i cant trust myself in high places. sometimes i want to fly. or jump to my death. sometimes i fail to see the difference. sometimes i want to do other stupid things, like buy a pet, legally change my name, kiss my best friend. i saw three flipped and crumpled cars over the edge of a cliff. i wanted to climb down and crawl inside until i found skeletons. when i looked over the edge of the grand canyon i wondered how many deaths weren't accidents.