Kansas Stormcursed

My blood is beating faster

Excitement rising fast

I know just what’s coming

And I know that it won’t last

But I’ll enjoy it while I can

‘Cause my feelings go away

Everything numbs down

Oh how I wish that this would stay

I’ve done it again

Let in the darkness that I hate

Because I know

That if only I just wait

It’ll free my from the pain that’s chasing me

Oh, my addiction to my pain will ruin me

I’m dark and sad and angry and depressed

But I won’t stop because I like the way

It makes me lose everything I’ve ever feared

So I just sink and hope that this will stay

I hate myself when all is said and done

But I know that I just can’t stay apart

The darkness chills the light I see inside

And it seeps in and wraps around my heart

I know that this is not who I should be

But I just can’t escape my addiction

It chases me down everywhere I go

And I don’t like the person I’ve become

I’ll do it again

Let in the darkness that I hate

Because I know

That if only I just wait

It’ll free my from the pain that’s chasing me

Oh, my addiction to my pain will ruin me