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    16/7/26 Status: *sighs* If only @Potato wasn't taken...
  • Pronouns
    He/Him
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    Cats, Video Games, Cats, Books, Cats, Pokémon, and Cats

    Autistic + ADHD

    @GG0z: I now formally bestow you with the new nickname: Ounce
    @Grub: Hi! Yes this IS a clunky system, but it's the best I've got.
    @Usseewa: …*hugs?*
    I worry that I act like I'm neutral on a topic, but the constant "play it off as a joke" impulsive thoughts reveal I'm otherwise. I try to be accepting of other ideas, but I worry I'm not. I want to be firm on my opinions and beliefs, but I feel the need to investigate other sides. I worry I'm wrong, I hate being wrong, I can't handle being wrong well. I worry my beliefs are being "corrupted" by exposure to other ones. I used to be in a weekly group of Christian homeschool students, almost all who had literal interpretations and such (Young Earth, Anti-LGBTQ+), and I just pretended I was in agreement with them because it was impossible to convince them they were wrong (now where have I seen that before…). I worry to explain my beliefs to anyone because I fear retaliation/retribution/exclusion from them. I want friends, I want companionship, I want people I can talk to without constant bickering. I worry they don't exist. -fin- (probably)

    Go read @Stardust's stories! They're really good, I promise!

    Feel free to PM me if for any reason you want to. No replies tho.

    When I wake up, well, I know I'm gonna be
    I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
    When I go out, yeah, I know I'm gonna be
    I'm gonna be the man who's goes out next to you
    If I get drunk, well, I know I'm gonna be
    I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
    And if I haver, yeah, I know I'm gonna be
    I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you

    And I would walk five hundred miles
    And I would walk five hundred more
    Just to be the man who walked a thousand
    Miles to fall down at your door

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  1. Usseewa
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    15/7/26 Status: Can I even trust my own thoughts?

    i ... worry that too..

    i think.

    its hard to sort through things...

    sigh i cant think rn abt that cuz.. i cant even . idk

    1. Usseewa

      Usseewa

      ah ..

      jdk if this is anything u meant but.. soemtimes (moreso in past months) i was questioning all my beliefs, everyhting i had been taught ir wtvr, everything, my stance, my eveything. it has fsded but maybe just cuz i ignore it. some of it was political (ok.. probably most..), other was.. idk. i basicaly wuestioned if people with other.. views were correct, if i was wrong. even when soemthing wujkd be clearly harmful to people, or when i had been.. tsught that their view was, well, obviously wrong. because for them they probably believe ss stringly as me or whatvrr. so.. like what if everyone around me had been the "wrong" ones...? idk.. im not proud of some of the things i wuestooned but yeh..

      i hate it. maybe its cuz im not ..trusting the people who instilled it in me. i mean i also had peolle who had the other views, but idk.. sigh.

      maybe thats not what you meant.

      maybe youre in an area or envoorkment where people with diffrrnet view are more orevalent, or maybe you havent fiund peopem eith same view as yu. its hoenstly up to you whether to be friends with them or not. for me.. i would probably not if they were being hateful, discriminatory, etc..

      if it were as simple as a different religion, or religious when im not, or soemthing then itd be fine.. tho idk if id like it if they.. "shoved it in my face." 

      also their beliefs prolly come from their parents and/or teschers or etvr .... so idk.

      idk.

      sometimes i worry abojt me being."corrupted" too.. especially as i weirdly become more intrrrsted in religion whe n i thought i wsnt, and am not religious st sll... idk.

      people have questioned when i start drawing crosses and crap in my doodles. i just like the cross. maybe cuz it kinda sumbolizs death (at least for me) and im an edgy loser, idk. maybe im just.. being a cremling. idk.

      i hate being wrong to. i hate failing, hate feeling like.. hate feeling silly and believing soemthing so truly and then realizing/being told its ering sndd then... yeh.

      isk.

      hopefuly this wasnt too political or snything... make usre you arent too political at sll either. idk.

      sigh

      gl

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