And you must seek opportunities

And your so bright

And you’ll succeed

And they don’t know

The opportunities?

They present themselves until theyre

 All that’s left.

And then

Me.

A husk of a child.

The opportunity crushing me

The “such a bright young man” crushing me

I am a boy. 

Whos a girl.

Whos so bright.

And won’t live past 20.

I ask why. Why. Why. Why.

I do things I love.

but I hate them. For I am a child first and foremost. But my future is trying to chop me down.

like a tree in a forest.

and when I fall? 

what will those around hear.

i wish it would end

Forever

i dont want an afterlife

i just want to be listening to Tchaikovsky 6 

and then

gone 

with the flick of a blade

gone

What reason.

I live for others.

Why.

Can’t I live for myself.

Not running, not jogging. Walking.

I think, I could walk forever.

Just existing, into the distance.

The constant repetitive movement makes me sad. But good sad.

I could walk. But I can’t somedays. 
Somedays I walk forever.

Some I don’t want to walk out of bed.

Some I want to walk off a cliff or into the ocean.

Some I want to walk along said cliff or said ocean and take in the beauty of life.

Im not sure what today was.

It was both, it was neither.

But I walked nonetheless.

When I see a cross in a house, I look for exits. When I see a cross on a necklace I prepare to turn, when I go to the bathroom I hope I won’t see crosses. When I hear religious music it sounds like the jaws theme.

And I hate myself for this, bc ik most religious people aren’t bad.

But the ones that pass me notes in the hallway saying “so and so likes u” and then follow me around for a week saying that that guys in love with me and telling my name and saying gross things too me. And the ones that say “ew Izzy almost touched me” when u get too close. And the ones that spread pictures of me in a dress around the entire school for people to laugh at. And the ones that find a picture of me in a crop top and spread that around the school. 
 

They have “trained” me to think this way, I don’t hate religious people, heck my girlfriend is religious, my best friends religious, one of my other best friends dad is a preacher although my friend himself isn’t religious. But still I fear the cross, I fear what the people who use it will do to me.

I saw a 4 year old with a cross necklace today and he waved at me and I waved back but all I was thinking was “when this kid turns 18 he’s going to try to take my rights and ruin my life bc of who I am” and I hate that. I hate that I think that way. But it keeps me safe. So I also hate the people that made me have to think this way.

The entire Chappel roan discography 

I’ll put more if I think of them

@Through The Living Girl

im sorry

Im sorry

im sorry

im sorry

im sorry 

I’m sorry

im sorry 

im sorry

Now this is all to say, you have a very easy way to protect and help the children you supposedly care so much about that provides zero consequences to you or other children and you decide you’d rather kids die? 

Great Caucasian God

No Kings

Join Ice

Bugs

The Poor

United Health 

classically for men

look really good on women and enbies

i hate wearing them

but it’s better than jeans and a tshirt

so I wear it in black to show my disdain

Dresses

classically for women

look very good on men and enbies

I love wearing them

but I have one

so I wear it alone in my room for no one to see

these two parallels, two opposite garments, two opposing opinions

The one scenario where I must wear this suit

The thousand scenarios where I wish to wear the dress

but, it cannot be

for those such as me

fated to wear the suit

-sad Izzy who’s going to a beethoven concert to feel less sad but gets dysphoria on the way there

snow is cold

sledding is fun

i hate my brother

my beloved 

so simple and true

every time that I listen

i shed a small tear for you

You make me so sad

and fill me with joy

tchaik six

my beloved 

so simple and true

every single sharder reading this

should listen to you

all four movements 

they cause much joy

and make Tchaikovskys heart flutter

despite his depart 

anyways go listen to Tchaik six 

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