Dear You (Yes, You, Twelve Months from Now),
I’m writing this from the middle of the "In-Between."
Right now, as I type this, things probably feel a bit like a first rehearsal—the kind where no one knows their lines yet, the blocking is messy, and the set is mostly just blue painter’s tape on a cold floor. You know that feeling. It’s the stage where you have to trust the director’s vision even when you can't see the finished product.
I want to remind you of a few things, just in c
There is a specific kind of silence that exists only in two places: in the five seconds before a theater curtain rises, and in the heartbeat after a Dungeon Master says, “Roll for initiative.”
It’s a vacuum. A held breath. It’s the moment where reality stops being the thing we’re stuck with and starts being the thing we’re making.
When I was asked to write for Week 2 of this series—focusing on joys that have nothing to do with the "trans" label—I realized that my entire life is essenti
Coming out is a massive, high-definition shift. It’s not just about the internal relief of finally being yourself; it’s about the sudden, often overwhelming way the world starts reacting to you. One of the most exhausting parts of this journey is the influx of questions—some well-meaning, some nosy, and some that are just plain out of line.
I’ve realized that I can’t control what people ask, but I can control how much of myself I give away. This week, I’m focusing on Setting Boundaries with
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how much has changed in just a few months. When you start your journey as a trans girl, everything feels like it’s in high-definition—the good, the bad, and the extremely awkward. One of the biggest things I’ve realized is that you can’t really do this alone. You need a party, like in a high-stakes RPG, to help you navigate the maps you haven't explored yet. For me, that party has been the online communities I’ve stumbled into, especially the 17th Shard.
Living through a medical transition often means your "wins" are measured in lab results, dosage adjustments, or appointment checkboxes. But this week, the breakthrough wasn’t in a clinic—it was in the mirror.
I’m dedicating this post to a non-medical win: the pure, unadulterated euphoria of a fresh haircut.
There is something transformative about the sound of shears near your ears. It’s the intentional shedding of an old silhouette. For me, this wasn’t just about "cleaning up the edges
For Week 2 of this series, we’re talking about the Secret Wardrobe—that first piece of clothing or jewelry that actually felt like you, even if you only ever wore it behind closed doors.
When you’re a trans girl navigating the early stages of transition, the world feels like a place where you’re constantly performing. You wear the "boy clothes" like a heavy set of armor that doesn't quite fit, waiting for the moment you can go home and take the mask off. But for me, the first time I felt li
In our corner of the internet, we spend an incredible amount of time dissecting the internal lives of characters. We analyze their growth and how their self-perception shapes the world around them. But this week, I decided to turn that analytical lens inward. I took a break from the theories to focus on a more personal project: The Pronoun Test Drive.
The concept was simple: spend seven days using a new name and pronouns in a controlled, safe environment to see if they actually felt like me
There is a specific kind of stuck that happens when you’re a trans girl in nerdy spaces. You spend years as a lurker—not just on the 17th Shard forums or Discord, but in your own life. You watch the main characters from the sidelines, hiding behind an avatar and a username that feels like a suit of armor you forgot how to take off. As we stare down 2026, I’ve decided that the Lurker Era is officially over. Transitioning isn't just about the medical milestones (though those are great); it’s about
Hi everyone! It's that time of the week again! I'm @Akimikoisthecutest for those who don't know me, and I started this blog to talk about some of the troubles of being trans.
This week we're talking about who I really am, versus how I act around others
My presentation isn't a choice; it's a shield. When I walk out the door, I often feel like I’m stepping onto a stage. There’s a specific way I’m supposed to walk, a certain pitch to my voice, and a way I have to react to things to keep p
Hi there! It's @Akimikoisthecutest again! It’s time for week 2!
This week we're going to be talking about the things I learned as a boy, and am now discarding as I move on in my life! Coming to terms with being a trans girl isn't just about finding the right clothes or a new name; it’s about deconstructing years of "training" that told me how a person is supposed to exist in the world. For many of us, growing up was like being handed a script for a play we never auditioned for. Now, I’m fin
Hi, everyone! Today I'm going to be talking about when I first realized I was trans! Cue magical sparkle flashbacky sound effect!
Finding your identity is rarely a straight line; it’s more of a winding path through dense woods where the markers are often hidden until you’re standing right in front of them. My journey over the past year and a half has been a whirlwind of self-reflection, hesitation, and eventual clarity. Looking back at where I was in late 2024 compared to where I am now in
Month 1: The Inner Landscape
Focus: Deep reflections on identity and the initial "crack" of the egg.
Week 1: The Anatomy of an "Aha!" Moment – Describe the specific event or realization that made you finally accept your identity.
Week 2: Unlearning the Script – List three things you were "taught" about your assigned gender that you are now officially letting go of.
Week 3: Identity vs. Performance – Discuss the difference between how you presented to survive and who you feel
Hi everyone! This is my first post in my story of how I realized I was trans! Alright, let’s get right into it.
So, it was during the COVID-19 pandemic for me, which meant the strange, isolated world of online school. Like many people during that time, I found myself with basically unlimited internet access and a lot of quiet hours to fill while the world outside seemed to stand still. I was spending my afternoons watching YouTube, like anyone would, just trying to pass the time between Zoo
Hi everyone! I'm Akimikoisthecutest, if you don't already know, and I'm a trans woman! Here I'm going to share my story with you all!
My first actual post should show up soon (I thought I scheduled it for noon today, but I guess not.)
Sooo, yeah!
Here we go!
