or improve others or ourselves, and if so, how do we know those people matter? What makes anything matter besides God saying it does? Do my feelings matter? Does this pain matter, and the fact that I’m going to have it on and off my whole entire life? Does that matter? Or does He just hate me and want me to suffer?

He should hate me. I do.

TL; DR- I’m sad. Again. Yeah.

We love you *massive hugs* Just remember: This too shall pass

On 3/6/2025 at 7:20 PM, MirkerLurker said:

Lol No beans. Noted. *scribbles on notepad*

Glad you get protein! Sadly, then maybe that's not as helpful as I was hoping. Yeah, a proper medical professional will be better - if you can get your mom to take you to a doctor, that would be great. Or a nutritionist maybe. 

I would offer to come and play with you, but, uh...well, the offer is there in spirit! T-T alas, the problems of online friends.

Almonds?

On 3/6/2025 at 10:45 PM, Clinically insane said:

Ok

Its

So

Annoying

PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND

ok so I'm suck at verbalizing my sensory issues. 

AND MY DAD ISBEOEO

ok he's got these weights at home. I don't like them. Why? Cause... ekkekfofo ahhememsldl ya know? 

Ragh

And like hugs?

My mom is offended I don't wanna hug her. It's cause her she ya know? 

But people don't get it

And then my dad indirectly called me weak and a quitter

And that just tweeks me

Just tell your mom that you love her. Maybe say you don't want as many hugs. I get it. Sensory overload is just fvrughiclwthnemghmwghuirghfmxhgcjehgvs;mcrbdihm;hvtwrstndlj,chipo4c.

On 3/6/2025 at 11:38 PM, Boftrhand said:

Good evening! I'm new and wanted to introduce myself with a story about something that happened today. 

Today I had an emotional response to something Kaladin said to Teft.

"We lift the bridge together,Teft. And we carry it."

I finally understood Bridge Four in that moment. It hit me hard and I'm not ashamed to say that I pulled my car over and I wept a little.

Years ago I left my home to make a new one in the military. What they didn't tell us is death follows you home in ways you can't know about until you're drowning in alcohol while your best friend suck starts a shotgun or your brother puts a rope around his own neck. 

I'm grown now. Retired from all that. I deliver baked goods now. Pastries and coffee. I put down alcohol. I watch my daughter play soccer. And I think about the five gaps under the bridge where my friends used to stand. And how I wasn't there for them when they decided to die. 

And I cry. 

When I'm done crying I call my friends. I'm lucky to still have three friends willing to lift this bridge with me. And I'm thankful that Sanderson has given me a framework for understanding this kind of pain. Bridge Four has a profound new meaning to me today. 

 

I'm also thankful for this platform and this forum for mental health. I've struggled with suicidal ideation for 29 years and I am still here. If anyone else is out there wanting to die, let's talk about it and see if we can't lift this bridge together. 

I am just... this... ... This has so much meaning I just haven't realized. We believe in you and remember: This too shall pass.

On 3/7/2025 at 12:00 AM, Boftrhand said:

Good evening! It's nice to meet you. It's incredibly brave of you to write these things. You do matter. I've had similar questions most my life and it's been these last two years that have been hardest. I choose to believe it's because I'm doing something right and I'm winning and the enemy is fighting back. 

 

For myself, I had to find conviction. Something to believe in. I'm still searching and I don't have answers yet. But... Journey before destination right. The next step you take is the most important one. You can do this. I know because I did it. I know the sound the rope makes as it loosens. It is possible to put those thoughts down and choose a different, much harder path. It's harder because life is hard and you will be alive to experience it. 

 

I don't know you but I believe in you because a stranger once believed in me and it helped. You've got this. 

I believe in you. I have no idea who you are butt I understand the pain and I believe. Remember: This too shall pass. Life changes. 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 hour ago, Magi said:

*makes single blunder in a social setting*

Ah

looks like it's time to cut ties with all of these people and go live in a cave out of shame

I feel that very much… 

44 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

*hugs* 

please don’t go

[Keke They/he]

54 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

*hugs*

Don't die.

We love you

Your awesome

*hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

11 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

I feel that very much… 

*hugs* 

please don’t go

2 minutes ago, Clinically insane said:

*hugs*

Don't die.

We love you

Your awesome

*hugs*

Thanks y’all!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

52 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Luckily I have two things keeping me here. Thanks y’all

*more hugs*

Of course, my dude. Love ya' 

[Shatter He/Him]

Incomig:

depression/suicidal themes

Spoiler

I'm dpressed

I'm just unhappy

I dont know why

i havent smiled or laughed for a long time

I hurt so much

It rips.

Im crying rn

I just cant

just cant do this

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Incomig:

depression/suicidal themes

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I'm dpressed

I'm just unhappy

I dont know why

i havent smiled or laughed for a long time

I hurt so much

It rips.

Im crying rn

I just cant

just cant do this

 

Oh, dude . . .

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Incomig:

depression/suicidal themes

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I'm dpressed

I'm just unhappy

I dont know why

i havent smiled or laughed for a long time

I hurt so much

It rips.

Im crying rn

I just cant

just cant do this

 

*giant hugs*

I feel you

It sucks

I suggest going and hitting a punching bag or listening to loud/calming music. Or both. Or neither if that’s not your vibe.

Just know that we love you!

[Shatter He/Him]

I struggle to show emotion. its like metallic compounding but dark. all my mental health challenges stacck

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I struggle to show emotion. its like metallic compounding but dark. all my mental health challenges stacck

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

6 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I struggle to show emotion. its like metallic compounding but dark. all my mental health challenges stacck

[Shatter He/Him]

'night... 

[Existential]

1 hour ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I struggle to show emotion. its like metallic compounding but dark. all my mental health challenges stacck

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

9 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Venting

TW: suizidal

  Hide contents

Ok first off some background info. Back in my freshman year I had some stuff go on at home that caused me to miss a fair few assignments. Which naturally, given my self-sabatoging tendencies, meant that to punish myself I skipped more assignments to gain punishment (not particularly logical, I know). So this kept going tor a while. Fast-forward to last weekend, when my parents got fed up with me cramming in assignments on Sunday—because I sacrifice time during the week for my dojo instead of school—that they threatened to take away my time at the dojo—one of two things keeping me alive—and they enforced that I had to go to bed when they do, taking away my time on here (the other thing keeping me alive; thanks y’all). And I have never been more seriously considering offing myself. Like my depression has already been high lately, and that pushed me into the longest spiral I’ve ever been down.

Now

*hugs to everyone*

It’s been a week and I have 125 notifications, I cannot go back and check them all.

7 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Incomig:

depression/suicidal themes

  Hide contents

I'm dpressed

I'm just unhappy

I dont know why

i havent smiled or laughed for a long time

I hurt so much

It rips.

Im crying rn

I just cant

just cant do this

 

 

Please please please don’t go. I know it’s hard, and sometimes it feels like your life is meaningless and everything is falling apart around you. Maybe it would just be easier to end it all. But if you do that, think about the world around you. You may feel like dead weight, but to many people, you matter. To us, you matter. I’ve been on here for, like, all of one week and I’m already doing better.

As I defined in a previous post (it could apply here so I’ll link it at the bottom) improvement is about increasing one’s chances to be happy, make others happy, and make the world a better place. Think about all the lives you could improve by staying alive. Think about how your own life could improve. In the words of my namesake: “You will be warm again”. And believe me, I know those words are true.

You have so much ahead of you. But if you end yourself now, you will never live those possibilities. It would be the easy way out, yes. But it’s also the least rewarding. It’s… it’s like winning a trip to your favorite vacation destination and then cancelling after twisting your ankle on the way to the airport. I can’t claim to know what you’re going through. I can only hope to see you on the other side.

On 3/6/2025 at 8:39 AM, Hoid_Slayer said:

I’m sorry you feel like that, and I hope you get better. I’ve had some of the same feelings, so I’m going to try and answer some of your questions (although I can’t claim to know all the answers).

If you’re right and nothing matters, then we should all just curl up in a hole and die. Destroy our planet. Hurt others, because in the end, who will be left alive to care?

Things matter because we care. When you care about someone else, then things that happen to them, that hurt them, matter. And to many people, you matter. You DO have worth. Even when you can’t see it.

Consequences DO matter, because people care about them. And they are real. Happiness also matters, but not only because it makes us feel good. It also makes others feel good. And in the end, a simple act of joy can change the lives of many. So yes, your happiness matters. A LOT.

Improvement is very subjective; without getting too philosophical, improvement can be measured in two ways; short term improvement (you make yourself, and maybe a couple others, happier temporarily - take, for example, hanging out with your friends) versus long term improvement (you increase your abilities to be happier and make others happier for the long term - like, for example, starting a club *nod to @Clinically insane for starting this one*). Both matter.

God does not control your life. I, personally, am Atheist. But whether or not you believe in God, it is important to recognize: NO-ONE alone can assign worth to something. If you care about it, then it matters. Because it matters to you. 

YES. It definitely matters. A LOT. Think about it this way; you have the potential to improve (using the definitions I used above) countless lives. In fact, you’ve probably improved the lives of a couple people here, at least short term. And that pain, is holding you back. Yes, it hurts. And maybe it would be easier to just disappear and make it go away. But if you did that, all those countless lives would not benefit from your impact. Sometimes, sacrifices have to be made. But never ourselves.

Now, as I said before,I don’t know about God, but you should never let anyone’s hate stop you. Because they aren’t the ones who matter here, YOU are.

I hope that helps, somehow.

Edit: Also, @The Shattered Cosmere, we ARE on page 100 

Edited March 9, 2025 by Hoid_Slayer