Ed Venture

Well. I think that if I feel like I’m a different person since the last time I was on here consistently I should probably change my username to reflect that. So yeah! I wanted to change it to something to that had an aspect of my old name but something that included the new me as well. What do y’all think?

hmmm now the only question is how do I actually get back into the community. How did I even get into it the first time?

So...

Do y'all remember this hot piece of garbage?

It's pretty bad. The proportions are off, the coloring is terrible, the... well, everything is just bad.

But that's okay. Time is the best teacher, and looking back at old mistakes is pretty important.

Reprimanding yourself is how you grow. It's how you learn.

I'm stalling. This is all just stalling.

What I'm trying to say is that I've improved:

Happy birthday Ark!

I drew a picture, I call it My Thoughts, because every layer/color tells a different story of something I have to worry about. It's been a couple weeks or so since I made this, and every day now I have another few layers I need to add on to it, but I think there are enough to get the point across.

These days, I'm becoming everything that I hate.

People are hard. Life is hard. I'm trudging through it. So much is going on and I have no clue what I'm doing, or what I'm going to do. I hate it.

Thanks for reading my late-knight ramblings, whoever you are.

I will now proceed to curl up and my body will undergo the complex secretomotor phenomenon characterized by the shedding of tears (higher in chemical composition with prolactin, adrenocorticotropic hormone, Leu-enkephalin, potassium, and manganese) from the lacrimal apparatus until enough endorphins (oxytocin and endogenous opioids) are released to "numb" me and to dull the emotional pain enough for me to go to sleep.

Things I am:

• In a scud ton of pain
• Generally suffering
• Having anxiety attacks

Things I am not:

• Caoable of swallowing
• With my friends
• Okay

Hey, you. 

Yeah, you: The one that clicked on the notification and is reading this, or somehow found your way to my profile.

I just wanted to let you know that you are doing great. I know life is rough. I know how stress is weighing down on you, and things in life are not helping that, but the fact that you're still here––pressing on, even if it's a little bit at a time––is saying a lot.

You are never, ever alone. It might feel like it right now, but I'm here for you. You might not know me well or at all, but I will always be here to listen. I just don't want you to feel alone. I know that it can seem like you are, especially when you're surrounded by people, but there are people who will always be by your side.

It's okay to feel emotions. It's okay to cry. We all have those times when we're most vulnerable, and you don't have to go through it alone. The people who love you are not going to watch you suffer alone; all you have to do is ask, and they will be there to help.

I love you, okay? I'm not just saying that. I really do. I know it feels like no one loves you, but trust me when I say that I do. Now, go out. Be you. Laugh when you're happy. Listen when people need to talk to you. Let yourself cry when it's hard, but do not let yourself remain in that state forever. I know it's hard to get yourself out of that, but there are people who care about you and will help you.

Stay strong~ <3

Happy birthday!

Happy birthday!

I need book recommendations that I can get ahold of. I am willing to pay in gratitude. 

I was talking with an old friend of mine from way back when, just catching up and all that jazz. We were on the topic of writing and character development and how we’re doing in terms of writing and what plans we have, etc. Then, I said this like almost out of the blue:

“You can’t know what happiness is until you’ve lived in the deepest pits of despair.”

It literally came out of nowhere and I had to take a step back and actually think about what I’d just said.

Huh, it’s Valentines again. Glad I ain’t in a relationship right now and have that to worry about. Hope that the people who celebrate it have a good day, and even if you don’t, I hope you have a fantastic day as well~

Yeah, I’ll probably draw something Valentine related when I’m procrastinating.

I am sick

Very sick

I am not going to school today

I have 3 end of unit tests

aaaaaaa

Last night, I wanted to get some schoolwork done so I wouldn’t have that much to do today. At around 8:30pm, I was literally at my workspace and I was dozing off. About an hour later at around 9:30pm, I wake up, wanting to just take a few moments to rest before doing schoolwork, so I cleaned up my workspace and went to rest in my bed for a few minutes.

Yeah, so a few minutes turned into about nine hours.

mmmm hello friends. I keep coming back here and feeling nostalgic.

I feel like I've changed so much since I was last on here so making posts in the grander part of this site feels like posting for the first time again and so now I'm nervous to do it. Po when she was posting on this regularly hasn't gone by Po/potency in what feels like forever and she's a very different woman now so yeah. I want to join this again I just need to build up the courage to actually do it.

So. You know how you can just get....really bored. But you have something you're meant to be doing? So you're procrastinating I guess. But at the same time you're in a really productive state. Just not working on what's meant to be worked on. You do? Good. Okay

I'm meant to be doing work, and then, bam, it's time for me to find out as much about the 17th shard website as I can. 

Maybe I'll make it a challenge for you...yeah? Yeah! Okay. Here's the things you need to find. 

A guest account with messages.

The status update with the most replies.

A calendar update with upvotes.

The image comment with the most upvotes.

(I don't know if this one is possible, I spent a good hour on it. (I kinda want a mod to answer it for me.)) Someone who has a Special Role. I'm not talking about something like the Patrons role, or the Retired Staff Role, or the Gamma role. I literally mean Special. Or Special 2. I know it exists somewhere, just gotta find it.

The reply on a status update with the most upvotes. (I actually could be wrong about this one, because the Shard is not kind with what it defines as content).

The earliest follow ever (Like how you follow users, and forums).

Also what the storms, I'm a Torturer of Heralds. 

ALSO. What the storms it's almost my Sharderversery.

............okay i've procrastinated for a good 2 hours. I'll go study for midterms now. 

My goodness. Shardiversary. Four years ago I joined this website...wow. Four years ago I was in freshman year of high school??? Where did the time go!? I'M A SENIOR NOW?? WHAT??? NO. HELP.

I guess...I really need to thank you all for giving me a lot of the reasons I'm still kicking nowadays. Thank you for helping me become...me. Who I am. Venture is now a pretty neat person, I think. Go me. Thank you. Go you.

So, in no exact order, the reminders of love and affection to the many many people who have influenced me over the course of my time here, beginsssss now.

@Condensation Hello There. Dang, wow. It's good to see you nowadays, y'know? We didn't know each other as well as we could've a short while back, but I'm so glad that we get to talk a lot more. You're such a creative person, and even through all the life stuff you’ve been having to mess with, you’ve still been Connie, my dear friend, the Grammar Queen (I sorely apologize for any future typos). I’m genuinely proud of you Con. I still owe you Wendy’s don’t I…hm…Regardless. You're amazing, and I am the better for having met you.

@Emi Do you know how in awe of you I am nowadays? I have seen you grow so much as a person, I'd be tempted to say you're almost unrecognizable. But I could never forget your endearing presence: anime, art, and all. And can I say dang your art is getting good. I know you won’t see this for a week or two, but you’ll be in my mind the whole time. I’m glad that you have such great friendships nowadays, and I am glad that I number among them.

@FriarFritz What can I say? You mean a lot to me. Not just because you recommended Arcane to me. I've always loved how passionate you are, how much you care for people. I make an effort to emulate the ideal you provide every day. Thank you for giving that to me. Thank you for the reminders and small acts of kindness, they give me such joy. Also ditch the poptarts pleaseeeeeeeee? 

@JesterLavorre I actually managed to play Magic: The Gathering with someone, even if it was only online, and you’re really good at it too! Also. Also also also. Sleepless Domain is pretty good, huh? Thanks for being so willing to spend your time with me. Maybe I can get you hooked on a few dozen more hundreds of webcomics. 

@King of the Oreo I love ya kiddo. Whether you see why or not, I do. I’m afraid there’s nothing you can do about that. Sorry. You still are an amazing person. No matter what, always and forever. So take care. Things will get better. I’ll be with you, because I enjoy spending time with you.

@Knight of Iron Thanks for letting me worldbuild with you, thank you for sharing your personal philosophy with me, thank you for being one of the strongest people I know, thank you for sharing your artistic talents. I wish you the best with your future. I’ll keep nagging you to eat more veggies though. I have a rolled up sheet of newspaper, so go buy some lettuce. I should have a few good recipes for you later if you want too.

@Mist You’re managing a lot. College, life, just…so much is stacked against you. And yet you still manage to make time for others. A fact I admire…just……so much. You’re a powerful person Mist. Make sure to take care of that person. You are the priority, I promise. I’ll make sure to get some extra sleep tonight if you do too, okay?

@Mystic Syn Synnie! I’m appalled that I don’t know you better. You truly are one of the great artists of our time, and more people need to give you the recognition you deserve! Drawing, writing, being an amazing friend. Plus you’re like…really super smart academically? You are so heckin cool, and we better spend more time together in the future. Maybe we can geek out about more movies, eh? Stay safe, things’ll settle down soon, I’ve got a feeling. 

@Scarletfox Scarlie. You’ve shared a lot of kind words with me, and I cannot express to you enough how much they’ve meant. The fact that you’ve grown so much from the person I first met, the way you’ve taken charge in your own life. You’re a fancy professional streamer now! That’s crazy!! Don’t give up on the chances you have, you are so worth your time. Also and maybe I have more music recommendations for you later? 

@Tesh Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I really….don’t have the words. There aren’t enough words to get across the scope of how much the friendship I've found with you has changed me. You’re way too hecking patient with me. But I’ve never seen you give up once. You’re always trying. You struggle with a lot. Sure, you can say it’s not much in scale…but you manage to stand up every day and overcome your own personal challenges. From musicals to writing to Greens, you are so passionate, so creative, so powerful. You are an idol of mine, and I am made better each moment by your friendship. We are going to see a performance of Come From Away one day. Y’hear? I’ll hunt you down somehow. 

@The Awakened Salad Bonjour Soup, Agent of Chaos, Herald of Leafy Greens, The Longest Armed One, eldritch horror from beyond our reality. You’re neat. *pat pat* Cannibalism and drugs are a thing. Yep.

@Vapor Hellllllooooo Vappie. *offers cuddles* I hope we get to see each other more often. We all care for you, regardless of whether you think so or not. So take care of yourself. If not for yourself, for us. 

@Zephrun's Imperium Star. You were a good person to me, someone I really needed. Thank you for being there. We’re still friends. Keep on living. You’ve survived this far, plus you’ve got Ward nowadays. Plus you’re on an upward path. Thank you for keeping going this far. 

@Blessing of Potency PO. Thanks for the chats. I’m really glad that I was able to offer a little bit of help to you, and I am really grateful for the kindness you’ve displayed recently. You’re a boss, insanely cool person, much gender envy, so gamer. I can’t wait to see you next time you’re online. You’ll have an amazing future, much romance, so video game, greatly awe inspiring.

@Lord_Silberfarben Y’all mean so much to me? You know that? Goodness, I can’t even. You’ve really motivated me to learn more about myself, about people, about the world around me. I’ve relied on your friendship so much. I swear to you, you are never a burden. Stay safe, please. I wish time zones weren’t a thing, eh? You can crush school, I believe in you.

@theTruthshaper You are going to take over the world one day. I see it now: Lady Truth, Queen of Eternity, First of her name, Empress of All, The Royal of Light, Phd. You got me into web serial novels. Worm, A Practical Guide to Evil, Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality. Not to mention all the fluffy stories I binged for weeks on end. They uh…cracked me up. You are definitely one of the most intelligent people I have ever met in my entire life, and I don’t expect that to really ever change. You just act so kind. I long to follow your example in life, because you are such a good person. Also you’re one of the very few people who read a webcomic I recommended, which is…woah. My regard for you is deep.

@Ookla the Meta Wassap Meta. We aren’t the closest of people. You’re a scary adult, ack. But…..you’re a scary adult, you’re scarily mature, and that comes with a lot of power. And you’ve used that for nothing but good. You’re a great person, and I look up to you. Thank you for being my friend

@AonEne Okay I’ll…admit. I had to brainstorm for a while to even begin this one...I just need to say that I really really care about you. You've struggled at times in your life, and you’re here today, displaying a love towards others that I can only describe as christ-like. You are one of the best people I know. You have been there for me, and I cannot possibly thank you enough for that. Even without trying you’re just so…you. Kindness and power and love are who you are. And you are so amazing because of who you are. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you so, so storming much. Thank you.
Oh you thought that was it did you. Well guess what. It isn’t. Cause also you’re a Mod nowadays??? You’re on Shardcast nowadays??? I got to see your amazing face once upon a time???? You yelled at me when I pushed you away??? I want to steal your you-ness cause it’s just so amazing to me, but someone told me identify theft is not allowed, as cool as Beetle is, and I guess as cool as you are too. Anyways Yeeter Indeeder.

@Darkfinder Vi, my buddy! Musicals and even though your name sounds really angsty, you really aren’t. You’re just…kindhearted. I’m glad that you’re doing well nowadays, keep up that pace. I believe in you

And….if I forgot you….I’m so sorry. It was not maliciously done.

What I would give to be able to teleport you all into a room and we be able to hang out in person.
What I would do for the chance to make it so none of you would ever experience struggle.
What I would say to change the minds of those who don’t understand you or help you.
What I would….
I would do a lot for y’all.
Thank you for being my friends
I love you all so, so much.

Here’s to another year, may it bring you all the success and love you deserve.

I am officially boosted

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Y’all ain’t ready for this

Happy birthday!

Yeah, so this was what I was making/doing as a way of actively ignoring math last night.

Happy birthday!

42 is the answer to life, the universe, and everything. I have 42 followers. Therefore, my followers are the answer to life, the universe, and everything!

There is nothing whatsoever wrong with this logic.

42 is the answer to life, the universe, and everything. I have 42 followers. Therefore, my followers are the answer to life, the universe, and everything!

There is nothing whatsoever wrong with this logic.

So. You know how you can just get....really bored. But you have something you're meant to be doing? So you're procrastinating I guess. But at the same time you're in a really productive state. Just not working on what's meant to be worked on. You do? Good. Okay

I'm meant to be doing work, and then, bam, it's time for me to find out as much about the 17th shard website as I can. 

Maybe I'll make it a challenge for you...yeah? Yeah! Okay. Here's the things you need to find. 

A guest account with messages.

The status update with the most replies.

A calendar update with upvotes.

The image comment with the most upvotes.

(I don't know if this one is possible, I spent a good hour on it. (I kinda want a mod to answer it for me.)) Someone who has a Special Role. I'm not talking about something like the Patrons role, or the Retired Staff Role, or the Gamma role. I literally mean Special. Or Special 2. I know it exists somewhere, just gotta find it.

The reply on a status update with the most upvotes. (I actually could be wrong about this one, because the Shard is not kind with what it defines as content).

The earliest follow ever (Like how you follow users, and forums).

Also what the storms, I'm a Torturer of Heralds. 

ALSO. What the storms it's almost my Sharderversery.

............okay i've procrastinated for a good 2 hours. I'll go study for midterms now. 

So. You know how you can just get....really bored. But you have something you're meant to be doing? So you're procrastinating I guess. But at the same time you're in a really productive state. Just not working on what's meant to be worked on. You do? Good. Okay

I'm meant to be doing work, and then, bam, it's time for me to find out as much about the 17th shard website as I can. 

Maybe I'll make it a challenge for you...yeah? Yeah! Okay. Here's the things you need to find. 

A guest account with messages.

The status update with the most replies.

A calendar update with upvotes.

The image comment with the most upvotes.

(I don't know if this one is possible, I spent a good hour on it. (I kinda want a mod to answer it for me.)) Someone who has a Special Role. I'm not talking about something like the Patrons role, or the Retired Staff Role, or the Gamma role. I literally mean Special. Or Special 2. I know it exists somewhere, just gotta find it.

The reply on a status update with the most upvotes. (I actually could be wrong about this one, because the Shard is not kind with what it defines as content).

The earliest follow ever (Like how you follow users, and forums).

Also what the storms, I'm a Torturer of Heralds. 

ALSO. What the storms it's almost my Sharderversery.

............okay i've procrastinated for a good 2 hours. I'll go study for midterms now.