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  2. The Game and its losers.

    in Forum Games & Random Stuff

  3. Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

    in General Discussion

    Posted

    I 

    I thoughts things were getting better. And they were. Things were going so so good. 

    And then it all started going so bad, so fast. 

    Living in this house, with this family i...I've been fighting my whole life. Surviving my whole life. It was the one thing I was proud of in myself. That I survived.

    But I had the biggest panic attack I've ever had tonight and I feel a little like I've been pushed past my breaking point.

    And i have finals coming up in a little less than a month and I am so so behind. 

    Even if I didn't know where I was going or what I was doing, I've always got up. Always headed on. Always kept going.

    These days I dont want to even get out bed. 

    My heart literally hurts. 

    I've never, ever felt safe in this house. Not once in all my 17 years.

    Right now all that is keeping me going is the dream of my own house. No matter how small or dingy. Just somewhere i can feel safe. And not so lonely. 

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  6. Ask me anything!

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    On 2/12/2024 at 4:15 AM, Just-A-Stick said:

    favorite breakfast food???

    definitely eggs with orange juice 

    and i like all kinds of eggs except the one with a runny yolk

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  8. Ask me anything!

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    On 7/25/2023 at 11:45 AM, Silver Phantom said:

    If your skin change colors to one of the primary colors which would you want

    half a year late but red

    On 12/25/2023 at 11:53 AM, Edema Rue said:

    Hi so um um I know you're occupied with life and are really just lurking right now

    But if I want to giggle about The Poppy War with someone will you come giggle with me?

    one month late but sure! if you still want to

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  10. Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

    in General Discussion

    Posted · Edited by Cruciatus_heart

    So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

    And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

    It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

    Always. 

    I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

    I'm just...there. i just exist. 

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  11. Ask me anything!

    in AMAs

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    On 19/07/2023 at 8:52 PM, Robin Sedai said:

    What music have you been enjoying lately?

    Lana del rey, Penelope Scott, Lorde (our queen and saviour), Arctic Monkeys, Mother Mother 

    On 19/07/2023 at 9:58 PM, Stormform said:

    On a scale of 1 to 17 how awesome is dnd?

    Which of wayne's jokes are the best?

    I've never played DnD 

    All of them, duh :P

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  12. The cheeseman's book thread.

    in Entertainment Discussion

    Posted · Edited by Cruciatus_heart

    6 hours ago, Edema Ruh said:

    What do you define as triggering? Like, I don’t mind violence or gore or anything like that, but I don’t appreciate adult romance scenes (like some of the ones towards the end of WoT or like A Wise Man’s Fear).

     

    Spoiler

    incest! One of the very first scenes! Watched by a child! You know that i myself dont really mind things if an explicit nature but this bordered on the line of bit too much for me.

    Also I'm not saying that it is a bad book but i found it (personally) bland and with tiresome characters

    I gave up on it halfway through 

    And obviously there's strong female characters and whatnot like that braid lady but the objectification and misuse of women in general just left a bad taste in my mouth. I get that its true to the times its trying to portray but i honestly couldn't handle it.

    So here you have two very different opinions so i think maybe it might be worthwhile to search up the trigger warnings 

    I would say its definitely grittier than the Kingkiller chronicles with way more triggering stuff. And honestly its kinda depressing at times. And for me it wasn't in a way that makes you think differently about the world around you or the things some people go through but depressing just for the sake of it. 

    Then again Cheesman obviously seems to enjoy it a lot and its all definitely subjective. Its not a bad book, probably, its just not for me.

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  16. What Are You Listening To Now?

    in Entertainment Discussion

    Posted · Edited by Cruciatus_heart

    11 minutes ago, Slowswift said:

    yesssss

    Bookstores sometimes carry them; thrift stores too. There's still a few music stores hanging on. I've gotten most of mine online, though.

    Ooooh then ill definitely check that out

    Having an add in Spotify nearly every 2 songs in annoying as hell and i dont want to pay for premium and support the capitalism 

    I kinda wished I could have DVDs too. Like i really want to watch Heathers and rewatch Cruel Intentions but its not available anywhere and having the DVD would make it so much better. and like they removed my favourite movie from Prime and now I CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE

    Thats a big tangent though 

    Tl;dr: i feel the old world culture was tons better than what we have now. Maybe it wasn't easier but when has something good ever been easy? Having a tangible proof of the movie, music in your hand; going to a library to research instead of hunched in a poorly lit room over a laptop on which you're gonna procrastinate anyway...i mean it just seems way better

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  17. What Are You Listening To Now?

    in Entertainment Discussion

    Posted

    5 minutes ago, Slowswift said:

    Still do, and I still use them. :D 

    Yeahh 

    Where do you buy CDs actually? 

    Like where would i go if i wanted to purchase a CD? 

    Also, slight tangent, but i kinda really want a vinyl player and vinyls of all.my favourite albums man. I think the true aesthetic culture died when digital was introduced 

    I mean imagine putting a vinyl on and curling up on the couch with a good book and a steaming cup of tea 

    The vibe would be unmatched 

     

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  20. Ask ANYONE anything

    in Forum Games & Random Stuff

    Posted

    I know the attached question wasn't targeted at me but I was just trying to continue the game. 

    Also, I thank you for making a mature apology; i myself apologise for the comment I made. 

    I get that you had a bad day, it just wasn't very nice for me either to wake up and have that be the first thing I see. But anyway, what's done is done and let bygones be bygones, 

    I wish you well. 

    (continuing the game: i drink water a lot, more so than anything else. Have you ever read 7 books in 7 days?)

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  21. Ask ANYONE anything

    in Forum Games & Random Stuff

    Posted · Edited by Cruciatus_heart

    1 hour ago, Exotwo said:

    You have to ask a question buddy. Read the rules before you respond to every single storming topic.

    Have you ever felt like depression?

    Aww did someone get a little worked up over a random thing that doesn't matter? 

    And yes, i have chronic depression 

    Do you ever wonder why people can't be a little nicer?

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  22. Ask ANYONE anything

    in Forum Games & Random Stuff

    Posted

    11 minutes ago, The cheeseman said:

    A little. Linkin Park and Two Steps From Hell take up most of my listening time though.

    On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate Henry Cavill's portrayal of Geralt in The Witcher?

    25 

    By that, of course, i mean  250000000000000000000000 

    No you know what 

    It actually and truly breaks any and all numerical scales

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