Hmmm lies

42 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I like hugs, and just the physical confirmation I am near some body. But most of my friends are introverts who don't like physical touch, which I try to respect, but I just don't do it so much that it has made my behavior kinda erratic.

Haha yeah, I'm pretty similar, except I would feel too weird and embarrassed to hug anyone but my girlfriend. Sensual attraction is big in me.

16 hours ago, Ascended Grubberfly said:

COME ON HOW DID I MISS THIS?! I literally posted here a while ago too.

I also saw it in theaters, but I do not have a girlfriend. 
I’m honestly so glad I got to watch it in theaters it was so cool on the big screen.

How many people were in your theater? My group had the whole thing to ourselves until about halfway when two people walked in.

Nearly completely full.

I'll say my full thoughts on the movie once ep 9 is on YouTube

I watched the finale with my girlfriend at the theatre, did anyone else? (with or without a girlfriend)

Just now, Keteᛕ said:

Oh you too?

That one made me nauseous

So, you might think that I cried because of how hard the test was, and I do think that contributed to it a little. But it was actually because of the details.

You see, I was (and still am) stressing about AI and getting a job, and if I'm completely screwed when it comes to trying to get a job in tech with AI destroying the whole market, and just generally worried about the future.

To my absolute horror, Part A of the test was about AI, and Part B was about how employment pathways have been changing, and where people start their careers, and that genuinely caused me to have a mini-panic attack about my future and stuff.

I must have wasted like at least 15 minutes just panicking/crying. (wasn't too much of an issue, I had enough time) And I hated having to constantly think about this stuff so that I could type my answers.

I already did not like this class, but this certainly exemplified my negative feelings.

3 minutes ago, Rynturning_Light said:

What things?

I can weigh-in as a raging aro, if you’d want

It’s also fair to keep in mind that the aro-spec is wide and all inclusive, in some form

Like kissing, intimate hugging, and we still call each other girlfriend and that we're dating. Our aroness kind of comes from the way we perceive each other: As really close platonic friends.

Yeah, I call myself aro-spec, I just don't know if I'm fully aro, but I haven't been able to find a good label that is well-known enough for anyone to know what i'm talking about.

I also have weird views on romance in media, that I don't know if I could describe if I tried. I do find shipping characters in fandoms to be fun sometimes though.

Hey y'all, I'm a bit late I know, but does anyone wanna hear the wacky story where the AP Seminar final test section made me unironically start crying?

1 minute ago, Rynturning_Light said:

Have you ever heard of QPRs?

Queer-platonic relationships

Basically platonic relationships that go beyond typical friendships in feelings and actions, but aren’t inherently romantic

 

(I’ve got a lot of aro terms in my vocabulary now, ‘cause I can’t do anything for my identity this month because parents don’t think aromanticism exists)

I have, and that's what we consider our relationship to be. Still, sometimes I look at aromantic stuff on the internet and find that I can't really relate to a lot of it. Some of the gay stuff we do together seems like stuff a lot of aro people wouldn't do.

Ah lovely, this is cool.

I'm somewhere on the aromantic spectrum, but I'm not certain where. I see my girlfriend as an extremely close friend, but I still act in a way which might be typical for a romantic relationship. She also feels similar toward me. It's possible we just feel this way because of autism, but I'd say that that doesn't mean we aren't aro-spec.

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

also uh hopefully not a bad question but how does it work with non-binary people? There's someone who's enby who I might be attracted to and know kinda well hehe. It wouldn't work out but yeah (for multiple reasons). I could also just like them as a friend, cuz they're cool, too.

But like do I need to be pan to like enbies also? I feel kinda awkward asking cuz i hope its not offensive

Well, I'm lesbian, and am attracted to some enbies, ones that are more feminine leaning.

Anyway nah a bisexual can like enbies. The difference between bi and pan is basically: Do you like boys and girls and enbies, or do you like people regardless of gender?

18 hours ago, Usseewa said:

is anyone else interested/intrigued by religion (at least sometimes) despite being an atheist?

i am

For sure, I always love looking at it from a psychological, political, and historical perspective. Especially longer ago, stuff thousands of years ago tends to interest me more than the modern day. Stuff like formation of religions and stuff.

I wanna write a big thing about criticism of the concept of sin later but not rn.

2 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Wow

i understood at least half of that, but very informative 

thank you and also @Hmmm lies

If I’m understanding correctly, there is also a side implication that the menstrual cycle occurs in a AMAB body taking estrogen? 

Yep, that can happen, although as I understand not for everyone maybe? And of course it is different due to differences in the body.

10 minutes ago, Verdance said:

and since the human body produces both estrogen and testosterone naturally, albeit in different amounts, I assume that it produces one of these when it decides to start pubescence in order to counteract whichever hormone it is not focusing on

Basically, an AMAB body, (at least by default) produces minor amounts of estrogen and large amounts of testosterone, and can sense how many hormones it has in its body. If it detects a hormone deficiency, it will make more testosterone to counteract this. So taking estrogen will make the body make less testosterone to an extent, because it sees that your body already has hormones, and so won't make as much. One's body makes hormones their whole life, though it increases a lot during puberty.

Spiro is still taken, because testosterone is a more powerful hormone than estrogen, and does tend to override its effects if not suppressed. However, if estrogen levels are high enough, or surgery has been done to remove testes, the body won't be producing testosterone, and spiro is unnecessary.

(In the case of the latter, it's important that the person who went through surgery constantly take hormones of some form, as after this the body won't produce them naturally.)

1 hour ago, momadrac said:

how do i flirt

Well, me and my girlfriend flirted a little before we made things official. She initiated it, but it was stuff like calling each other cute and using cute emotions like :3, >~<, and ^w^. After that, it wasn't really surprising when I learned of her crush on me.

6 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

Yayaya that sounds awesome, the description I’ve heard is that no matter your gender if you date a nonbinary person your automatically gay

Really it's just up to the people how they describe their relationship, though I'll admit I've never encountered an enby in a relationship who called it a straight relationship.

9 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

Aw mannn I think you should pull off the look bc like cool

Heh, I mean I love the look on pretty much any gal, I'd probably be no exception. But I tend to prefer a more fem look, though what exactly that means to me can vary.

On 5/29/2026 at 11:41 PM, Honors Spectral Image said:

Bad ass, you were leather jackets everywhere, kick ass and sometiemsw give yourself liberty spikes for the kick of it and you wear combat boots and kick ass

Haha, yeah no. I could probably pull off the look though.

On 5/30/2026 at 2:16 AM, Ink and Embers said:

You're about 3cm taller than average, you wear a lot of pastel colours and some very stylish earrings, you have straight brown hair down to your shoulderblades, you don't wear glasses and your eyes are brown or green.

Closer, I suppose. Height is about average, I typically wear darker colors, though not always, no earrings, hair is brown but curly, no glasses, and eyes are green.

On 5/30/2026 at 2:18 AM, Denissimo said:

All that comes to mind is gingerbread. Not even a gingerbread person. Just gingerbread.

wat?

Ah Pride Month, and with it the return of the rainbow site banner!

Just saw the movie a few days ago, didn't really like it.

I did like the more scientific experimental parts though, and I'm told that the book has more of that. Unfortunately, I'm not really the type to consume the original media after viewing an adaptation (I did not know it was a book first when I watched it.)

HAHAHAHA YESS

My username and my rep title finally line up!

I'm curious about this. How do y'all imagine me.

42 minutes ago, GG0z said:

Why? Not to disrespect anyone, but why does it feel good? I don’t know how to human emotion properly, sorry

41 minutes ago, Conure1243 said:

Ima second this question... More because of an IRL friend I have, who I'd like to understand better...

We haven't exactly been able to talk about it much

Well, for her now and me 2 years ago (well okay, actually there was no pronoun field on the Shard 2 years ago, there was a gender field instead but same general idea), it was one of the first steps we took after we realized we were trans. I don't want to put words in her mouth, but for me, it was me saying publicly for the first time "I am a girl," even if it was only on this little forum. 

Although for me, while changing that was exciting, getting actually referred to with feminine pronouns is what really made me happy, but again, I'm just one trans girl among millions, I can't speak for all of us.

1 hour ago, Factor said:

*hugs everyone*

thank you

so much

*dumps out everything I didn’t put in the previous post because I thought the time to type it out would be the time it took for me to chicken out*

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so I remember since a long time ago, the farthest i can definitely remember is year and a half but there could be more I forgot, I would be thinking like

“*sighs* if only i was a girl! too bad I’m not!” and part of me would go *coughs* trans *coughs* but I would dismiss it and stop thinking about it because I thought that, from not quite paying enough attention to my parents, trans people were already born with hormones that didn’t match their body. which I now recognize as a misunderstanding of a seed of not paying attention to the concept or hrt. and during the past school year, it got worse, like “ughhhhh why couldn’t I just be born a girl, or be trans,” and imagining being a girl.

then sometime in March, I started interacting with Lily here on the shard, followed here, and therefore got a bunch of notifications from this thread. and often when not many people are online, I go through the notifications I ignored before because they’re from threads I don’t have anything to do with, like notifications from posting in rps. So I went to the notifications from here, and basically

*thinks vigorously*

the best way I can think of to say it is like being hit by a avalanche. This is a very bad way to say it. It doesn’t match very well. But I’m not good with metaphors.

so

yeah

that kind of pushed me into what I wasn’t seriously considering

and then it was very *word*

I am apparently running out of descriptive words

anyway then it was very… extreme?

it was very very

very

then one time I found one of Lily’s old posts here, I forgot how, where she was talking about signs she saw that she was trans, and it really resonated with me. It was scary.

and then the next was one of lily’s posts here where she said something like “people are wrong when they say ‘cis people don’t question their gender’” and a conversation between Aeoryi and Verdance in a early Yuri of the Day that was something like [I tried typing a summary here for a while, but it was too hard so I’ll just link it] 

and that made me think a lot about if this was just a phase, and if it was a perfectly cis thing to question myself and I would just settle on staying cis, and stuff.

Amd I was surprised when I came to the conclusion that it wasn’t the stuff in the above paragraph

And then I would constantly draft myself coming out here for like a month, but know I would probably never do that. And then today I was doing that again, and just spontaneously jumped on here and posted.

*very, very deep breath*

I’m glad I spoilered that for size

that took me forever to type and I kept getting interrupted

sorry

and so sorry Aeoryi for distracting from your discussion

very sorry

"I wish I was a girl, too bad I'm not" is a phrase I said to myself once lol.

Not really sure what to say which the others haven't. Honestly, I'm not great at emotional support compared to the rest of this thread (huge props to y'all btw), but know that I'm super happy for you, and you've been doing a great job getting this all out.

I tend to excel more in my expertise with trans stuff compared to general emotional stuff though, so I think I can help with gender stuff and other related stuff.

34 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Does anyone have trouble associating with their chosen name different than that given at birth? (especially if other people use it for you or whatever)

not saying that I am struggling to disassociate from my deadname, I'm saying that I'm struggling to associate with any at all

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Had blood testing yesterday. scary

 

A little tricky at first, but once everyone started calling me it, I got used to it.

23 hours ago, Verdance said:

Yall should watch this series by this trans woman

she does filmmaking using minecraft and also composes some absolutely beautiful music for it, it inspired me to learn piano

honestly some of the best cinema i have seen in a while, ongoing with 10 episodes. Here’s the first;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqZRB4WtqZI

Ah, Whitepine, I love that.

23 minutes ago, Factor said:

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

and assumed cis since then

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

Hello, new person. I once posted a similar post in this thread, and everyone here helped me so much, so of course we'd all be happy to do the same.

Taking this step is brave, so good job in that. Would you like to tell us more about this or ask us any questions?

8 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

I might come out to my parents today

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