Hmmm lies she/her Posted January 16 Posted January 16 Just now, Theory said: Anything else? Or anything I can do to explore my gender identity/if I'm trans? Hmmm... One thing that you might wanna think about is relationships. I don't think you've stated your orientation, but in my experience, pre-egg, I was into girls, but post-egg, I became absolutely obsessed, so extremely gay it's incredible. Being a woman made me like women even more. Maybe think about how you would feel about relationships as a girl versus a guy. 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 16 Posted January 16 Just now, Hmmm lies said: Hmmm... Lies Just now, Hmmm lies said: One thing that you might wanna think about is relationships. I don't think you've stated your orientation, but in my experience, pre-egg, I was into girls, but post-egg, I became absolutely obsessed, so extremely gay it's incredible. Being a woman made me like women even more. Maybe think about how you would feel about relationships as a girl versus a guy. Yeah, I'm into women, I think. Tho I haven't been in any relationships yet I can't rlly picture myself being with a guy. I guess I could with a girl. Wait a sec am I aro ace Ummm... 1
Hmmm lies she/her Posted January 16 Posted January 16 3 minutes ago, Theory said: Lies Yeah, I'm into women, I think. Tho I haven't been in any relationships yet I can't rlly picture myself being with a guy. I guess I could with a girl. Wait a sec am I aro ace Ummm... *shrug* Idk, you could probably think about it more. I know people who took a while to figure that stuff out after egg broke. 1
Akimikoisthecutest Posted January 16 Posted January 16 11 minutes ago, Theory said: Also I'm bored and I wanna talk to yall but ur not rlly online atm I'm temporarily online 1
Honors Spectral Image She/her Posted January 16 Posted January 16 Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said: I'm temporarily online WELCOMEEE
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 16 Posted January 16 (edited) 1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: I'm temporarily online Any advice? Edited January 16 by Theory
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 16 Posted January 16 Just now, Honors Ghost said: *disappears* Who, u? Why...
Akimikoisthecutest Posted January 16 Posted January 16 Just now, Theory said: Any advice? I've found the most important thing is just picking one label and sticking with it for about a week and seeing how you feel after. It feels much better just to have commited to a label. Remember that you can always change what you identify as. 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 16 Posted January 16 (edited) 3 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: I've found the most important thing is just picking one label and sticking with it for about a week and seeing how you feel after. It feels much better just to have commited to a label. Remember that you can always change what you identify as. Hmm, interesting. Never heard that before. How do I (temporarily) "commit"? What if I'm scared of commitment (lol) Even if it's temp Edited January 16 by Theory
Akimikoisthecutest Posted January 16 Posted January 16 1 minute ago, Theory said: Hmm, interesting. Never heard that before. How do I (temporarily) "commit"? Just for like a week, say you're trans to yourself, or call yourself a girl. Or even if you're willing come out to someone as trans do it! Remember it can always change ] 4
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 16 Posted January 16 2 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: Just for like a week, say you're trans to yourself, or call yourself a girl. Or even if you're willing come out to someone as trans do it! Remember it can always change ] Ok, maybe I'll try that. I've already, kinda, called myself a girl. I mean I set my pronouns here and stuff. Hmm. I needa think a bit. 2
Kansas Stormcursed he/him Posted January 17 Posted January 17 4 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: So uh, funny story. So today was our class birthday party for this semester. (It's the last day of our semester) We often have a giant buffet, and the birthday people get to go first. Then the best behaving students. So they called all the behaving boys to come get your stuff and I didn't get up, and just stayed absorbed in what I was doing (EGG_IRL), and my teacher cleared his throat and when I still didn't get up he came over and was like what the heck are you doing on your computer, and he saw it was EGG_IRL and said nothing else, he just walked away. Huh 1
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 34 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: Hmmm... One thing that you might wanna think about is relationships. I don't think you've stated your orientation, but in my experience, pre-egg, I was into girls, but post-egg, I became absolutely obsessed, so extremely gay it's incredible. Being a woman made me like women even more. Maybe think about how you would feel about relationships as a girl versus a guy. no like this exactly (although I kinda already knew) 26 minutes ago, Theory said: Hmm, interesting. Never heard that before. How do I (temporarily) "commit"? What if I'm scared of commitment (lol) Even if it's temp Try new things 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 (edited) 1 hour ago, Aeoryi said: Try new things I guess... (excuse my caps pls) BUT WHAT? Also...and I'm not quite sure how to put this feeling into words...but I guess feel like it should take months or longer to figure stuff out, so what can I do today (or, any day). Like what am I supposed to do. It'll probably take a while to figure stuff out, so...what's the point? Or what am I doing? How should I measure stuff. How do I know what's working and not. For example, my pronouns on the Shard. I don't really have positive or negative feelings about using she/her now. I stopped talking to myself in my head besides what I regularly do, so idk how I feel about being treated/referred to as a woman. Besides, it takes months anyway. And I really don't feel, at least right now, like having anyone IRL use a new name or pronouns. So how do I test that? Idk... And sometimes it's just weird. I guess I liked writing the Lily stories on my blog in the past two days (basically just wrote about a sometimes-depressed university student who "happens" to be named Lily). Should I try writing a male character now? I've done both recently, but not really since I began questioning. I pretty much just wrote a bunch of poems, many that were intentionally and possibly obscurely about being trans or questioning. I guess I feel like I'm not doing anything; not making any progress—static. Just sitting here waiting for a revelation I don't even expect to come. Waiting for The Moment or even slow realization. And I can find it very difficult to compare things. To illustrate what I mean, consider the following questions and those akin to them: Q: "Are you happy being a guy?" A: I don't know. *Overthinks it.* Q: "How would you feel if people saw you as and treated you like a woman?" A: I don't know. *Overthinks* Q: "How would you feel being a woman?" A: I don't know. I guess it would be cool. But I don't know if it would be better/worse than being a man! *Overthinks* Those are some examples. Edited January 17 by Theory pls respond 1
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 47 minutes ago, Theory said: BUT WHAT? Do you want me to give you some examples of things to try? 47 minutes ago, Theory said: what can I do today (or, any day). Try something new! 48 minutes ago, Theory said: So how do I test that? Idk... And sometimes it's just weird. The way I do it is I ask myself the question: "Do I think that this is more representative of me?" - the answer isn't always yes, either! Sometimes I don't know. So I'll do it again. 49 minutes ago, Theory said: Should I try writing a male character now? I've done both recently, but not really since I began questioning If you want to. I remember when I was writing Cryodesence vol 1 there was alternating male & female viewpoints- but I ended up scrapping the male viewpoint because the character felt farther away and less interesting. While I don't know if it was an indication of anything, it definitely reinforced what I already knew. 51 minutes ago, Theory said: guess I feel like I'm not doing anything; not making any progress—static. Just sitting here waiting for a revelation I don't even expect to come. Waiting for The Moment or even slow realization. You should try journaling 52 minutes ago, Theory said: And I can find it very difficult to compare things. To illustrate what I mean, consider the following questions and those akin to them: That's okay! But you'll never ever know if you never ever try.
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 2 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: Do you want me to give you some examples of things to try? Yes please. 3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: The way I do it is I ask myself the question: "Do I think that this is more representative of me?" - the answer isn't always yes, either! Sometimes I don't know. So I'll do it again. Hmm. I'll have to think on that I guess. 4 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: I ended up scrapping the male viewpoint because the character felt farther away and less interesting. When I think of either writing a male viewpoint or reading a book with one, my immediate thought is: Boring. Dull. Bland. Yuck. Eww. Plain. Male. When I think of the same but with a female viewpoint: Interesting. Cool. Want-to-read. Want-to-see-what-female-people-think? Or want-to-see-what-a-female-perspective-is-like? 6 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: You should try journaling Ughhhhh... I've done a little bit of journaling in the past week or whatever, but it hasn't gone anywhere I don't think. I think it might actually be more helpful when I've been "ranting" or saying my thoughts here. 7 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: That's okay! But you'll never ever know if you never ever try. Try what? The thing I'm trying to compare? Thanks for giving your input...I appreciate it... 1
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 36 minutes ago, Theory said: Yes please Paint your nails. Shave your leg hair. Wear feminine clothing. Use a feminine name. Voice train. 37 minutes ago, Theory said: Ughhhhh... I've done a little bit of journaling in the past week or whatever, but it hasn't gone anywhere I don't think. I think it might actually be more helpful when I've been "ranting" or saying my thoughts here. Whatever you do it doesn't matter I try to do a full page per day and it kicks off after a bit once you've done a bit already. Make it a habit 38 minutes ago, Theory said: Try what? The thing I'm trying to compare? Try new things!
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 8 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: Shave your leg hair. i kind of want to.........
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 1 minute ago, Theory said: i kind of want to......... Then you should!
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 (edited) 3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: Then you should! yeah, I'll probably do it soon. like maybe tomorrow idk. sounds intriguing....imagine having smooth skin... it seems like one of the easier things to start with, no? since it's not outwardly obvious Edited January 17 by Theory
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 1 minute ago, Theory said: yeah, I'll probably do it soon. like maybe tomorrow idk. sounds intriguing....imagine having smooth skin... it seems like one of the easier things to start with, no? since it's not outwardly obvious It's pretty easy (for me it was difficult) painting your nails isn't that hard to do either and can be fun if you enjoy artsies
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 (edited) 1 minute ago, Aeoryi said: It's pretty easy (for me it was difficult) painting your nails isn't that hard to do either and can be fun if you enjoy artsies Why was it hard? Or do you not care to get into it? But...people will see the nails... Edited January 17 by Theory
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 17 Posted January 17 Just now, Theory said: Why was it hard? Or do you not care to get into it? But...people will see the nails... It was difficult cause I play soccer - the one sport where people look at your legs. As for the nails, you can use a nail polish remover (I use an acetone based one) to remove it very easily, so no one will know. It's a secret Here's like, a picture of the third time I did my nails. They actually look so good in this picture tbh I need to do them again. They took about 20 minutes to get off. Spoiler
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 17 Posted January 17 (edited) 7 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: It was difficult cause I play soccer - the one sport where people look at your legs. As for the nails, you can use a nail polish remover (I use an acetone based one) to remove it very easily, so no one will know. It's a secret Here's like, a picture of the third time I did my nails. They actually look so good in this picture tbh I need to do them again. They took about 20 minutes to get off. Reveal hidden contents Idk...thx for the tip tho. It'd be kinda hard for me. Also nice nails... edit (one amongst several): i literally pictured what my nails would look like painted when i saw urs well, ill probably shave my legs soon, so ill see how that feels. edit: 6000th reply!! Edited January 17 by Theory
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