Keke

What’s going on with tenth? Is he going anywhere yet? Can we continueeee Asher and pyks plotline? (If you red the backstory i realized coincidently pyk is a lot like a guy that Asher used to know

@SpiritOfWrath

She scribbles a bit more while looking at vandurai.

she follows him having recognized it and nods.

she was used to this. She was fully aware that everyone expected an ourasen to be a rebel. she jotted some stuff down and put some of her short brown-red hair back behind her ear.

I missed the ball on this one, but I'm giving belated hugs anyway, because hugs are good things. *hug* Glad you're a bit better. *hug* IRL is different, yeah. I love this community, I think it's important that we're here, but there is something different about being physically with people who support you. I hope you find that. Also a bit late to this one (was away for a few days without internet.) I'm glad you found some comfort and stability! I think KnightSkye's advice is great, and he said most of what I would say, so yes to that. May I recommend the book of Psalms for when you need to yell? Plenty of demonstrations of healthy yelling at God there, plus also hope and restoration. The Psalms are all about human emotions and God. I want to add something, partly in response to what @Kaladin Stormcursed said about the purpose of religion. (Which btw, Stormcursed, what you said was fine, I'm debating, not offended) Saying one of the main purposes of religion is community is a viewpoint from sociology. Religion functions to create community in societies, yes, but that's not its purpose; that happens as an offshoot, a result, of what it actually is. (Stormcursed, if I'm correctly reading your post, you're not religious? So very understandable you're coming from that viewpoint) Religion is the pursuit of Truth. The purpose of religion is to discover Truth. Religion only matters if what we believe is actually true. Its purpose is not ultimately to make us feel better. We can find comfort in it sometimes, but that is not why it matters. It matters because it's true. And so it won't always be comforting, in the sense of making us feel better, of making our problems go away. But it can be reassuring to know "Yes, it will be hard; yes, it is broken; yes, it will be painful sometimes; but all of this has an order, a way things are supposed to be, and the more that order is followed, the more things are put into alignment, the better things will get. And yes sometimes it will hurt more for a time, because moving one part into alignment while another part is still broken hurts. But it moves towards good, it moves towards healing." Especially when we're at a point where we can't see how God is working, don't see evidence of Him hearing us. But - if you don't believe it's actually true, then that falls apart. So I'd also encourage you to do a bible study on "How do we know the bible is true?" if you can. That kind of study can be incredibly reassuring and really solidify your faith, give you a stable foundation to stand on when the world falls apart around you. Its alright. I know we can't all be online every day. So even more today. Yay. But it's good. After dinner during come follow me my mom said another thing. It was along the lines of God always sees ahead. He knew what the people were trying to do to frame Joseph Smith so he was able to tell Joseph not to rewrite the book of Lehi. Joseph thought this as a failure. Sure but we got the book of Nephi instead. And in alot of ways, especially personally that helped me more then the contents of Lehi would have. Maybe this divorce is my 116 pages. Ok so life falls apart I feel like I failed somewhere somehow. Or I'm not good enough. Well... somethings gonna come from this. Something is gonna be my book of Nephi. I think this can apply to anyone and everyone. Whats your 116 pages? What's your book of Nephi? See the vibe I'm trying out?

from the side a young woman stood watching them all. She had a notebook and pencil and simply watched and wrote.

I'm pretty sure. I've been trying like 100 times to get her to respond. Oh no. I've become like taln fan. Old. Eheididbeksldifh

I walk through her hill cause she knows who i am.

Good person Good person

*in awful singing voice* “rEWRitE tHe StaRS *unintellegable* FiIiiIIiIiND” sun tzu the art of war

Is the city I live in, The City of Angels Lonely as I am, together we cry

Sayla joins him. “Sleep well?”

IM SORRY LIV ahem and @OOKLA_the LIV is a complete vibe who will randomly poof away.

Hmph well if they dot want you around they are crazy and need to revaluate their lives. Your awesome and fun to have around That’s real. *hugs* remember hoids words ”i will not lie by saying every day will be sunshine but i will say the sun will shine again. That is a very different thing to say. That is the truth. And i promise you this strmblsd, you will be warm again” 100percent quote. Not at all paraphrased or any words changed. Nope. Directly from the book.

I did... I realized oh wait that's almost physically impossible. Hehe. Has everyone read mistborn era 1 fully? sayla stays up still staring at the paper.

Thanks. Everyone's comfort is so good. *hugs back* Thanks. This advice is great. Today in seminary during the normal discussions I found some things and was able to figure stuff out. I never really thought being able to hear one thing that changed your mind was a thing but. Today we were discussing d&c ten and my teacher said that Jesus helps us even if we can't see it. He is in out corner and Satan is the reason bad things happen. There is good from every trial. Sometimes something devastating happens and we think God isn't hearing us. He is. Even if we aren't hearing him. That's paraphrased but from it I realized even though I can't tell if he talks to me he hears me. To pray no matter what because it just takes a bit to get though.

Its something I told myself. The train of thought in my panic attack. Last night I had an almost full on mental breakdown. The weight of everything I carry regardless of if I need to. Being a perfectionist I expect myself to be perfect. Perfect grades. To not ever mess up. And rn I'm failing one class and the pile of what I make myself do plus everything else that's going on just fell. I feel like absolute crap this morning. I'm gonna try to hold it together today but tbh I'm not sure how well that will work. Thank you all for your support and advice. It all means so much to me. Thanks a million.

Its alright. I needed someone who will do more then just hug me and say sorry. Someone who will retort and have a conversation.

I prolyy will once we have our financial situation fixed Thank you so much.

Thanks so much for understanding

Thanks for the advice. It's just. That's what I hear alot. I don't wanna sound like I'm turning it away or ignoring it. But alot of people say that. Turn to god and he will help. I have. I've looked to him for comfort when my parents yelled at my brother for hours a day. I looked to him during the years I was depressed. It got better but it never stays. It just falls back down. I can't enjoy my happy times because it just falls again. I swear this is the third or fourth time in my short lifetime I have fallen this far. I want to turn to him but HOW. I do what everyone says I pray I read the scriptures I go to church. I know all about how to do it. I try it works but it only works for a few hours at most. It doesn't last. I need it to last.i need my life to go back to normal. I want to be happy again. For more then 12 hours at a time. It sounds selfish it sounds stupid. I just wish my life was normal for once! I wish I was normal. Like everyone else at church who doesn't worry about this how do they get to be fine while I do the same things but want to off myself every other year! I feel so stupid being jealous of them but I can't help it. I can't stop it! Sorry I just... I just... I need to yell at something. Get everything I think out of my head.

Nope Tpbm has had a panic attack in the past 5 hours.

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

She nods. Sitting down in her tent and grabbing a paper and looking at it.