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song idea maybe????: bay blue baby blue sky blue eyes my girl, my love with eyes like stars, could never tell me lies

ok guys stop wait this is crazy im actually in like genuine shock right now so basically lately i’ve been feeling like i’m in an art block and just not making any progress abd then i looked back to a piece i did a year ago and— and— and i literally was dying and i’m gonna publicly embarrass myself and post them here (even though most of y’all have already seen them) they’re actually of the same character this was april 1st 2023 this was april 8th 2024 the iMpRoVeMeNt like BRUH

nobody: literally nobody: every single worksheet/page of notes i own, for actually no reason:

guys help i'm so burnt out i can't even like write a poem about it i'm so done i just want school to go away and never come back LIKE WHY DO I HAVE TO MAKE 85 ANNOTATIONS ON THIS 8 PAGE PACKET?!?!?! i got it today it's due tomorrow and it's a *test grade* like WHUT ugh i'm so done but yeah i'm feeling burnt out and stuck and empty

I been writing a lot. Lot to process. Thx to those who read and care. ~ Stick

I'm legitimately thinking about going 30 days without internet, as the detox is much needed to help me kind of reset as I'm averaging 10-12 or even more hours online everyday. The only thing that is making me think twice really is that I won't be on hear at all during that time. Which...I know I can do it, but I really wanted to do the next hunger games and some SE and random interactions with y'all are always the best. I mean...it is only 30 days, then I'll be back...for a few weeks before I'm gone for two months...and then college. Sigh. Hard choices, but I think I need to do this... we'll see ig.

BEGIN LOG If love is so fragile, then why continue to repair it after it cracks? Once it has filled its surface with this many cracks, wouldn’t it be easier to leave it be and let it decay and shatter and fall apart over time? Yes. It would be easier. But that doesn’t mean it’s the correct thing to do. Love is so fragile because it needs to be constantly repaired. It is an essential part of love, that need for constant repair, for maintenance, for reassurance of devotion. Some may wonder why to keep that lamp on, to keep its ornate ceramic looking beautiful, despite the cracks. “Look at your lamp,” They say, “It is cracked and flawed. Shouldn’t you discard it and put a new flawless copy in its place?” And I say to them, “You know nothing of this. This lamp has seen much. Endured much. It’s stories are nestled in the cracks spreading across its ceramic. It’s journey is weaved into the stone it is made of as if a testament of all it has seen and heard. Is this not a sign of flawless and perfect existence? Perfection in imperfection?” This lamp, this love.. It will dim. It will brighten. Sometimes the power will blink out, leaving us in the dark. But the lights will come back on. And we will fight to love. We will choose to love, and to live, and we will nurture the cracks. Let them settle. And when someone asks about them, we will tell that story. I will engrave bluebirds into our lamp. I will stamp ravens to the surface, let crows flutter onto the stone. I will put roses, and chrysanthemums, and moonflowers and sunflowers, and I will sprinkle it in color so that when it is finished, it will be colorful in ways you only could have dreamed of. I have made mistakes. I have cracked our lamp. I will mend the crack. I will transform it into something beautiful. I will build on it, and build into a future with you. This is my vow to you.

GUYS IM WRITING NOVA A NIGHTMARE AND ITS SO GOOD ITS SO GOOD I CANT EVEN

Eleven twenty five, on a Saturday night. Careful white blossoms that are almost sickly sweet are strewn upon the ground, beautiful in their carelessness. There’s laughter. And singing. So much noise, Followed by a perfect quiet. The quiet is the eye of a storm. A place where emotions, And thoughts, And words fade away. The world crumbles beyond it but here, Here All is well. For a moment, There is no terror, No desperation, No longing, And no exhaustion. A single ball, A single night of glittering dresses and earnest gentlemen. A single night where reality is gone, And we have stepped into wonderland. And oh, It is beauriful. Eleven twenty nine, on a Saturday night, and I am home in the eye of the storm. One family… No mourners.

Life is so busy right now but I’m in such a good mood and I wanted to share the joy. i am so proud of myself for committing to getting something done, no matter how good or bad, and not expecting perfection from myself for once. Here it is. a webtoon im starting… GRAY https://www.webtoons.com/en/canvas/gray/list?title_no=95459 please come read it! Like it! Comment! Or subscribe! It would mean so freaking much to me. thank you all for being so amazing

guys guys toothpaste is just teeth soap

Just won $5 off of each of my family members in a game of poker. Final week of teaching Gonna get good sleep Much good things are happening.

ok so remember when i said said that my ren faire outfit is too hot cuz there’s too many layers? i’m gonna put together a few different options and i want y’all to help me choose :3 thanks in advance!!!

My mind: LET'S GO JUMP AROUND THE HOUSE AND BOUNCE OFF THE WALLS WHILE SPOUTING NONSENSE. My body: What is wrong with you? My mind: I HAVE NO IDEA.

hey guys I promised I'd post pictures from prom, so here they are

*side eyes entire shard population* So... why'd I win yesterday? -_^ I have something cool to share!! My dad gave me a new travel mug thingy last night and it's my favorite color! AND I PUT A STORMLIGHT STICKER ON IT SO I HAVE TO SHARE A PICTURE- ISN'T IT GEORGOUS!!!??!?!?! I'M SO HYPER AND YET I HAVE NO ENERGYYY WTHECK IS THISSSSSSS T-T IDK WHAT ELSE TO SAY!! LOVE Y'ALL!!! ~ STICK

Making songs is hard. Idk why but I felt like writing my own song(s) and I have a pretty good idea of one in my head, but chords are just like ?????? and I'm very confused. The lyrics part isn't nearly as bad though, cuz I can words okay enough, but I don't think I have the confidence in my singing skills to actually sing the lyrics but oh well. It's still fun. Music is really cool.

I haven’t talked about this yet on here. But I am currently on a mission for my church. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later day saints and am about 15 months into a service mission. It’s been really great and I have truly seen miracles and many amazing things. I know this may come as a surprise especially to those who I met at Dragonsteel because I didn’t mention it. But I just didn’t feel comfortable at the time. This post is more about me becoming more comfortable about sharing my beliefs than a life update. So if you’re not interested or don’t really care that’s fine. This is for me. This community has meant so much to me the past several months and has given me the motivations and courage to push my self to do more and be more proactive. You are all great and I know I am going to be here a long time. I hope this doesn’t make anyone feel alienated, that is the last thing I want, but I am who I am. And that is a son of God, a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later day Saints, a Missionary of the Lord, and have depression, ADHD, dyslexia, and dysgraphia. I know this is a lot to say for one statues update but I felt that I needed to stope being afraid to have the discussions about my beliefs and my struggles. I have been on meds for years for both my depression and ADHD, and have been in some dark place both before and after I started the meds. I also have had my faith tested many time, but I also have had it reinforced countless times. If anyone has any questions about my faith, my mission, or my disability feel free to ask. And if anyone is struggling with dark thoughts, whether it do to depression or not, please know that I am always willing to talk about it. I have been in the deepest depths of depression before and I will all ways be here if someone need to talk, or even is they just need someone to listen. I hope you all have a great day and cant wait to see what happens next on this amazing sight Your friends and fellow world hopper Evan (aka Silver Phantom)

Poem. last night was rough. ~ Stick

*sighs* Guys... I think I'm dying. Here's a poem. Another SU coming soon. You have to read this one to understand the next one though. ~ Stick

here’s more of my OC Nova! She’s angry/sad in the first scene because she and her boyfriend kinda fell out but she doesn’t remember why because she lost her memory from the past two weeks, and he’s not really willing to talk about it and so she’s really confused and nothing makes sense and it’s aggravating so she goes and beats up her bedpost and ends up with injured hands and so they end up lookin like this but yep i had like 30 minutes this morning to doodle so these just exist now

don’t ever take fundip powder (or anything of the sort) straight it’s not worth it unless you want to have a brush with death due to asphyxiation your eyes burn and well up and you can’t see anything and your body is like trying to cough and throw up at the same time while you’re hacking into the sink, trying to breathe and when you finally do it burns like heck don’t do it you guys 0/10 do not recommend

guys GUYS today’s a palindrome 4/20/2024 4202024

Me: Woah, I'm sure getting some weird ominuous vibes even though I'm just chillin' on the couch . . . *The dune soundtrack playing loudly in the background, which I turned on randomly a few minutes ago and promptly forgot about because it's gets really quiet at some parts*

to have someone head over heels for you and not being able to reciprocate is like the worst feeling ever tempted to write a poem about it ON THE OTHER HAND today was amazing idk why it just was and i got three whole assignments done in just my spare minutes during classes THREE!!! i have three more to do before i’m done for the day, and i’m saving the other six for tomorrow. or later today, i dunno. BUT IM GONNA BE HELLA PRODUCTIVE!!! and it’s gonna be awesome!!! and if i get it all done before 4:30 i’ll post a song let’s do this :determined-smile:

I want you to know you're quickly becoming one of my favorite Shardcast peoples. Whenever I hear you in the intro, I'm like "Oh, Ene's here! It's going to be a good one."

Yeah... That moment when you stumble into someone else's writing And are returned to the crying wreck You were Earlier... April 18 - A day for tears.

Update: 30 days without my phone starts today. I'll still be on here somewhat on my laptop, but activity will be inconsistent during this time. Y'all are awesome!

i'm sorry i'm so sorry I can't do this anymore I love you guys

Film Ideas: - The Robot vs. Humans stereotype, but the 'Robots' are just people that live with VR headsets all the time now. - A world where there is a way to travel for short periods of time to an alternate dimension where you basically live through a scenario in someone's shoes. Like mind meld and it's like they are making the same choices that the same person was making so that they can perfectly understand what someone went through.

*cries* you guys this nightmare is going so horribly idk if it's just my writing brain but like maybe i just need to read it out loud-- OH MY CHASMS WAIT I HAVE A LITTLE SISTER *GASP* SISTER SOUNDING BOARD TIME, LET'S GO i'll try and post by the weekend lol, i want it to actually be decent when i put it up xD THANKS FOR YOUR PATIENCE LOVE Y'ALL <33333333333333333

Does anyone know what can cause someone to be mentally fatigued if they're still getting enough sleep? Because I've been very unproductive and unfocused all evening and I don't know why.

theres these two guys that I have in my 1st and 7th period classes and they've been really disrespectful lately but it's never been directed at me but today one of them commented on my weight, saying that I need to eat more and he also was questioning why I was wearing a knee brace, and why my friend was wearing a "fake" boot for her leg the bone in her leg was shattered because she plays soccer and someone rammed the bottom of their cleat into her leg and I told him "why are you so invested in our medical lives? you don't need to know everyone's story" but then he also said "you have really thick thighs, considering that you're highly anorexic" and i was like "you shouldn't be looking at them anyway. you sit in the first row of the class, me and (my friend) sit in the way back. we're supposed to be watching a documentary, so you shouldn't be looking back here in the first place. maybe if you actually payed attention for once and actually worked on the worksheet that goes along with it, you wouldn't be struggling to focus on something other than my thighs. we wouldn't be having this conversation right now if you were actually responsible. did your mother not give you enough love as child or something? is that why you feel the need to verbally attack people who did literally nothing to you? no instigating, whatsoever?" and then i just walked out of the classroom and brought my friend with me because i didnt want to deal with it anymore, but on the way out, I passed the two of them and I told them that they should have been the poster children for keeping abortion legal anyway how're y'all?

I, have been making the WORST puns known to mankind. So, to start the story, yesterday, I found a piece of Granite.. So I've been replacing granted with granite.. and my friends are beginning to hate it lmao

Y'know when there's like . . . 15 things bothering you and so you feel completely awful but none of the things are big enough to give you an excuse to go home? Yeah . . . .

GUYS I got my first salary From a tutoring side hustle

When is brandon going to realize that he can just crowdfund a movie. like he made 41 million dollars from the year of sanderson kickstarter alone, and another 23 million from the WoR leatherbound. 64 million dollars for relatively small products. The LOTR trilogy cost 514 million dollars, adjusted for inflation. That’s not that much more. Okay sure it’s about 10x as much, but the fandom would be WAY more excited about getting a movie than about the Year of Sanderson. Probably around 10x as excited, by my estimation. And then Brandon would have COMPLETE creative control. It’s the perfect solution.

Back to back SUs, read the previous poem to understand this. ~Stick 4-22-24

k so funny story i was getting ready for school this morning and i looked in the mirror and i was like “omg ok slayyy ” and then throughout the day i was like semiconscious of my hair becoming slightly oily because we’re on hair day three and also i spilled ketchup on my pants at lunch and i realized halfway through the day how low-effort my outfit looked (not that that’s a bad thing lol, everyone else was just kinda dressed up) i was like trying to convince myself that it was probably fine and i didn’t have to worry abt it and then i got home, looked in the same mirror, and literally saw and the first thought that went through my brain was “it is as i feared” … …does this happen to anyone else?? just me? ok… on the other hand, my whole entire body is sore and i have absolutely no clue why

Okay SO. The main issue with the gauntlets is that the piece that goes over my forearm is 1) kinda long and 2) loose. Not only that, but the loop that goes around my thumb is nice and snug without gloves, but impossible to wear with gloves. And I need the gloves in order for the gauntlets to not be loose. I have an old belt, so I could cut some leather off of that to fix the thumb issue. I could also cut down the leather that wraps around the bottom of my forearm a little bit, to make it fit more snugly. However, if that doesn't work, I would then not be able to return them. So, I have a bit of a dilemma. More likely, but not by much, I'll probably DIY it, since that would be a good learning experience. On a side note, I hate that when I try to make a lettered list and type "B)" it autocorrects to

Yesterday was state esports. I play MarioKart, and we took first in that. Overall, my esports team also placed first. It was age is amazing. Less amazing is the 4+ hour drive back, getting home after 2:00. I’m still not home yet.

Hi! What's going on in your lives? Feel free to answer that however you want, if you want more of a prompt you can tell me one thing that's been hard and two things that are good! One thing that's been hard for me is figuring out if I'm going to stay in my college town for the summer or move back home with my parents. Good things: one is that I got on depression medication! Wooooo! Another is that my run of The Tempest is going well, we close tomorrow (which is sad but good!)

My dad: You're obviously depressed and are showing symptoms like being tired all the time, insomnia, really low energy, aching, and low appetite, and you have a really hard time waking up and getting up on time for school on 5 hours of sleep on average. So how can I help you with this? Me: I don't know maybe anti-depressants and an actual structured routine supported by my parents, which neither seem to be willing to help with? My dad: Nope, absolutely not. If you don't try harder and just do better, I'll just send you to a military school for six months! That's obviously the solution! Me: (-_-)

I’m 99.99% straight. The 0.01% is me imagining myself as Aziphrael. I’m not technically watching the show if it’s just a few compilations on YouTube. Right?

Welcome friends to my morning where the only radio stations playing are Taylor Swift Taylor swift and Taylor swift- I know its a large variety!

I'm sure many of you have heard about the refiner's fire and how we are being refined in the refiner's fire and that we need to go through intense heat to become purified and all that awesome stuff. But today I learned something crazy! It has to do when silver is purified. It goes through all the heat and pounding and all that, but the way that they know that the silver has been purified is when they can see their own reflection in the silver. So literally He is refining us, and we will be completely purified once God looks at us and sees in us a reflection of himself, of course not literally, but in every other way. And man that just hit me. Like He is refining us so that we can become like Him. That's all.

GUYS GUYS GUYS ESPECIALLY INSANITY CLINIC PEEPS (so like @Spark of Hope @Cash67 @shortcake @Weaver of Lies and um everyone else I’m forgetting) So I think I’ve mentioned that Tal is an OC I created a while back So I was looking through some of my old stuff And found this scene from like 2 years ago And it definitely needs editing But stoooorrrmmssss I forgot how much I hurt my poor baby… This is right after Ace’s death, enjoy! My poor lil boyyyyy <333

Okay so. I have two options. 1: live in my college town for the summer, it would be $775 plus utilities (about $25/month) for the full summer. I'd have to pay for my own gas and buy my own food. I would continue working my current job, which doesn't have very regular hours, but it pays pretty well. I would also want to get a more regular job, maybe at a thrift store or a coffee/drink shop or a cute little local restaurant. I would be near a lot of my college friends, so I could do things with them and continue wearing my less "modest" outfits and going by a more gender-neutral nickname sometimes and using multiple pronoun sets and just in general continue figuring myself out in that way. 2: move back in with my parents. Free housing, free food, they'd probably even pay for my gas, I'd already have a regular, well-paying job that I mostly enjoy lined up, and I could try out for a production of Aida that would also pay. But I would either have to act like the version of me that my parents knew from when I was in high school, or let them meet this version of me when I'm not even sure I like this version of me and I'm actively trying new things to figure myself out. I know everyone is always a "rough draft" of themselves, but my current draft feels especially rough, and I don't feel ready for my parents to see it. There have already been times just over phone calls where it's felt like my parents and I are on the brink of a breaking point regarding my identity, and if I live with them over the summer it'll be even more difficult. However, my program is also next year incorporating travel opportunities, so next year I could travel with a faculty mentor to New York, and the following year to London. I would, however, have to pay my own way. So, saving money by going home would be really helpful for that. But is it worth it if I would be living a lie all summer?? Oh and I need to decide by Tuesday, because the girl whose lease I'd be buying if I stay needs to know by then. Any input/advice is welcome, lmk if you have any questions lol

IT'S HEEEEEEEERE The gauntlets, unfortunately, are a bit too big. But they look SUPER cool! The pouch fits my phone, and the shirt fits perfectly, but I haven't put the full fit together yet. I will when I have gauntlets that fit right.

One of the nice things about being invisible is that you can sneak more screen time while people forget you're there!