Shadowed they/them Posted May 4, 2023 Posted May 4, 2023 okay i’ve been debating doing this for a while. so these are just some writingy stuffs that i made over the past month or so when i was in a funky headspace. i don’t know if they’re good or not, i just kind of wrote them, because writing can be such an amazing cathartic form of self-expression and i love it. oh also i should probably mention that the first one contains implicit references to suicide and they all reference general mental health struggles, so keep that in mind, i don’t want to trigger anyone by accident. um, enjoy i guess? If I Left Spoiler If I left Would you notice? If I vanished Would you care? If you never saw me again Would it affect you? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Would you remember me, three months from now? Would you do the things we used to do? Would you go the places we used to go? Would you see my face, hear my voice, everywhere you looked? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Silent Spoiler Silence Why is everyone silent? Why is everything silent? All the sounds I used to hear, Gone Replaced by Silence Silence Not silent like a library, calm and still Silent like a summer’s day turned stormy Heavy clouds settling over the horizon Weighing you Down Down Down Until I want to Scream. Silent Like a roaring in your ears Building to a crescendo A chaotic cacophony of terror and anguish Of horror, and pain, and hatred And yet Everything is Silent So I stay Silent. Snap Spoiler Snap When something inside of you Breaks Irrevocably Forever Snap The sound of an elastic band Stretched to breaking point Until it finally Gives in. Snap A matching pair When two things fit together perfectly But you can’t share the pain In case you ruin everything. Snap A camera shutter, a flash A photo on the internet That can never be taken back And that causes more harm Than they ever intended. Snap Out of it Snap Back into the real world Snap Yourself in the process Snap Snap Snap Lost, Alone, Cold, Empty, Scared Spoiler Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared Lost Wandering an unknown path That could lead Anywhere Alone No one is there to catch you When you inevitably Fall Cold Trapped in the frigid confines Of my own Mind Empty Devoid of emotion Of feeling Anything Scared Don’t know how to go on But you can’t Turn back Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared They said You’d be Found Together Warm Full Calm They said A lot of things They lied. 6
ShadeO'Incomprehensibility Posted May 4, 2023 Posted May 4, 2023 (edited) Dude you're my best friend, if you leave I'm going with you. Also, these are depressingly beautiful. You're scary good at both writing and drawing. Edited May 4, 2023 by ShadeO'Incomprehensibility 1
InfiniteInsanity she/her Posted May 4, 2023 Posted May 4, 2023 2 hours ago, Shadowed said: okay i’ve been debating doing this for a while. so these are just some writingy stuffs that i made over the past month or so when i was in a funky headspace. i don’t know if they’re good or not, i just kind of wrote them, because writing can be such an amazing cathartic form of self-expression and i love it. oh also i should probably mention that the first one contains implicit references to suicide and they all reference general mental health struggles, so keep that in mind, i don’t want to trigger anyone by accident. um, enjoy i guess? If I Left Reveal hidden contents If I left Would you notice? If I vanished Would you care? If you never saw me again Would it affect you? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Would you remember me, three months from now? Would you do the things we used to do? Would you go the places we used to go? Would you see my face, hear my voice, everywhere you looked? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Silent Reveal hidden contents Silence Why is everyone silent? Why is everything silent? All the sounds I used to hear, Gone Replaced by Silence Silence Not silent like a library, calm and still Silent like a summer’s day turned stormy Heavy clouds settling over the horizon Weighing you Down Down Down Until I want to Scream. Silent Like a roaring in your ears Building to a crescendo A chaotic cacophony of terror and anguish Of horror, and pain, and hatred And yet Everything is Silent So I stay Silent. Snap Reveal hidden contents Snap When something inside of you Breaks Irrevocably Forever Snap The sound of an elastic band Stretched to breaking point Until it finally Gives in. Snap A matching pair When two things fit together perfectly But you can’t share the pain In case you ruin everything. Snap A camera shutter, a flash A photo on the internet That can never be taken back And that causes more harm Than they ever intended. Snap Out of it Snap Back into the real world Snap Yourself in the process Snap Snap Snap Lost, Alone, Cold, Empty, Scared Reveal hidden contents Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared Lost Wandering an unknown path That could lead Anywhere Alone No one is there to catch you When you inevitably Fall Cold Trapped in the frigid confines Of my own Mind Empty Devoid of emotion Of feeling Anything Scared Don’t know how to go on But you can’t Turn back Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared They said You’d be Found Together Warm Full Calm They said A lot of things They lied. These are beautiful. I can't remember where you live but do you do slam poetry things there? 1
Edema Rue she/her Posted May 4, 2023 Posted May 4, 2023 Those are beautiful, and accurate. Do you need to talk about anything? My PM's are always open. 1
Shadowed they/them Posted May 5, 2023 Author Posted May 5, 2023 10 hours ago, InfiniteInsanity said: These are beautiful. I can't remember where you live but do you do slam poetry things there? thank you! i live in england, sometimes there are poetry events but they’re not specifically slam poetry. (i had to google what that meant lol) 10 hours ago, Edema Ruh said: Those are beautiful, and accurate. Do you need to talk about anything? My PM's are always open. thank you for the offer <3 1
Wittles he/him Posted May 5, 2023 Posted May 5, 2023 Those are so beautiful and very, well, poetic. It feels nice to know that I'm not the only one with those kinds of thoughts even though they're not good thoughts.
The Wandering Wizard he/him Posted May 8, 2023 Posted May 8, 2023 On 5/4/2023 at 0:29 PM, Shadowed said: okay i’ve been debating doing this for a while. so these are just some writingy stuffs that i made over the past month or so when i was in a funky headspace. i don’t know if they’re good or not, i just kind of wrote them, because writing can be such an amazing cathartic form of self-expression and i love it. oh also i should probably mention that the first one contains implicit references to suicide and they all reference general mental health struggles, so keep that in mind, i don’t want to trigger anyone by accident. um, enjoy i guess? If I Left Reveal hidden contents If I left Would you notice? If I vanished Would you care? If you never saw me again Would it affect you? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Would you remember me, three months from now? Would you do the things we used to do? Would you go the places we used to go? Would you see my face, hear my voice, everywhere you looked? Or would you move on? Would you be okay? Would you shed a few tears, grieve for a day, then forget about me? Silent Reveal hidden contents Silence Why is everyone silent? Why is everything silent? All the sounds I used to hear, Gone Replaced by Silence Silence Not silent like a library, calm and still Silent like a summer’s day turned stormy Heavy clouds settling over the horizon Weighing you Down Down Down Until I want to Scream. Silent Like a roaring in your ears Building to a crescendo A chaotic cacophony of terror and anguish Of horror, and pain, and hatred And yet Everything is Silent So I stay Silent. Snap Reveal hidden contents Snap When something inside of you Breaks Irrevocably Forever Snap The sound of an elastic band Stretched to breaking point Until it finally Gives in. Snap A matching pair When two things fit together perfectly But you can’t share the pain In case you ruin everything. Snap A camera shutter, a flash A photo on the internet That can never be taken back And that causes more harm Than they ever intended. Snap Out of it Snap Back into the real world Snap Yourself in the process Snap Snap Snap Lost, Alone, Cold, Empty, Scared Reveal hidden contents Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared Lost Wandering an unknown path That could lead Anywhere Alone No one is there to catch you When you inevitably Fall Cold Trapped in the frigid confines Of my own Mind Empty Devoid of emotion Of feeling Anything Scared Don’t know how to go on But you can’t Turn back Lost Alone Cold Empty Scared They said You’d be Found Together Warm Full Calm They said A lot of things They lied. They are indeed very good. And writing is a very good medium for getting out and expressing thoughts I think. They remind me of similar thoughts I have had at times. We're here for you if you ever need it <3
Szeth's Facepalm Posted May 8, 2023 Posted May 8, 2023 Ohhh i didn't see this before i commented on your older one saying you should share more haha. you're an amazing writer!!
Shadowed they/them Posted June 16, 2023 Author Posted June 16, 2023 (edited) ok, this is very unedited so bear with, but have a prologue to something I might carry on with: (it’s the same thing as the most recent drawing in my art thread) Spoiler Power is a double-edged sword. Those who wield it are blessed with a Privilege and a Duty. Those who disrespect this disrespect the Messenger, and in doing so, disrespect the Deity. Those who respect this shall prosper. Whether they light or dark, Blaze or Shadow, rich or poor, old or young. All have a Duty to mirror their Privilege. Never forget this. The Messenger set down her quill with reverence. She had no memory of writing on the scroll before her, yet it was overflowing with messages from the good Deity within. Her visions were becoming more and more frequent lately, to the point that her shelves were filled with scrolls like the one on her desk, all bearing vital instruction from the Holy One. Perhaps one day she would collate them into a single volume, so that the whole world might read them and benefit from the holy words. But not today. It was getting dark outside, so the Messenger reached for a lamp before remembering her newfound abilities, granted by the gracious Deity just decades before. She replaced the lamp, instead summoning a small ball of glowing orange flame to dance on her fingertips. Taking the flame with her, she carefully filed the new scroll, locked the door to her Message Room behind her and made her way to her bedroom. A book was sitting on her bed. She had never seen it before in her life. It was a beautiful volume, just like the Messenger - and now she looked more closely, it had obviously been made to resemble her. The spine was edged with the same luscious golden as her hair, flecked with bronze for her eyes, and bound in the most elegant red leather that matched perfectly her favourite dress. In spiralling, curving letters, the cover bore the words “Shadows Ablaze.” The inside was completely blank, save for her name. Her real name, which she hadn’t used in centuries. Tiada Starflame. Spoiler You’ll see why the name is important in the rest of it edit: storms, i just read it back. when i said unedited, i meant it lol. Edited June 16, 2023 by Shadowed
Shadowed they/them Posted September 6, 2023 Author Posted September 6, 2023 I wrote some more things! idk if they’re good but enjoy ig? The Mask Spoiler The mask follows me everywhere. I don’t control it, It controls me. I can’t find a way to take it off So it stays on. No one knows what’s under the mask, Not even me, Because no one taught me how to find out. But maybe, With you, I can learn. Maybe, With you, I can teach myself Discover myself Find myself So that I can Be myself. Today, the mask followed me everywhere Except When I was with you. Only then Only when it was just us, alone Only then did it leave me At last. A weight, lifted A burden, lessened A cloak, discarded Even if it is only temporary With you I set down a load I didn’t know I was hauling, Everywhere I went. So for that, I thank you. Running Spoiler I don’t think. I just run. I don’t know what I’m doing, or where I’m going, or what I’m going to do when I get there. All I know is that I need to get away, away from the bad, bad place. I know he is following me. I can hear his steel-toed boots slapping on the rain-soaked cobblestones, far louder than my bare feet. I would know the sounds of those boots anywhere - they visit me in my dreams every night. “Come here, Anna darling. Daddy’s got new shoes!” I didn’t know, then, that those shoes would give me the great ugly scar covering almost all of my back, or that they would cause more emotional scarring than anyone would ever find out. My breathing is starting to get shallower, coming in ragged gasps. I haven’t kept in shape, these past months - although anyone would be out of breath at the speed I am barely maintaining. I haven’t even eaten today, despite the sun beginning to set on the horizon, so I don’t know how I’m keeping the pace up. I must be running on adrenaline and pure terror, the terror of being taken back to the bad, bad place. My hands are wet. Blood? Callum’s blood. Blood I spilled. Blood my father spilled. It’s water. It’s only water. When did it start raining? My thoughts are circling, becoming more and more erratic. I know I’m spiralling, and I know I can’t keep running for much longer before I’m forced to stop and catch my breath. But stopping means facing the boots, and the monster of a man attached to them. And I can’t. I can’t do that. The streets are slick with blood - water, it’s only rainwater - and I can’t see through the bright car headlights, blinding as the fluorescent lamps Callum’s hospital room. I’m not even sure where I am anymore; I’ve run so far that everywhere I turn I’m faced with unfamiliar buildings leering down at me from all sides. I can almost taste the hostility, thick at the back of my throat, threatening to choke me. Suddenly, there is no road in front of me, and I find myself staring at a brick wall. A dead end. I almost scream in frustration. There is nowhere to go from here. I’ve come to the end of my path. And I’m just so, so tired. There are black dots dancing at the edge of my vision and I know I’m close to exhaustion. I can’t hold on much longer. There’s no point trying. He won. I don’t think. I just let myself be consumed by the blackness. 2
Edema Rue she/her Posted September 7, 2023 Posted September 7, 2023 Shadowed those were awesome!! I love them!! You write beautiful, powerful words. 1
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