BrainFreeze

Well, maybe Wayne is too unreliable as a narrator here (although he is usually good at understanding people), but "emptiness that he hopes would someday be filled with something, even with hatred" (I paraphrased, but he basically said this about her eyes) is usually what I would expect as a description of someone devastated/still strongly grieving, whose grief doesn't even leave space for hatred. And that grief is what baffles me. I would understand hatred/resentment of Wayne who "got away with it".

Stalking? Wasn't it Allriandre's mother who came up with that nonsense that Wayne should give money to her daughter and not herself?

But having no memories of her father she also would not have any emotional attachment to him. So any resentment for the killing itself would be impersonal. What would be personal is blame for the absence of her father - she observed other children who had fathers, envied them and knew that she could also have something like that if not for Wayne. But that feeling of resentment is much less potent than hatred for someone who killed your loved one.

I'm reading Shadows of Self and just read the university scene with Wayne and Allriandre. Allriandre's attitude doesn't make sense to me. She is described as "just shy of 20" and from the first fragment of the book we know that Wayne was already with Wax 17 years ago. That means that he killed A's father when A was two years old (or even younger). It's very rare for an adult to remember anything from that age, so A probably doesn't even remember her father. Thus her "no forgiveness" attitude baffles me. I would understand such a thing from her mother, who still remembers her husband and grieves for him. I would understand that if A herself was at least five at the moment her father's death, but events as presented don't make sense to me. I thought at first that it may be a learned attitude - as in, she was taught to hate Wayne by her family, but Wayne himself describes it as "emptiness" and not hatred.