The Sacrifice RP

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

2 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"You do the same."

“Not as good as you do.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“Not as good as you do.”

"You do just right."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

Just now, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"You do just right."

“That’s not true.” 

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“That’s not true.” 

"It is!"

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

3 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"It is!"

“What about when I got out of prison. That wasn’t the love you needed or deserved.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

4 minutes ago, Lightweaver2 said:

“What about when I got out of prison. That wasn’t the love you needed or deserved.”

"It only lasted an hour or so. Considering that you had just been locked away for a year, thinking I had abandoned you, I'd say that's pretty remarkable."

Edited January 19, 2024 by The Aspiring Archivist

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

Just now, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"It only lasted an hour or so. Considering that you had just been locked away for a year, thinking I had abandoned you, I'd say that's pretty remarkable."

“And I’d say it still wasn’t right.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“And I’d say it still wasn’t right.”

"You thought I had betrayed you, and for good reason. It was likely no better than I would have fared in the same situation. It also wasn't your fault. It was unavoidable."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

14 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"You thought I had betrayed you, and for good reason. It was likely no better than I would have fared in the same situation. It also wasn't your fault. It was unavoidable."

“You say it wasn’t my fault, but it was. I had convinced myself to hate you, because it was easier than loving you and thinking you’d left me.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“You say it wasn’t my fault, but it was. I had convinced myself to hate you, because it was easier than loving you and thinking you’d left me.”

"Remember what we talked about just before? I said that the person I killed might no longer love me as she did before, because betraying her in that way proved me to be a different person than she thought I was. The same is true for you. You love me. And I would never abandon you. That is core to who I am, who we are. And since I had seemingly abandoned you anyway, the person you loved seemed like a lie."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

4 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"Remember what we talked about just before? I said that the person I killed might no longer love me as she did before, because betraying her in that way proved me to be a different person than she thought I was. The same is true for you. You love me. And I would never abandon you. That is core to who I am, who we are. And since I had seemingly abandoned you anyway, the person you loved seemed like a lie."

“But…I couldn’t do it. Tayen, I was right about her. No matter how hard I tried, there was always a part of me that loved you.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

2 minutes ago, Lightweaver2 said:

“But…I couldn’t do it. Tayen, I was right about her. No matter how hard I tried, there was always a part of me that loved you.”

"Maybe that was just the part of you that still hoped. That still believed that it could somehow make sense. Our minds do have a way of defying the observable truth."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

Just now, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"Maybe that was just the part of you that still hoped. That still believed that it could somehow make sense. Our minds do have a way of defying the observable truth."

“Or maybe there was a part of me that did, that does, and that always will love you, no matter what happens.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“Or maybe there was a part of me that did, that does, and that always will love you, no matter what happens.”

"And that is the part of you that ignores the loss. It hangs on to something even if it may no longer exist, or never have existed at all."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

1 minute ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"And that is the part of you that ignores the loss. It hangs on to something even if it may no longer exist, or never have existed at all."

“Maybe. Or maybe I just knew who you were, deep inside. That you would never leave me, not on purpose. That there had to be some other explanation. It was just easier to try to believe otherwise.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“Maybe. Or maybe I just knew who you were, deep inside. That you would never leave me, not on purpose. That there had to be some other explanation. It was just easier to try to believe otherwise.”

"Not easier. I imagine it hurt you very badly to believe otherwise. But it was more logical."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

Just now, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"Not easier. I imagine it hurt you very badly to believe otherwise. But it was more logical."

“No, it was easier. Easier to believe that you didn’t love me, that it was all fake.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“No, it was easier. Easier to believe that you didn’t love me, that it was all fake.”

"Really? It didn't hurt more?"

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

1 minute ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"Really? It didn't hurt more?"

“It…I don’t know. It hurt, but not in the same way. It meant that you weren’t stopped somehow from rescuing me, that you were safe. It also meant that I didn’t have the fears that you’d left me, because in my mind you already had. I don’t know which would have been easier to handle.

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

2 minutes ago, Lightweaver2 said:

“It…I don’t know. It hurt, but not in the same way. It meant that you weren’t stopped somehow from rescuing me, that you were safe. It also meant that I didn’t have the fears that you’d left me, because in my mind you already had. I don’t know which would have been easier to handle.

He gave her hand a squeeze. "Either way, you're not to blame. For any of it. Something very cruel was done to you, and you hurt from it, and you needed and need time to recover. It's okay."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

1 minute ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

He gave her hand a squeeze. "Either way, you're not to blame. For any of it. Something very cruel was done to you, and you hurt from it, and you needed and need time to recover. It's okay."

“Thank you. I hope it will be ok.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

Just now, Lightweaver2 said:

“Thank you. I hope it will be ok.”

"For what it's worth, I forgive you completely. I don't think it's something that requires forgiveness at all, but I'll do it if you're having a hard time forgiving yourself."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

1 minute ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"For what it's worth, I forgive you completely. I don't think it's something that requires forgiveness at all, but I'll do it if you're having a hard time forgiving yourself."

“And why do you forgive me? After what I did to you, it was my choice after all, even if circumstances caused me to be more likely to choose that one.”

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

5 minutes ago, Lightweaver2 said:

“And why do you forgive me? After what I did to you, it was my choice after all, even if circumstances caused me to be more likely to choose that one.”

"I forgive you because it wasn't your fault that you were in that situation, and that you believed I had abandoned you. You did nothing horrible to me, you just needed to recover and adjust. And I love you."

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

1 minute ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

"I forgive you because it wasn't your fault that you were in that situation, and that you believed I had abandoned you. You did nothing horrible to me, you just needed to recover and adjust. And I love you."

“But I did do something horrible. I saw how much it hurt you.”