Insanity Clinic: Season Two

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

"i was supposed to kill a man, instead i let him live, although living was worse for him after. so?"

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Backstory dump time! Writing stuttering for all this would be annoying as heck, just imagine she's still stuttering and emotional, pausing every once in a while.

She shook her head. "It's not that. He was an addict to anything he could get his hands on. He wanted to stop, but once you're hooked..." She stopped and forced a laugh. "I guess I don't need to tell you what happens. So, he and my mother decided to have a child who could Soothe - whenever he felt an urge to take them or if he went through withdrawal, they could soothe the urge and pain. So they had me.

"But I wasn't a Soother. I was a Rioter - the opposite of what they wanted. I couldn't help anything, I could only make it worse. And for some reason, it was my fault. When I did the bucket thing, didn't you wonder at all how I knew that worked? Did it cross your mind that maybe I saw that practically every day my entire life?"

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

3 minutes ago, Ookla of Hope said:

She shook her head. "It's not that. He was an addict to anything he could get his hands on. He wanted to stop, but once you're hooked..." She stopped and forced a laugh. "I guess I don't need to tell you what happens. So, he and my mother decided to have a child who could Soothe - whenever he felt an urge to take them or if he went through withdrawal, they could soothe the urge and pain. So they had me.

"But I wasn't a Soother. I was a Rioter - the opposite of what they wanted. I couldn't help anything, I could only make it worse. And for some reason, it was my fault. When I did the bucket thing, didn't you wonder at all how I knew that worked? Did it cross your mind that maybe I saw that practically every day my entire life?"

"how bad was it?"

[aetherbound he/him]

32 minutes ago, Ookla the Prehistoric said:

Elan sits quietly in front of a bonfire filled with books.

Aetherbound takes a copy of the sunlit man out of the bonfire and begins reading it.

[Through the Living Hope]

33 minutes ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

"how bad was it?"

"Bad enough to seek a nonconventional solution, I guess. And in addition to all that, I barely had a say in anything. Whether because of something that 'was' my fault, or because I was young, or a woman, I don't know. But I never got any sense of control over anything in my life. I had the wrong kind of Allomancy, so I wasn't allowed to use it. I might spill something about my parents, so I wasn't let out of their sight in social situations. I think that's part of the reason why I seemed... pushy when I first got here. I never had any control over myself, so when I finally had the chance to make decisions for myself... I tried to control too much."

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

1 minute ago, Ookla of Hope said:

"Bad enough to seek a nonconventional solution, I guess. And in addition to all that, I barely had a say in anything. Whether because of something that 'was' my fault, or because I was young, or a woman, I don't know. But I never got any sense of control over anything in my life. I had the wrong kind of Allomancy, so I wasn't allowed to use it. I might spill something about my parents, so I wasn't let out of their sight in social situations. I think that's part of the reason why I seemed... pushy when I first got here. I never had any control over myself, so when I finally had the chance to make decisions for myself... I tried to control too much."

jar man sighs. "i was high and bloodied when i came. your horrors are bad. but mine... mine would tower"

[Through the Living Hope]

16 minutes ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

jar man sighs. "i was high and bloodied when i came. your horrors are bad. but mine... mine would tower"

"My father hired assassins to kill me. Multiple times. Once when I Snapped. Once when I hit puberty. Once more around the time I decided to leave. Probably more I don't know about. Heck, there's probably one after me now. Maybe your past is worse. But at least you had a choice to take that path. I didn't."

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

6 minutes ago, Ookla of Hope said:

"My father hired assassins to kill me. Multiple times. Once when I Snapped. Once when I hit puberty. Once more around the time I decided to leave. Probably more I don't know about. Heck, there's probably one after me now. Maybe your past is worse. But at least you had a choice to take that path. I didn't."

jar man listens. "well... i had a choice that took me down a path without choices made for myself... i was 16 when i got my first hit, and never looked back. then they asked me to go down to the old house, and im no scaredy-cat, no i went down there. cult grabbed me, stuffed me full of drugs and had me cut a man open. i- i embalmed him. in ichor. then... i just lost myself. i barely got out... but im now constantly connected to the murder of a man. a man who is still alive. but he's still dead. the man i killed will never be again." he exhales. "but i appreciate you talking to me. i dont know how the soothe stuff works, but if its genetic, it shouldnt work like that. you could have been anything else. and someone said 'you need these experiences. but you can grow stronger than you are now' and you agreed."

Edited November 27, 2023 by Ookla of Ravens

[Aeoryi she/her]

6 minutes ago, Ookla of Hope said:

"My father hired assassins to kill me. Multiple times. Once when I Snapped. Once when I hit puberty. Once more around the time I decided to leave. Probably more I don't know about. Heck, there's probably one after me now. Maybe your past is worse. But at least you had a choice to take that path. I didn't."

 

Just now, Ookla of Ravens said:

jar man listens. "well... i had a choice that took me down a path without choices made for myself... i was 16 when i got my first hit, and never looked back. then they asked me to go down to the old house, and im no scaredy-cat, no i went down there. cult grabbed me, stuffed me full of drugs and had me cut a man open. i- i embalmed him. in ichor. then... i just lost myself. i barely got out... but im now constantly connected to the murder of a man. a man who is still alive. but he's still dead. the man i killed will never be again." he exhales. "but i appreciate you talking to me. i dont know how the soothe stuff works, but if its genetic, it shouldnt work like that. you could have been anything else. and someone said 'you need these experiences. but you can grow stronger than you are now' and you agreed."

Melody walked into where they were. 

"Did I miss something?"

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

jar man listens. "well... i had a choice that took me down a path without choices made for myself... i was 16 when i got my first hit, and never looked back. then they asked me to go down to the old house, and im no scaredy-cat, no i went down there. cult grabbed me, stuffed me full of drugs and had me cut a man open. i- i embalmed him. in ichor. then... i just lost myself. i barely got out... but im now constantly connected to the murder of a man. a man who is still alive. but he's still dead. the man i killed will never be again." he exhales. "but i appreciate you talking to me. i dont know how the soothe stuff works, but if its genetic, it shouldnt work like that. you could have been anything else. and someone said 'you need these experiences. but you can grow stronger than you are now' and you agreed."

"Guess I was wrong. Neither of us had much of a choice. The middle ground is that both our lives suck in different ways.

 

1 minute ago, Ookla the Resolute said:

 

Melody walked into where they were. 

"Did I miss something?"

"Just the rantings of two tormented souls," she answered, staring at the ceiling.

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Ookla of Hope said:

"Guess I was wrong. Neither of us had much of a choice. The middle ground is that both our lives suck in different ways.

 

"Just the rantings of two tormented souls," she answered, staring at the ceiling.

"Hey, at least you don't have my problems."

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

2 minutes ago, Ookla the Resolute said:

 

Melody walked into where they were. 

"Did I miss something?"

"just ranting."

 

Just now, Ookla of Hope said:

"Guess I was wrong. Neither of us had much of a choice. The middle ground is that both our lives suck in different ways.

 

"Just the rantings of two tormented souls," she answered, staring at the ceiling.

"sure. i can agree with that. now we just need help"

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

2 hours ago, Ookla the Believer said:

“Yeah,” Rue said. “They nearly killed you and neither of us could do anything about it. How will it be different this time?”

"I don't know... Well, last time they got alerted to my presence as soon as I arrived, so Malum came. If that doesn't happen now, maybe we can talk to Bonum first. I don't know what he'll think of us wanting to destroy him, but he won't kill me."

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Ookla the Resolute said:

"Hey, at least you don't have my problems."

 

Just now, Ookla of Ravens said:

"just ranting."

 

"sure. i can agree with that. now we just need help"

"And, uh... well, I guess the more people who know, the better... an attempt."

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

Just now, Ookla the Resolute said:

"Hey, at least you don't have my problems."

jar man sighs. "ok, lets stop doing this" and he holds another bag, this one full of powder. he breathes it in.

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Ookla of Hope said:

 

"And, uh... well, I guess the more people who know, the better... an attempt."

"I have essentially immortality and a need for detachment from anything and everything."

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Ookla the Resolute said:

"I have essentially immortality and a need for detachment from anything and everything."

"I. Almost. Killed. Myself."

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

"oh, pretty butterflies-" jar man whispers.

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Ookla of Ravens said:

"oh, pretty butterflies-" jar man whispers.

"Square. Frikkin. One."

[Aeoryi she/her]

8 minutes ago, Ookla of Hope said:

"I. Almost. Killed. Myself."

"I can't die, or harm others. And so I'm forced to deal with my past."

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Ookla the Resolute said:

"I can't die, or harm others. And so I'm forced to deal with my past."

"You could at least pretend to care." Aventine stood up. "I'm going to the library. If anyone needs me, I'll be crying in the dystopian section."

[Edema Rue she/her]

43 minutes ago, Ookla the Abstract said:

"I don't know... Well, last time they got alerted to my presence as soon as I arrived, so Malum came. If that doesn't happen now, maybe we can talk to Bonum first. I don't know what he'll think of us wanting to destroy him, but he won't kill me."

Rue frowned. "And why aren't either of them here now?"

[Through the Living Elan He/Him]

2 hours ago, Ookla the Resolute said:

 

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Where be he

Whats the problem 

 

[Aeoryi she/her]

39 minutes ago, Ookla of Hope said:

"You could at least pretend to care." Aventine stood up. "I'm going to the library. If anyone needs me, I'll be crying in the dystopian section."

"I do! It's just that I hate being unable to help."

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

8 minutes ago, Ookla the Believer said:

Rue frowned. "And why aren't either of them here now?"

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One of them is

"I don't know. But hopefully it at least means that we won't be getting immediately hunted down for a bit."

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Ookla the Prehistoric said:

 

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Unconscious on the floor, I think in the eating area?

1 minute ago, Ookla the Resolute said:

"I do! It's just that I hate being unable to help."

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So Mel's just saying she can't relate to that?