Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Silverblade5]

Between 7:00 and 8:00 pm, using a combination of pleading, yelling, and threatening, my family got my stepdad into a car so that he could be driven to the hospital (he had issues and was being a stubborn chull). At 2:00, my mom returns, and I find out he's been admitted. At this point, I have a lot of adrenaline cycling through my body, and I know I'm not getting any sleep. So I do an all nighter instead. It is now 5:00 am, school starts in 2.5 hours, and I have a test first thing. Yay. 

[Briar King]

Blah. At the dentist for cleaning and to consult about recent month long discomfort with my top gum line.

[Orlion Blight]

Whelp, gotta drive out into this snow. If I don't check back in, avenge my death! 

[Mestiv]

3 hours ago, TheOrlionThatComesBefore said:

Whelp, gotta drive out into this snow. If I don't check back in, avenge my death! 

I will punch the snow so hard it'll turn into solid ice!

[Orlion Blight]

Welp, I survived and got a great year end performance review! 

Still bad news because it has been two days since I've played Monster Hunter World.

[Silverblade5]

It's hard knowing you're one of the weakest links in a team. 

 It's hard knowing only one person visibly screws up more often than you. 

It's hard knowing any attempted corrections have failed to take affect. 

It's hard, figuring out you've been making the same storming mistakes for months in a row, or years in some cases. 

[AngelEy3]

35 minutes ago, Silverblade5 said:

It's hard knowing you're one of the weakest links in a team. 

 It's hard knowing only one person visibly screws up more often than you. 

It's hard knowing any attempted corrections have failed to take affect. 

It's hard, figuring out you've been making the same storming mistakes for months in a row, or years in some cases. 

It's at least admirable that you recognize the fact that you are (potentially) the weak link. It shows a decent level of self awareness, imo. 

My issue is the opposite of yours, and your awareness gives me hope that maybe these people I work with are also aware. 

I constantly have to pick up the slack of things left undone by the shift before mine. I can't let it go or it will reflect poorly on me, and I can't complain about it or it will also reflect poorly on me. So I'm stuck. 

I partially blame myself for the situation I'm in. I could have been anything but didn't have any motivation to do so. So now I'm stuck with coworkers who can't understand that not cleaning up a mess while it's still wet makes it harder for the guy who has to do it when it's dry. Don't even get me started on the snow shoveling.... I drew the line on that one only to get swatted down by my boss. I stopped shoveling any snow that quit falling before I got to work. If it didn't snow while I was here, it shouldn't be my problem. Instead, my coworkers allow it to be walked on and frozen down so I get to spend an hour scraping it up during a subzero northern Minnesota night instead of them doing it in 5 minutes while it's above zero and daylight. 

End of rant. 

TL;DR: Don't be a chull and make things harder for the next guy. 

Edited February 12, 2018 by AngelEy3

[A Budgie]

43 minutes ago, Silverblade5 said:

It's hard knowing you're one of the weakest links in a team. 

 It's hard knowing only one person visibly screws up more often than you. 

It's hard knowing any attempted corrections have failed to take affect. 

It's hard, figuring out you've been making the same storming mistakes for months in a row, or years in some cases. 

*hug*
It certainly is hard, but I agree with the above comment- if you can recognize these things, then you're already doing better than a lot of people. 

[Fifth of Daybreak]

@Steeldancer Do your best and keep chugging through. Even if your first plan doesn't work out, there's always time to readjust course and figure out a new future for yourself. Trust me on that one, I'm doing that exact thing right now. Stupid school policies will get in your way. Trust yourself, keep moving forward, focus on working to improve yourself first, and for your grades second. You get out of school what you out into it. If the administration isn't backing you up, the best thing you can do is make sure that your focus is in yourself first and getting the most benefit you can. To clarify, I'm not saying disregard classes or lessons to focus on what you like, but to make sure that your focus is always on personal improvement and working on building the skills that will help you in the future. Focus on the journey and everything will fall into place eventually. I believe in you. 

@SilverTiger That's rough. It sounds like you are already taking a large step towards addressing the problem just by being cognizant of it though. I'm not sure I can offer you any concrete advice, but you've got my moral support. Do your best to identify the situations the push you to the edge and try to limit your exposure to them if you can. I know that can be impossible in situations where you don't have any control over where you are like school. If you can identify when you are starting to get angry, is it possible to tell someone in a position of authority that it is becoming an issue and you need to remove yourself from the situation to calm down? Not everyone will respect that, but reasonable people will understand that you're taking the responsible approach and allow you to take the steps you need in order to keep control of the situation. I know this might not be a feasible solution, and that you might not be looking for solutions in general, but I figured anything might help at this point, so feel free to take what I'm saying with a grain of salt if needs be. It sounds like you at least know your body and emotions well, even if you are still struggling to find balance. It took me years upon years to get my depression managed. 

 

*Hugs for you both* 

 

I wanted to give everyone an update on my situation. My last shift was over a week ago, and it's incredible how much better I feel about myself and life in general. I've got some great job prospects on the horizon, and I've been putting some serious work back into my creative projects. I'm hoping within the next month to drop the first episode of the Lost Legends of Scadrial Mistborn Adventure Game Podcast. To everyone struggling right now. It will get better. Lean on your friends, family, loved ones, fellow sharders, whatever you need to do to get through it, but keep moving forward. I can't tell you how much I appreciate the space I was given to release the emotions I've felt. Everyone on this site has been such a blessing in my life, I hope I can be the same for all of you if you need it. My inbox is always open if you need to talk with someone one on one. 

*Hugs everyone at once who wants a group hug*

[Kaymyth]

Today has just been hell on earth for acid reflux. It feels like my medication just evaporated out of my body for some mysterious reason, despite the fact I haven't missed a dose in weeks. Ugh.

[A Budgie]

6 hours ago, Kaymyth said:

Today has just been hell on earth for acid reflux. It feels like my medication just evaporated out of my body for some mysterious reason, despite the fact I haven't missed a dose in weeks. Ugh.

*hug* That does sound like a pain. I hope you're feeling better soon!

@Fifth of Daybreak glad to hear that things are looking up!

[Steeldancer]

GAAAH I probably just failed another calculus exam, I don't have my phone so I can't finish registering to vote (because it has my driver's license on the back) and I have a thousand things going on AND I JUST WANT FEBRUARY BREAK ALREADY

[Kaymyth]

12 hours ago, A Budgie said:

*hug* That does sound like a pain. I hope you're feeling better soon!

Much better today. And I picked up some antacid tablets to keep both at work and at home so I don't have to just sit and suffer if it happens again.

[A Budgie]

15 hours ago, Steeldancer said:

GAAAH I probably just failed another calculus exam, I don't have my phone so I can't finish registering to vote (because it has my driver's license on the back) and I have a thousand things going on AND I JUST WANT FEBRUARY BREAK ALREADY

*hug* That sounds bad. I hope break comes soon.

@Kaymyth sounds great!

[AngelEy3]

15 hours ago, Steeldancer said:

GAAAH I probably just failed another calculus exam, I don't have my phone so I can't finish registering to vote (because it has my driver's license on the back) and I have a thousand things going on AND I JUST WANT FEBRUARY BREAK ALREADY

At least there is a fair amount of time before you actually need that voter registration. NY primaries aren't until June unless you are looking at a more local level. 

Fun fact; Nobody I've ever voted for has won an election of any type, all the way back to high school student council. So.... Lol, this chull we're in right now? Not my fault in the slightest. Only thing casting a vote has ever won me is the privilege of losing income to attend jury duty, and the knowledge that it's not my fault. 

Edited February 14, 2018 by AngelEy3

[Claincy]

Anyone up for a digital hug? Could do with one today.

[A Budgie]

1 hour ago, Claincy said:

Anyone up for a digital hug? Could do with one today.

*hug* You okay?

[Arrae]

1 hour ago, Claincy said:

Anyone up for a digital hug? Could do with one today.

All the hugs for Claincy! Not sure what you're going through, but I hope it helps.

[Claincy]

1 hour ago, A Budgie said:

*hug* You okay?

 

1 hour ago, Arraenae said:

All the hugs for Claincy! Not sure what you're going through, but I hope it helps.

*hugs back* thanks

Primarily chronic pain. It's reasonably severe in general but today it's particularly unpleasant.

More details in spoiler if you really want to know. "Ow" is a pretty reasonable summary though

Spoiler

At this point we are reasonably certain that I have some form of chronic fatigue syndrome or fibromyalgia. That appears to be stacking on top of chronic sinus issues and potentially something else as well, it's hard to tell.

Whatever the causes may be the most substantial effect is that I have a single severe headache that's been going on for over 4 and a half years. It has varied somewhat in severity during that time, though it's never gone away entirely. It went from being not *too* bad to really not great midwayish through 2016. Then got significantly worse around March 2017....then got significantly worse around August 2017...then got worse around November 2017...and it's largely stayed around the same since then. So for the past couple of months especially it's been really particularly painful (moreso than at any other time in the past few years I think).

In addition to that:
-fatigue
-post-exertion malaise/just malaise in general
-pain in neck, shoulder, arms, wrists, legs, ankles etc at very light provocation or with no apparent cause. (Though not nearly as severe as the headache.)
-difficult to remain standing for any extended length of time

Add a little bit of sensitivity to sensory overload and that when I'm struggling to keep control of the pain most sounds or other sensory input registers as pain  It all makes for a fun time.

The net effect is a very difficult time accomplishing anything.

I'm still actively seeking things that will help but so far nothing has made a noticeable impact. And no pain killers I've had so far have had any noticeable impact on the headache.

With all that said I'm mostly managing "ok" mentally. I'm not having a problem with depression or anything at the moment and I feel blessed in numerous ways, including in the people I know/interact with online and in person, the work I have/had, etc.

[Herowannabe]

6 hours ago, Claincy said:

Anyone up for a digital hug? Could do with one today.

*Digital bro hug*

Hang in there buddy. You’ve got this!

[Steeldancer]

I am SO DONE with my parents restrictions on how I use my internet. SO DONE. 
So my mom took my phone a week ago, because I didn't leave it downstairs during the night. That leaves me with only a laptop, and I haven't figured out how to get a VPN to work on my laptop yet. 
To my horror, today they blocked youtube, and somehow have a time restriction on Steam (what the actual heck? I only got Steam YESTERDAY!) Thankfully, the shard isn't blocked, but now I can't watch any of my videos, and without my phone and the VPN I have on that, I can't get around the stupid two hour limit. I also don't know how easy it will be to get my phone back. 
Look, I understand the policy of filtering in my house. I don't care about that. It's just meant to protect us from bad things like pornography and stuff, and I totally support them filtering that.
But limiting literally everything that I do on my devices? I cannot express how sick I am of it. And I can't do anything about it, they aren't going to listen to me and go "Oh, you're right, let's just let you have unlimited time." Oh, I am SO DONE. I cannot WAIT to go to college, just to have unlimited internet!!!!! 
I'm sick of them constantly getting uptight about how we use our time. So what that we aren't always productive? I DON'T WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE ALL THE TIME. I am demanding that they remove all restrictions as SOON as I turn 18. I will determine my own usages, thank you very much. On top of that, have they never thought about the backlash it causes? The fact that I am probably to going to crazy watching all sorts of stuff and doing really long marathons and trying out games I never could before because my parents are like "nah, go do something productive. Come spend time with us." No thank you. There is so much to do and explore on the internet, so much to learn, and all they can do is keep their heads in the ground, trying to keep the times from moving forward. GAH.

[A Budgie]

@Steeldancer *hugs* That does sound awful.

[Draginon]

I'm getting sick of Onstar's service. A couple years ago I had needed to get them to activate the wifi just for the month since I was going to a conference and had some coworkers traveling with me and they would need it for when using their laptops since their phones weren't linked to their work emails. I got the bill that month but when I got the next months bill they had charged me for another months use of wifi. I disputed and thought everything was fine until the next month where they charged me again! It was such a hassle to get them to stop charging my card it was ridiculous.

Now the problem is with my moms car. They keep shutting her service off and they keep saying she needs to renew, which she had already done before they started shutting it off back in November. Every time she calls to ask why they shut her service off they always ask if she's calling about my car, or sometimes about my old car that got totaled by a rogue transmission in the road at least 4 years back, and it's getting annoying by this point on that part. Every single time she calls they reroute her to someone else multiple times so she has to go through the spiel over and over. Tonight we've spent two hours trying to deal with them, getting through a dispute with the bank and getting them to reimburse my moms account for the money they keep taking to 'activate' her service.

If they give us another big headache I would so give them the heave ho and do without their services.

[thegatorgirl00]

I just found out that the girl who sits next to me in English had a cousin who died in the recent shooting. It's scary and sad just how close to home this whole thing is. Our school's former band instructor who left three years ago teaches there. Why can't people just be decent human beings and not shoot each other? Why is that so storming difficult? 

[Steeldancer]

So on the internet restriction thing- the SE server led me to do a final attempt in getting rid of Circle without like smashing it. I instead did research on how the restrictions are detrimental to my family's internet and security. I wrote a 5 page essay on why I want the restrictions gone, and tried to make a compromise. If this doesn't work in convincing my parents, I really will have done all that I could do. At that point, I'm probably going to pursue getting rid of the restrictions in a more active way. My parents haven't read it yet, I don't think, so I'm still hopeful that they will listen to me. 

Hopefully.