Again on a Bands reread, and now that I'm paying more attention to everything, this quote from Telsin stood out:
Yet as I’ve aged, I feel like less and less is under my control. I can’t help thinking it shouldn’t be that way. How could I have been so in control as a youth, yet often feel so helpless as an adult?
That sounds like someone who would be open to if not looking for Autonomy to me.