Dya ever feel alien? Because I do slot of times. Especially surrounding death or grief. Sure I'll cry when a character died in a movie show or book. But the second it happens in real life i just.... don't. Don't do anything. Feel anything. The reason this is on my mind is because recently in a city near me, a group of nine kids almost died in a bad car crash. Someone talked abt it in church. And people were crying it was sad bc someone's nephew was in the crash. But all I could do was sit there... the same thing happened a few years ago when my grandpa died. Everyone in my family was hurting and crying and I wasn't. I didn't feel any different then normal. No remorse. Or pain. Just alienated bc I'm not having a normal reaction. I just went about my life as usual. One of my aunts died a few months ago. And while my mom and sister cried, I didn't feel any different.
Idk... just wanted to tell someone. Maybe some of yall can relate?