Shallan Oaths Theory (slash extrapolation)

[Lightdancer]

So I saw this theory about Shallan's oaths as a Lightweaver in another thread:

On 11/19/2020 at 3:25 PM, Jofwu said:

And I do think we're still meant to have questions. This is all very much my theory. I could be wrong about a lot of this. I've seen several different interpretations.

Testament:
First Ideal (presumably voiced at some point as a child)
Truth #1 = ???
Truth #2 = ??? (killed her mother sometime after speaking this)
(she denied Testament here, damaging their bond in some way and causing Testament to become a deadeye)
Truth #3 = "I"m terrified" in TWoK

Pattern:
First Ideal (not sure if she re-voiced this at some point or if the first time still counts???)
Truth #1 = "I killed my father" at the end of TWoK
Truth #2 = "I killed my mother" at the end of WoR
Truth #3 = "I killed my first spren" at the end of RoW

There was some joking around about the "pattern" in Shallan's Pattern-oaths, but I wanted to take it seriously for a second. All of Shallan's Pattern-oaths are murder-related (the third truth is questionable, but I like it.) More broadly, they're all action-related: what Shallan has done.

My first impulse was to extend that to her Testament-oaths. We only have one of those- "I'm terrified"- and we don't know if that's a real truth. However, assuming that it is, and assuming that the Testament-oaths follow a pattern like the Pattern-oaths, then I propose that Shallan's Testament-oaths were related to her identity: who Shallan is.

In this framework, the Testament-oaths would all be related to who Shallan's identity, and the Pattern-oaths would be related to Shallan's actions.

I think this would reflect the dichotomy between Shallan's identity and her actions. She consistently struggles with the idea that she has murdered her mother and father. Part of Shallan's arc throughout the Stormlight Archive is understanding that she is not defined by what she has done.

The fact that Shallan struggles with her identity becomes even more significant when we realize that Shallan broke her oaths with Testaments- oaths relating to her identity. Perhaps the act of breaking her bond set her on a path of questioning who she is and conflating herself with her worst actions- kicking off her whole character arc.

There are some issues with this theory. Like I mentioned, we don't know if "I killed my first spren" is actually Shallan's third Pattern-oath. Worse, we only have one (possible!) Testament-oath. (I think this is a real truth, due to the arguments in the original thread. If you want to check it out, it's here: 

Even if that is a real Testament-oath, I extrapolated an entire theme for Shallan's Testament-oaths out of one truth. So this might be pretty flimsy. I'd love to hear your thoughts.