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Is it the look of a fire that you remember? Or the burning it leaves on your skin?
Do you remember the orange flames reaching towards you, or the kisses left behind by the heat?
The rain drizzles down onto the gray pavement and all I think of is your smile.
I think, I think, i think.
That was always the problem, wasn't it?
I thought too much and you never thought enough.
You wove yourself into the very fabric of my being, into the humanity in this husk we call a body.
And now I can't look at the stars without thinking of what might have been.
You had your demons, alright.
But you always shied away from mine
Did they scare you? Can you imagine how they scared me?
Love was supposed to be the absolution, the salvation.
Love was supposed to be a cup of tea on a winter day; a warm bed on a rainy day; wine on a moonlit night.
Love was supposed to be so much more than this.
And yet.
Downy snow falls around me and it feels like your touch.
I run my thumb through a lighter and your laughter echoes like a church bell.
Because you were a fire, strong and burning
How I wished we could have burned together
But now my soul scatters away like the ash of an unwanted thing.
Unwanted, undesirable
Loved, craved,
With you, I was all of these.
I changed myself, bones cracking and heart shattering so you could form me as you wished.
Weren't you supposed to accept me? Wasn't i supposed to be much more than clay?
Did you love me for me, or for what you could make me?
I don't think I'll ever know.
I can only blame you as much as I can blame myself.
Fire eats everything in the end, the buildings, the people, the life
It will eat the earth itself and the birds will wander aimless on a barren wasteland.
Because it takes its beauty from destroying
And it's only lovely as long as you're not the one it's ruining
We were never meant to be.
We weren't "right person, wrong time" because for the right person there's never a wrong time.
We were simply young and dumb, drunk on life and each other.
I can't hate you, and I hope you don't hate me either.
This chapter ends, now.
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MY FINALS ARE OVERR
I HAVE TWO MONTHS NOW
TWO MONTHS TO READ AND LISTEN TO THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES (and others, cause let's be honest I'll finish magnus archives within the week) TO WATCH MOVIES AND INDULGE IN MY HOBBIES
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Finished season 3 of The Magnus Archives
This show is SO GOOD (says I about a show that constantly pulls at all the heartstrings )
I especially loved the Gerry Keay episode, I'm going as him to comic con!!!
I have finals and it's itching at me that I have to study before listening more
cri
(Itching huh? Maybe I should be wary of The Corruption?)
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ISNT IT AMAZING?! And season 4 and season 5 are where it really, like, comes alive (at least for me it did).
Don’t get corrupted! It’ll make Jon sad!
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I'm so excited!
I'll try not to, jon goes through so much already I don't wanna contribute to the sadness of this wet cat of a man
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Oh my chasms that’s-that’s the best description of Jon I’ve ever heard-poor little wet cat of a man.
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Elffff I started Malevolent, and I’m not far at all but I already love it and you’re right I ship them so hard.
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Whooohoo!! Welcome to the malevolent family
I mainly listened to it in the gym and to and fro on my one hour (one hour there and one hour back ) commute to college (well, 11th grade, but it's known as junior college here) made both those endeavours way more fun
You have to let me know when you reach the episode with Kayne.
No spoilers but please I need to know your reaction to him lol
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Okayy another TMA one
SpoilerBefore i truly got into it, i thought it was like a found family thing? Like that's what most of the fandom presents it as
But these people genuinely like hate each other?? Except for jon and martin??
I was just waiting for the reconciliations and apologies and all and i realise that's probably not happening??
No hate though, love the realism.
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That smile scares me
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It should, it’s a web sort of smile
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OH MY GOD MAG.80?????
AHAHAHSJAHAHA
And now listening to Jon's past is Mag.81- a guest for mr spider is pulling at all the heart strings
I'm getting quickly obsessed with this podcast and might frequent the Shard more just to be able talk to others who've been caught in this web
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Okay, first of all I was doing not so hot for a while there but things are admittedly better now. I'm able to cope
But guess who was finally able to get into audio dramas! I listened to I am In Eskew, Malevolent
And now I'm on episode 64 of....you guessed it!
The Magnus Archives
Took a little long to get here, but im here!
Jonathan Sims my beloved (the character, obviously)
And also, the thing that calls itself Micheal. Why do I love this absolutely unhinged creature again?
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Ooh, are I am In Eskew and Malevolent good? I need something to listen to since the Magnus protocol is on hiatus until April 11th…
ALSO YES MICHEAL IS WONDERFUL!!!!
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Oh they are very good! I didn't think I'd ever be the type of person to listen to audio dramas but these two certainly hooked me
Fair warning for I Am in Eskew, it is pretty depressing and doesn't really have any happy resolution. It's a story that explores grief, alienation, mental illness, hostile architecture and so on
And it is absolutely more terrifying than the The Magnus Archives and Malevolent and there's very few happy moments.
But if you're looking for something new to listen to, I would suggest Malevolent a HUNDRED TIMES OVER!!!
It's set in Lovecraft's Cthulu Mythos, without the racism and misogyny.
It's about a 1930's private detective who wakes up blind, with an entity in his head and his partner dead next to him. He must unravel the circumstances surrounding what happened to him and look for a way to seperate him and the entity in his head.
No spoilers, but you will ship him with the entity.
And there's a character who's surprisingly like Micheal and always covered in blood.
Please listen to it, you will not regret. At least I hope not
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Oooo ok!! I will!!
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So...I'm applying to the New York Film Academy next year. As part of the admission requirements, I've got to make a 10 minute short film as part of my portfolio. After I finish the script, will any of you be willing to review it? I trust you guys to give me constructive criticism on pacing, structure, and whether it would be feasible to shoot for a bunch of students or not.
Thanks