Nathrangking

THEY HOLD LARGE SLURPEE CUPS!!!

PLUS CUP HOLDER

AND ORANGE STARS

PRAISED BE THE HEMALURGIC BEAVER!!!!!! BOW BEFORE OUR MASTERS!!!!!!!!!!

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PRAISED BE THE HEMALURGIC BEAVER!!!!!!

WE COME TO BURY ODIUM NOT TO PRAISE HIM

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*Wins through extreme and completely and totally utterly unnecessary verbosity.*

*Wins through endless humility.*

*Wins with face palm.*

380. Never ignore dreams that seem to portend danger. If you do bad things will happen!!

The heavens glow a beaten gold. *Wins in poetic style.*

Losing.

First thank you. Second, its just that the past and a half has been so hard and unkind that for me to unburden all of that here at times felt unfair even though I know that all of you are the greatest and really do want to help.

*Wins musically.*

I hate that I have to post here again, but I need to vent in a major way. I had/ have a friend whom I have known since we were both quite young. Our meeting was memorable one to say the least. Over the years we were not best friend close, but we went to school on the same bus we would talk quite a bit and we got along well. Things changed when we got to high school and we went our separate ways. I wondered throughout high school what she was up to and admittedly I had a crush. After high school we reconnected and I admitted that I had had a crush on her. We stayed casual friends though I always got the sense that things were awkward between us. We continued on and I became aware that perhaps I was still crushing on her despite the passage of time. I tried to talk to her about it however she became defensive and ultimately put me on the defensive for in her words "making things about me." I tried to smooth things over, but she was having none of it. Ultimately, she blocked me on social media. I tried to reach out after and things crumbled when she began to try to move things in a direction that I was not ready for. I knew then that something was off in our dynamic and for a while I kept my distance, I was uncomfortable with the way things ended so I recently reached out to her and she told me that she did not realize that I felt as I did. That should have set off warning bells. However, I still hoped to salvage things. I broke down exactly how I felt and I told her that the best thing was to just keep things casual. She became even more aggressive than before and despite my attempts to cool things down in about a day things reached a breaking point. I told her that I did not feel a romantic love for her and would start a relationship of this kind. She lost it with me and cursed at me saying that she deserved to be loved and that she would block me again. I commented that I cared for her as a friend and that was all. I also asked what was wrong with wanting to just be friends. I left it at that. She did not respond to me and I took a day to think about this situation. It became painfully clear that there was something unhealthy going on in this relationship. I put an end to things and blocked her on social media. A friendship that had been on and off for almost 20 years imploded in a devastating way. At times I feel guilty and think if only I had tried harder things might have been different. Honestly, I don't know what to think about the whole thing. It hurt to see it ho, but I don't know that I could have maintained it on my own. The weight might have crushed me. This is not something that anybody else in the world knows about. I quietly carried this around inside for a long time. I don't know if I was wrong or right, but I do know that I cannot keep this hidden anymore. (I want to thank those who take the time to listen to my self-serving ramblings. What it means to you cannot begin to imagine!)

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