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Elf last won the day on March 31 2023

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  • Birthday 11/30/2006

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    "Ruin me, ruin us, and I'll let you."- The Burning God- R.F. Kuang
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    And isn't death just the apocalypse in the first person?
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  1. I I thoughts things were getting better. And they were. Things were going so so good. And then it all started going so bad, so fast. Living in this house, with this family i...I've been fighting my whole life. Surviving my whole life. It was the one thing I was proud of in myself. That I survived. But I had the biggest panic attack I've ever had tonight and I feel a little like I've been pushed past my breaking point. And i have finals coming up in a little less than a month and I am so so behind. Even if I didn't know where I was going or what I was doing, I've always got up. Always headed on. Always kept going. These days I dont want to even get out bed. My heart literally hurts. I've never, ever felt safe in this house. Not once in all my 17 years. Right now all that is keeping me going is the dream of my own house. No matter how small or dingy. Just somewhere i can feel safe. And not so lonely.
  2. So...I'm applying to the New York Film Academy next year. As part of the admission requirements, I've got to make a 10 minute short film as part of my portfolio. After I finish the script, will any of you be willing to review it? I trust you guys to give me constructive criticism on pacing, structure, and whether it would be feasible to shoot for a bunch of students or not. 

    Thanks :D

  3. Dude...If the birthday in your bio is real, we were born on the same day?? November 30th?
  4. I will be leaving this group in november of this year Absolutely no clue how to feel about that
  5. Elf

    Ask me anything!

    definitely eggs with orange juice and i like all kinds of eggs except the one with a runny yolk
  6. Elf

    Ask me anything!

    yess one of the only books ive cried over
  7. Hi guys! 

    Seems i only communicate through status updates now. 

    If I may update- I am really really happy with my life right now and the person I am becoming. I have good irl friends who i am very grateful for, 

    I've been eating healthy and regularly and i even joined a gym! I have also been getting 8-9 hours of sleep per night. I've been journaling as regularly as I can and reading upwards of 1 or 2 books a week and watching an average of 2 movies a week. Which is great because it means I dont spend my energy in negative stuff anymore. I mean its hard but im trying and i seem to be mostly succeeding.

    Plus, my grades are...you know what they are average and that is perfectly fine because they are still better than what they used to be and i can see the fruits of my efforts. 

    I feel very happy. Because I'm learning and growing everyday. I'm learning how to deal with the bad times in a healthy way and to be kind to myself. I have a better relationship with myself and my parents. 

    I am proud of myself and the direction my life is going in and I just know I couldnt have done it without you guys. 

    Much love to all of you 💞 

    1. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      I'm glad things are doing great, Elf! All of that isa awesome! What books have you been reading lately?

    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      HI ELF!!!

      That’s wonderful. Ooo yes what books?

    3. Elf

      Elf

      So recently I've read these books 

      Convenience Store Woman 

      The Complete Horror Stories of Ray Russel (fabulous, ten out of ten reccomend) 

      Frankenstein

      The Trees Grew Because I Bled There 

      And now I'm reading Animal Farm and next up is The Phantom of the Opera

  8. Elf

    Ask me anything!

    half a year late but red one month late but sure! if you still want to
  9. It's 30C 

    I am wearing two sweaters 

    I am still freezing

    1. The Storming Stormfather

      The Storming Stormfather

      Bruh it only gets that warm here for like three weeks a year. This planet is awesome

  10. New Year's Resolutions 

    • Cut out all the drama and toxicity 
    • Focus on yourself 
    • Focus on grades, on health, and on being a better friend overall 
    • Focus more on your hobbies and develop them further 
    • Read a 100 books 
    • Watch 150 movies 
    • Watch 20 shows 
    • Less useless screen time (such as Pinterest, Instagram, etc)

    An ode to my younger self

    Yes, you've made a lot of mistakes. Yes, there are instances where you wish you had done better, people you should have known to stay away from. But its okay. Its part of the very human condition to make mistakes and you did great for a 17 year old. You did good. 

    I'm not going to say that you couldn't have done better, because you could have. But that's how you live and that is how you learn. 

    I choose to be kind to you. Because inspite of all the bad stuff that happened last year, there was so much good. Because you broke out of your shell, because you made actually good friends, because every time you fell, you always got up again. 

    And I'm proud of us. 

     

    Here's to a great 2024, everyone!

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      ❤️

      Thank you for sharing that, it’s such a beautiful way to look at life.

      Good luck with your resolutions!!

  11. You changed your username back? :o :o :o

    1. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Oh, dang, I just realized that- wow

    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ooh me too!

    3. Elf

      Elf

      :)) yup. everybody called me by Elf anyways. besides it feels comfortable and familiar

  12. Happy new year!!

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    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Happy new year Elf!! I hope it's a good one!!

    3. The Paradoxical Phenomenon
    4. Slowswift

      Slowswift

      Happy New Year!

  13. hello! so ive been really getting into the whole gothic literature/television lately. And i mean gothic as in Edgar Allen Poe, Ray Russell, Haunting of Bly Manor, etc. Problem is I cant really find any gothic shows or movies. I would love some reccs
  14. Merry Christmas folks!!

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    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Merry Christmas Elf!! Love you!!

    3. The Bookwyrm

      The Bookwyrm

      Merry Christmas! Good to see you!

    4. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Merry Christmas, elf! I hope you're doing well!

  15. Omg!!! Happy birthday!! Wishes of luck to you :D.

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