Mental health club!

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

7 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

ok that made me laugh, thanks Haly

 

 

THANK ME BY DOING IT  

4 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Hehe

Aww, I'm glad 

SMOOOOOCH KISS KISSK KISS KISS

[Existential]

5 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Hehe

Aww, I'm glad 

 

 

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There you go @Halcyon The Only

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

 

 

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There you go @Halcyon The Only

 

*kisses*

Happy, Haly?

[Existential]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*kisses*

Happy, Haly?

*casually goes to watch markiplier in the background* 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

*casually goes to watch markiplier in the background* 

hey wait-

HEY WAIT-

*cringes*

[Existential]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

hey wait-

HEY WAIT-

*cringes*

I NEED LAUGHS OKAY

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

I NEED LAUGHS OKAY

OKAY 

*hug*

[Existential]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

OKAY 

*hug*

*hug*

 

 

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Also Markiplier is good

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fight me 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

9 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

 

 

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There you go @Halcyon The Only

 

 

7 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*kisses*

Happy, Haly?

Ye 

very  

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

9 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

*hug*

 

 

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fight me 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I WILL

well my OCD will

7 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

 

Ye 

very  

Good

[Keke They/he]

7 hours ago, KnightSkye said:

I got to go do a fun thing (that thing being a winter retreat camp). 

And most of it was fun. But there was lots of noise and people, and over stimulus. And I got really bad sleep. And depression is just... 

Yeah. I should feel good. I went and did a fun thing. 

But I felt cold and sad for part. And lonely for a bit. 

And now I feel tired, sad, and a little bit numb. That numb bit is trying to grow. I'm trying to keep feeling things.

 

hugs would be nice.

*huggsss* I get that. It's how it used to be for me. *more hugs* I hope it gets better. 

4 hours ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

Question, do yall ever have days where you wanna be with/see someone, and you can't so it makes you feel depressed and confined to one spot

*hugs* uhm. Not necessarily but. *hugss* 

3 hours ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

and it only just got worse from there, apparently

I walked downstairs to get dinner and my dad did 2 things 

1) said he'd kick me out if I keep snapping back

2) said I might as well not get married cause if I talk like that to my mom I'd treat my wife like s**t

Oh my stormfather. That's awful. *HUGS* i.. don't even know what to say. Is there anything I can do to help?

[Existential]

2 minutes ago, Thee insane said:

*huggsss* I get that. It's how it used to be for me. *more hugs* I hope it gets better. 

*hugs* uhm. Not necessarily but. *hugss* 

Oh my stormfather. That's awful. *HUGS* i.. don't even know what to say. Is there anything I can do to help?

I don't know, I'm feeling a bit better now tho. Thanks. I will b back if anything else happens more than likely

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

Does anyone else have the experience of feeling awful, emotionally wreaked, battered, and ready to crumble, but you've trained yourself not to?

Like, if a friend gave you a hug in person, you would just break down and cry, until you started to feel better, but you can't let yourself stop and fall apart long enough to do that processing cause you've spent so long telling yourself you need to be fine?

Sorry about this.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

2 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

Does anyone else have the experience of feeling awful, emotionally wreaked, battered, and ready to crumble, but you've trained yourself not to?

Like, if a friend gave you a hug in person, you would just break down and cry, until you started to feel better, but you can't let yourself stop and fall apart long enough to do that processing cause you've spent so long telling yourself you need to be fine?

Sorry about this.

Yeah

I’ve never cried in public tho. I’m kinda like bat in that respect

*squeezes*

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

5 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

Does anyone else have the experience of feeling awful, emotionally wreaked, battered, and ready to crumble, but you've trained yourself not to?

Like, if a friend gave you a hug in person, you would just break down and cry, until you started to feel better, but you can't let yourself stop and fall apart long enough to do that processing cause you've spent so long telling yourself you need to be fine?

Sorry about this.

Yeah

*hugssss*

[Existential]

5 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

Does anyone else have the experience of feeling awful, emotionally wreaked, battered, and ready to crumble, but you've trained yourself not to?

Like, if a friend gave you a hug in person, you would just break down and cry, until you started to feel better, but you can't let yourself stop and fall apart long enough to do that processing cause you've spent so long telling yourself you need to be fine?

Sorry about this.

absolutely. *hug* 

That's a big help withhaving glass. having someone to let in makes things easier

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

7 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

Does anyone else have the experience of feeling awful, emotionally wreaked, battered, and ready to crumble, but you've trained yourself not to?

Like, if a friend gave you a hug in person, you would just break down and cry, until you started to feel better, but you can't let yourself stop and fall apart long enough to do that processing cause you've spent so long telling yourself you need to be fine?

Sorry about this.

*hugs*

Yeah

it- uh

that happened recently, actually. The first part.

3 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

Yeah

I’ve never cried in public tho. I’m kinda like bat in that respect

*squeezes*

*hugs also*

1 minute ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

absolutely. *hug* 

That's a big help withhaving glass. having someone to let in makes things easier

Yep

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Since the recent posts are on different pages, it won’t let me quote them, so *hugs* for all y’all

*hug*

*hug*

*hug*

*hug*

*more hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Since the recent posts are on different pages, it won’t let me quote them, so *hugs* for all y’all

*hug*

*hug*

*hug*

*hug*

*more hugs*

*hugs back*

[Keke They/he]

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. 

Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 minutes ago, Thee insane said:

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. 

Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

oh my goodness

*hug*

I would say . . . those people are right, sometimes. If you turn to God, He'll help you.

But at the same time, He gave us agency, the ability for ourselves to choose what we do . . . and he doesn't control anyone. Maybe you're being faithful, and he's trying to help your parents relationship, but they're choosing not to accept it. Maybe help hasn't come yet, but it will soon.

In any case, don't go anywhere. It'll get better, I promise.

Maybe not in the ways that you think, but it will.

If you need to, you should talk to your bishop. Seriously, he's there to help you.

We're here too, of course, but it would be best to find help from people in person.

Anyway.

Not sure if that's actually helpful, but I'm doing my best here.

Don't go anywhere

[Existential]

20 minutes ago, Thee insane said:

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. 

Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

I'm so sorry *hugs*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

21 minutes ago, Thee insane said:

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. 

Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

 

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

oh my goodness

*hug*

I would say . . . those people are right, sometimes. If you turn to God, He'll help you.

But at the same time, He gave us agency, the ability for ourselves to choose what we do . . . and he doesn't control anyone. Maybe you're being faithful, and he's trying to help your parents relationship, but they're choosing not to accept it. Maybe help hasn't come yet, but it will soon.

In any case, don't go anywhere. It'll get better, I promise.

Maybe not in the ways that you think, but it will.

If you need to, you should talk to your bishop. Seriously, he's there to help you.

We're here too, of course, but it would be best to find help from people in person.

Anyway.

Not sure if that's actually helpful, but I'm doing my best here.

Don't go anywhere

Ok I second everything glass said 

I’m really no good at advice… but it helps me to remember that we’re here to get through this. Things won’t magically go away whrn you pray, but they will get easier because God will be more able to help you. 

*hugs many muches* 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

29 minutes ago, Thee insane said:

I've got a few issues rn. Ones that have already driven be to a full in panic attack. I talked to my dad but I need more then my dad for this. 

Ok so to start. I love my mom. My dad thinks she's using me. She has been asking stuff like when I was gone did dad feed you? Or when I was gonw did you get your meds? We know she's was trying to convince my dad that I'd be better with her but dropped that. I feel like she's doing that cause me choosing my dad is hurting her. I don't want to hurt her. I feel if I hurt her then her depression will come back. Along with her suicidal thoughts. She'd kill herself and it would be my fault. I know that it's not hut I can't but feel that. At the same time I feel like I'm not devoting myself enough to religion. I've never been to much for religion. But I go to church and all these people talk about how if your dedicated to religion then you get a bunch of blessings and life is so fun and awesome. They also say that it will look different for everyone. I thought I came to a conclusion of what it looks like for me but... well when I look back at my life it's full of pain and hurt. More then blessings. Sure I have alot. My friends and family. But... now I don't see anything. I feel like if... well maybe it would hurt less... then I try to stop that train of thought cause it scares me. That I won't be as strong as last time. That I'd give in. That I've gotten weaker over the years. I may have survived thoughts like that before but I fear if I fall there again I'm not gonna be strong enough but I don't know who to tell. I have all these issues but no solutions. I love the comfort I get but I need answers. Advice. I think oh if I pray I'll get them but I can't tell the difference between the holy ghost and my mental issues. And I'm at the point of questioning if it really exists cause why the hell would they let this happen. Then I think oh i can't think that. Cause it's not true and my brain argues. I love the comfort. But any answers. Solutions ways to help?

Damn. Ok first of all *hug*

Second of all, that’s really horrible, I’m so sorry. Dealing with depression is hard, whether it’s your own or someone else’s. It’s so, so important to remember that what they do because of their depression is not your fault—clearly you already logically know this, but it bears repeating. Also (note: I have nothing against religion and don’t mean to insult it or anyone at all, I apologize if thus does insult anyone) one of the main purposes of religion is to provide a community. I know quite a lot of non-religious people who are just as happy as religious people because they found their own community. Even some religious people still use different communities over their church, so it’s not necessarily a pressing requirement. Lastly, keep reminding yourself you have survived this far into your life and can continue to survive—there’s a very key mindset idea about this that I won’t go into here unless you want to know.

Also also, you have a whole community of people who love you!

Sorry that was a lot, I can be a bit of a talker

Edited February 10, 2025 by Kaladin Stormcursed

[Keke They/he]

3 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Damn. Ok first of all *hug*

Second of all, that’s really horrible, I’m so sorry. Dealing with depression is hard, whether it’s your own or someone else’s. It’s so, so important to remember that what they do because of their depression is not your fault—clearly you already logically know this, but it bears repeating. Also (note: I have nothing against religion and don’t mean to insult it or anyone at all, I apologize if thus does insult anyone) one of the main purposes of religion is to provide a community. I know quite a lot of non-religious people who are just as happy as religious people because they found their own community. Even some religious people still use different communities over their church, so it’s not necessarily a pressing requirement. Lastly, keep reminding yourself you have survived this far into your life and can continue to survive—there’s a very key mindset idea about this that I won’t go into here unless you want to know.

Also also, you have a whole community of people who love you!

Sorry that was a lot, I can be a bit of a talker

11 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

oh my goodness

*hug*

I would say . . . those people are right, sometimes. If you turn to God, He'll help you.

But at the same time, He gave us agency, the ability for ourselves to choose what we do . . . and he doesn't control anyone. Maybe you're being faithful, and he's trying to help your parents relationship, but they're choosing not to accept it. Maybe help hasn't come yet, but it will soon.

In any case, don't go anywhere. It'll get better, I promise.

Maybe not in the ways that you think, but it will.

If you need to, you should talk to your bishop. Seriously, he's there to help you.

We're here too, of course, but it would be best to find help from people in person.

Anyway.

Not sure if that's actually helpful, but I'm doing my best here.

Don't go anywhere

 

8 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

 

Ok I second everything glass said 

I’m really no good at advice… but it helps me to remember that we’re here to get through this. Things won’t magically go away whrn you pray, but they will get easier because God will be more able to help you. 

*hugs many muches* 

Thanks for the advice. It's just. That's what I hear alot. I don't wanna sound like I'm turning it away or ignoring it. But alot of people say that. Turn to god and he will help. I have. I've looked to him for comfort when my parents yelled at my brother for hours a day. I looked to him during the years I was depressed. It got better but it never stays. It just falls back down. I can't enjoy my happy times because it just falls again. I swear this is the third or fourth time in my short lifetime I have fallen this far. I want to turn to him but HOW. I do what everyone says I pray I read the scriptures I go to church. I know all about how to do it. I try it works but it only works for a few hours at most. It doesn't last. I need it to last.i need my life to go back to normal. I want to be happy again. For more then 12 hours at a time. It sounds selfish it sounds stupid. I just wish my life was normal for once! I wish I was normal. Like everyone else at church who doesn't worry about this how do they get to be fine while I do the same things but want to off myself every other year! I feel so stupid being jealous of them but I can't help it. I can't stop it!

Sorry I just... I just... I need to yell at something. Get everything I think out of my head.