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we are on 3 hours of sleep and going strong
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Hi everyone.
Calano here.
With some news.
A little while back, I made a post saying I'd be still here, but taking a break. Become something of a lurker.
Well, I've decided to just take a break entirely. It's not been so great for me mentally, to have the Shard hanging in the back of my mind.
I'll update y'all on big important things in my life, because I like telling people those things, but for the most part I'll be unreachable unless you have my phone number.
If you want my phone number, ask someone who has it to PM it to you: I'll gladly accept texts from Sharders, but I'm not comfortable just putting my phone number out there.
Y'all are some of the greatest online (and IRL) people I know. This community is safe, and accepting, and warm, and homely, and wonderful.
But I have a life to live. So, I'll be going. I don't know if I'll return. I might not, not to a level of activity that I once had.
Y'all have been just... an incredible group of people. And I'm honored to call you my family. I've seen so many others leave; Haly, Misting was gone for a while, Fadran left unexpectedly, Kajsa kinda went dark too, but I can text her sometimes lol
But people have been slowly leaving.
And I think that now it's my turn.
Like I said above, I'll come back occasionally for big updates, regarding college, my mission, big life milestones, good and bad news, etc. But for the most part, I'm honorably discharging myself from active duty on this site (so to speak).
loverboy Lessons is still coming out January 19th, 2024. I plan to make the entire album the week of December 18th, and get it going through the distribution process starting that weekend (23rd/24th).
It's been a pleasure. It really has. I love you all so much.
Goodbye.
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SHADOW AND BONE IS CANCELLED!
I never watched it, but I loved seeing clips of the Crows and other characters-
WHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
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guys
GUYS
I GOT INTO BYU IDAHO
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHSHAHAHA
I GOT IN I DID IT
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"The most important words a man can say are 'I will do better'.
"They are not the most important words any man can say. But I am a man and they are the words I needed to say."
Guys, I think I have a new mantra.
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"The most important words a man can say are 'I will do better'.
"They are not the most important words any man can say. But I am a man and they are the words I needed to say."
Guys, I think I have a new mantra.
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Does anybody else feel like they're super high functioning on the outside, but an absolute mess on the inside.
Like why would I sleep when I could be watching a movie. Which is dumb but I still do it.
Or deliberately procrastinating homework that is due literally tomorrow.
I get mad at myself and then I don't fix it and it just keeps going. Ugh. I'll figure life out eventually
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It's my shardiversary!!! I'm not super active anymore (which is probably for the best, life is very stressful at the moment) but I want to take a moment to be sentimental.
This was the first online community I ever interacted with, and in retrospect I couldn't have chosen a better one. I was a lonely kid still figuring out how the internet worked. I was cringe, awkward (still am tbh!) and possibly overshared a bit at times, and I'm so lucky that the people here were lovely and kind to me. I genuinely believe that having such a great bunch of people to talk to has made me a better person.
I love every single person on here (even if we only interacted once or not at all, I STILL LOVE YOU). And especially our wonderful mods! You're awesome, and I truly appreciate all the effort you put into making this site a good place to be.
Here's to many more years!
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The Phoenix by Fall Out Boy is probably my favorite song rn
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Sorry, I know I already posted an SU today, but…
Ugh.
Why is every choice I make the wrong one?
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YALL GIVE ME A BIT IM PANICKING ABOUT MY AUDITION IN AN HOUR- *scream*
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YALL GIVE ME A BIT IM PANICKING ABOUT MY AUDITION IN AN HOUR- *scream*
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Sorry, I know I already posted an SU today, but…
Ugh.
Why is every choice I make the wrong one?
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To be alone is power.
To be lonely is pain.
I saw this poem the other day:
SpoilerYour calling is going to crush you.
If you are called to mend the brokenhearted, you are going to wrestle with a broken heart.
lI you are called to heal God's little ones, you are going to experience your own share of trauma.
If you're called to preach and teach the gospel, you WILL be sifted for the wisdom that anoints your message.
If you are called to empower, your self-esteem will be attacked- your successes hard fought.
Your calling will come with spiritual warfare and a sifting - BOTH are necessary for your mantle to be authentic, humble and powerful.
Your crushing won't be easy because your assignment is not easy - and you can't minister POWERFULLY what you haven't walked out.
Read that sentence again.
When you're feeling the weight of it coming down on you, RUN to the Father who longs to be your comfort. Let him whisper your true identity over you while resting under the shadow of his wings. Position yourself against his heartbeat. Let him renew your strength and set your eyes forward. No olives, no oil. No grapes, no wine.
Your oil is not cheap my friend.
Author: Hannah Williamson
I accept the pain.
I can survive it.
Still,
Somehow,
I wish
I didn’t need to.
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Loki Season 2 episode 6.
Glorious Purpose.
Oh my storming gosh.
Blood and bloody ashes.
What a messy season.
But that was one heck of a finale.
the first five episodes didn't deserve such a phenomenal episode to top it off. The first half was bad imo, four was fine, five was pretty good.
If you've stopped watching the show because some of the episodes didn't hit you right, just go watch it till the end. Please. It's worth it.
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So, some news. Beginning on Sunday around 2pm PST, I will be off the Shard for about 4 weeks. As those of you who have seen my recent SUs may have gathered, my mental health situation isn't really improving. I'm fact, it's been worsening. This week, I was mostly unable to get to school, and I've overall been in a bad place, even sometimes in a dangerous one.
For this reason, I'm going to go into a residential care facility. I've heard a lot of good things about it, and I hope it'll help me more than what I've been able to do at home. It does mean, unfortunately, that my internet access will be extremely limited to none. It should be just about four weeks, though extensions are possible depending on how the care goes. I'm a little nervous, and definitely not thrilled about being away from you all for so long, but it should be for the best.
As for the RP situation, I have a plan for the Clinic, so that should be fine. I'm not really sure what to do with the few others, though I think the Threnodite Hunger Games are almost over (sorry, @DefiantAllomancer).
So... yeah. I'll miss you all, but hopefully see you in not too long. I'll still be on plenty for the rest of today, as well as tomorrow and Sunday morning.
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That moment when you throw your plans for reading out the window and say, "Ya know what, I'm going to read something I've read twice already because it's beautiful."
In other words, I'm going to be rereading at least the first Percy Jackson book while reading Wise Man's Fear after I finish Going Postal.
Why? The official reason is that the show is coming out soon.
The real reason? Pure, un-distilled fun is good for mental health.
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I went in a tour of BYU campus today with my friends from school!! It was pretty awesome
That's definitely where I want to go to school
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“Almost dead yesterday, maybe dead tomorrow, but alive, gloriously alive, today.”
2 shows today.
1 show tomorrow.
2 shows Saturday.
1 show Monday.
Stars above. I love this, but…I need a nap.
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Do you ever just get so frustrated with something that on the one hand you want to rant about it for hours and on the other you just want to leave it alone?
I'm getting so close to being too tired to care anymore- which is probably good because I tend to care a little too much about what other people think.
Spoilerwelp that was vague.
I hope ya'll are having a good night, I have tomorrow off of school which is cool!
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“Almost dead yesterday, maybe dead tomorrow, but alive, gloriously alive, today.”
2 shows today.
1 show tomorrow.
2 shows Saturday.
1 show Monday.
Stars above. I love this, but…I need a nap.
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Sneak peak of something I'm working on that I'll post whenever I finish it and can edit a lil bit.
SpoilerWhen people imagine nothing, they imagine black.
They imagine it and think “Wow, nothing must be dark and dreary.”
They’re wrong.
Black is the presence of too much. It isn’t nothing, it is everything. So what is the lack? What is the color of nothing?
White. Pure, serene, empty white. The kind of white that people have never actually seen. The kind of white that glows. It’s serene, peaceful, and altogether… boring.
Yet to those who live there, as most of those who inhabit nothing are, in fact, nothing themselves, nothing is nothing short of perfect.
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Wow, things really do not get better.
I'm sick of this. I don't think it's worth it.
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I don't know if there's anything I can say, but sometimes hope is small. I get stressed and confused when people tell me to hope because it seems so big and like there's no steps to get to that point. But I feel like sometimes hope is incredibly small and specific. You might not be able to feel any reason to keep going, but did you see a cool cloud that made you smile for a second? Did you read or write 1 good sentence?
It seems impossible, but sometimes the tiniest things add up.
I don't know if I'm making sense or if anything I could ever say might help, but I hope you find a thousand tiny things that make you happy for a thousand tiny seconds.
You are the coolest person and I hope that things start looking up
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