Gaz redemption AU comic page 6

I couldn’t find a good spren to represent a feeling of gained/lost hope, which i feel is a pretty important theme in this au so i made one up myself. 
Because Gaz is a piece of garbage, but a piece of garbage in a very difficult situation where he’s made to work a job that requires him to have no empathy for his soldiers, and where he’s constantly inches from demotion (which would result in death) That and he’s full of debts of a nebulous nature, and haunted by half of his world being in darkness. I don’t think you can live like this without taking the part of you that can still feel hope and crushing it under your boot.

So finding yourself hoping again… is probably unpleasant.