Do you ever feel like you care too much about things? Things other people just seem to be able to take in stride or shrug off? Because I've been feeling like that lately, big-time.
A while ago I said something stupid. Something I nearly instantly regretted. Someone told me, candidly and eloquently, that it was a very stupid thing to say, and even though it was eloquent and was probably not meant to be unkind or anything, I felt like the most horrible creature to ever walk upon the face of this earth. A bit before that, I did something dumb, something I instantly thought was probably not a good idea, and not much later I was told it was, in fact, a very stupid thing to do. In fact, it was offensive. I apologized my face numb, but I can't get over it, and even though I tell myself no one really noticed or thought much of it I can't stop feeling awful about it. And then today someone told me basically that they thought it hadn't been the most intelligent idea- she's a wonderful person, lovely person, and she wasn't meaning to make me feel like this but it confirmed to me that yes, in fact, people did notice this stupid thing. And I feel like some horrible person for even thinking about doing it- and saying that other thing- in the first place.
And on top of that I have high school and I'm 99% sure I'll be moving before winter and I'm overwhelmed with... everything.